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woke up realisiing i'd had a great long dream so thought i better write it all down now while its still fresh. woke up later and realised i hadnt woken up at all and hadnt written anything down in real life.... doh

basically i was in hatfield with loads of old mates getting to know the old group again. there was some sort of sports clubhouse and my mate was guiding me around and showing me where the keys, lockers and all that were. later we met up with the group and i remarked that one of them hadnt aged at all- major dreamsign missed there. the main bit i remember after that was trying to fly with craig but he felt like a bit of a dead weight so it was tough. one of those shitty flapping flying dreams where you get very little back for all the effort you put in. most of it was set by the river i hatfield which was lined with gigantic redwood type trees and was generally an amazing bit of parkland. wasnt really a proper lucid i suppose although i knew i could fly and take others with me

great long lucid last night. pre lucid i was walking through a forest with a barn owl. then i was by a ravine with a mate and a girl in front. i said to my mate something like havent we seen this in a dream before, to which he dismissed it and carried on walking. i knew it was a dream and launched myself off the ravine backwards..? i caught up with the girl and walked her home, stopping on the way with loads of distractions. we got to my place and i took my shoes off. i was losing lucidity, and as it was quite wet, when she had to leave i thought i had to go and put my shoes back on to walk her home.

when she was gone i was in a place that was bit like a terraced stand. again the feeling of overlooking something made me realise i could launch off it. i started to tell people around me that it was a dream. one guy shhhssed everyone else so they could hear me. itold him he shouldnt have done that because now what i was saying would be rubbish. i wxplained that it was a dream and one guy said ok then well why dont you just do something like its a dream. i said ok, then everyone elses doubt started to spill into me. i said to him that its easy to control a dream when you are on your own, but it is much harder when you ae surrounded by loads of skeptical dc's. i was going to just jump off the terrace to prove it, so they lined up this little deep pool at the bottom for us to land in. this put me off further as it was a cold night and i had a long way to walk back wet. its crazy how lucidity comes in waves and just dissapears for short times.

anyway i knew i couldnt fly properly at the time so i just ounced down the terrace steps getting higher each time and then proving it was a dream by bouncing high and landing on my head. there is a bit of a gap now and then i remember having seena film called "return to bril castle" which had really influenced this dream. ive never seen the film but the tv i watched before bed definately played a big part.

i was cd shopping, which is odd because ive not brought a cd for ages, with someone else i know from another place on the net. we bought some similar cd's but they all got mixed up and we spent a while trying to get the right ones. i think at some point i threw some liquid off the building i was in. this caused loads of people to be pissed at me, but i was just acting like a dick and treating it like it didnt matter at all. of course it didnt really matter but maybe i should just explain myself better next time. even if its just because it is so much fun to explain to the characters that it is a dream

sweet series of lucids last night, but memory is getting hazy now. one bit i was talking to this woman and her girl about obe's astrals etc. when the woman said she didnt believe in obe's a had to ask her where she thought her body was now, or what body did she think she was using now. she still said she didnt believe so i just explained that she was basically saying she didnt believe in dreams and left it there. i spoke to her girl insted who seemed to agree that when she dreams she is away from her real body somehow, and i said that i guess when we are flying around in our dream body, that is essentailly what astral travel is.

had a couple more recurring bits. one was a party for me when i dont expect that many people to turn up, then eventually it gets quite full. one woman there was impressed with something i was doing and offered to give me a cheque for 100k to carry on my work. not sure if it was the garden work or just the dreaming stuff she was impressed by, but eventually the offer was withdrawn for some reason. this pissed me off but the party was still good.

it was in this block of flats and a group of tourists turned up. they were from jamaica and eventually turned into the west indies cricket team. by this stage i was flying around looking at things that i had previously planted around the town. there was this awesome 'guava' tree with massive purple fruit on it that was just so beautiful. shame it wouldnt grow here in reality..

the next bit was another recurring place, but i think it doesnt really have a deep meaning to it, just a place that has formed in my mind that i like and revisit. after the place had changed back to a place more resembling reality i asked a guy if he knew the place i was talking about. it was like a bar with a big blue menu screen behind the bar and the music playing was heartbeats by the knife. the bar was kind of part garden centre as well, and we were getting things for the garden and even large daisy like flowers seemed somehow miraculous to me however i still didnt really get lucid at this point as i was earlier. reminded me that i had one earlier in the week where jools holland was presenting a tv show in front of 12 foot daffodils

had one that i have had many times before only much clearer, longer and more lucid than before. i was explaining to people that i had dreamt this before yet didt quite get completely lucid until later. it is set in this big building like a pub/house/hotel style thing. it often revolves around the owner who is a shady illusionist type guy. the clearest and weirdest part of this one was going up to 'his' door again. its often in this dream and it feels like this is the key part of the dream. this time as we approached the door (im usually alone but this time reece and grumb were there) water was cascading from out behind it as if it would flood everything. however when we went up to touch it, the water was completely false, just like some visual illusion. there was much more general pub/friend stuff but nothing i can remember apart from taking pics of ugo and others as we watched some show.

i think the building must somehow represent my mind, and the owner/my boss is like the piece of my that is truely in control (subconscious?). ive been through the door in a similar dream, however not in this setting. its rare to have such odd, twisted characters in a dream as this guy, he is sometimes like some kind of derren brown 19th century occultist or something and it often feels like he is just fucking around with us

other random notes i remember are being in my name is earl and being in bed with all of them even catalina. also talking about wild caveman hair with this girl... random also being in a studio with karen and trying to make some music... hm more will probably come up soon

really weird one last night where i was at this agency type facility place ive been to often but never that consciously. what i remember was that we all sat through 3 screenings of this video, but for some reason it felt like a wasnt allowed to really be conscious for the first 2 and only really remember running up and jumping on this cushion i was holding and sitting down to watch the film on the 3rd screening, yet none of the film content whatsoever.

later on i had a moment where i was rearranging the posters on my wall and was shocked when i realised on waking up that they were all still in the same place. really felt like i had got up to do it in the night. then i got a bit contemplative in the dream and really emotional for no reason at all. it felt like i really needed a big cry to release some shit that has built up, but even the thought of crying made me feel really happy, like crying was just my way of letting off some steam and a way that i could be in control of my emotions. may try to actually have a crying session sometime, but its hard when you feel so different to how i did in the dream

a really lengthy stable semi lucid last night. felt like a good few hours at least. it was based in this area i have been before which is like a cross between manchester,london and a holiday resort. there was even a mix of manc friends home friends and my brother was there too.

it was all based around trying to get into this waterpark club type thing which is a common theme these days. i needed shorts to go there and luckily i had been wearing shorts the day before and still had them on in my dream. this isnt the first time ive been wearing that days clothes in a dream... anyway my mates all got into this park. to get in there were 3 stories and lifts taking you up. all the lifts but one only took you up to the 2nd floor but you needed to get to the top to get into the club/park. i got up to the second floor with my bro but then he got in the next lift which was tiny and had to be hand pulled. i remember getting a funny look from someone when i tried to stop this crazy lift to get on, by pressing the wrong buttons. there were loads of them and how was i to know . 4 people were in it and it was full so i couldnt go. rather than wait around i tried to find alternate routes. i asked this girl how i could get there, struggling to get out the words to explain what i meant. i managed though and she complimented me and tried to help. we were off walking round this plaza trying to find another way in when i got a bit sidetracked.

i spent most of the rest of the dream going round in a quad/go cart style thing, looking for something but losing track of what i was looking for. there were loads of other people in weird little remote control type cars too which was odd, but they were all waiting in line and driving like it was a real road with laws while i was just having fun. it was like one of those vehicles i always get in dreams where you just have to pull the front up a bit and it will go. ive had this with airbed/lilo type things in the past and its a great way to travel. next time iwill have to try out a magic carpet because i imagine its pretty much the same effect. i will get to that fcking waterpark. ive been in before but never very lucidly and never really managed to get on the monstrous rides they have there. there is one bit i have been to alot though where there is a diving platform above these 4 pools. i think in the past when i have dived off into these pools, they often take you away into another part of the dream

did a long wbtb this morning 730-900 and woke up with that vague memory of having an amazing dream yet absolutely nothing coming to me at the time. hours later i remember the most amazing part of it. i was just driving locally and went through a local town (st albans). its an old roman town (verulamium) and it was like i was driving around it during roman times. there is a cathedral there now, but in the dream it was attached to this amazing vatican like mass of official looking buildings. it was probably all a bit too fancy to be like roman buildings actually were, but just the scale and the grandness of it all were so impressive. it was all enclosed and the road went straight through the complex through loads of arches and tunnels. the last thing i remember was driving through a tunnel and down into a labrynth type thing

glady back to some epic dreams with some stable lucid periods too. one i remember was just sitting on a big square area with other people and just using senses to explore the space without mving and just trying to stay there for as long as i could. only felt a couple of minutes but it was more stable than other recent lucid bits. i remember saying to a friend 'so even if there was any possibility of us sharing a dream, i bet you would never get in touch to check would you? no one wants to be the one to sound crazy...'

an epic work/school based on last night. based around a vending machine type thing which i had to scan into to get my stuff to pack and deliver. had the numbers switch and move but i still battled on unlucid for a while. the main theme of the dream was once again authority figures misusing their power and me trying to get out of it and change it but this time was a bit different. this time it was call me dave cameron blended with some old bosses of mine. he had done or said something that was completely out of line and i was trying to cath him out somehow. trying to do it without resorting to violence although i do remember squeezing him/something in my hands to show it that it had no real power.

i remember asking people how i could go about sorting it and one answer i remember from a neighbours character was basically just that i had to become like my own lawyer and learn the law for myself in order to beat these guys. for once a dc talked absolute sense was good to have one of these dreams and be conscious enough to actively go about changing the whole situation for the better, rather than just avoid it or run away. even if i wasnt lucid enough to realise non of it mattered, perhaps i just need to see it through. in past dreams i definately remember having a room where it feels like you just cant go into because your bosses are some kind of inhuman monsters, but in this one there was no fear only a brief recollection of past similar moments and then i definately went in although sadly cant really remember what happened when i did.. perhaps thats when i squeezed cam,, i dont know

had a good dild early in the night. managed to stabilise through touch while flying but didnt stabilise lucidty enough so flew off and went back into au unlucid series. more metal based reality checks and deepening next time

first real apocalypse style dream last night. i was just standing with a mate and the sun was getting larger and larger. you could see the flames all around it and it seemed to be coming closer to earth. as well as the flames, it was also sending out all these bright red electric looking waves and pulses. the odd thing was there was no fear at all. in fact we were just walking towards it slowly. there was just a feeling of oh well if you gotta go this seems like a good way to do it. also a feeling of there isnt much point in trying to run or fight against something as massive and powerful as an expanding sun. it was just mind blowingly beautiful and that was the main feeling i remember from it

couple of very short lucids this morning, thanks to finally being able to drag my ass out of bed early for a good wbtb. first one i was walking through a tube station in london and a friend walked past who ignored me when i called her. this got me lucid but i failed to stabilise it.

second one i was in my front room and there was a parrot/kakapo ( major dreamsign) on the windowledge outside. it was feeding its chicks and suddenly they all burst into the room which was pretty awesome. they went back out and i looked at them and the youngsters turned into different kinds of birds which got me curious, then when one of them became a tortoise it was pretty clear it ws a dream. again though i failed to stabilise because im a bit out of practice, but it was a great dream and further proof that its fairly simple to get lucid as along as i make the effort

still having really long rambling semi lucid dreams. i keep getting lucid, but never for long enough to acheive anything because the dreams are so crowded with people that i get distracted all the time. main bits i remember last night are flying with a few other people, and practising for it by jumping repeatedly without actually touching the ground. this was because i could somehow feel this electric charge like feeling which seemed to be powering flying. it seemed like these jumps were somehow charging the ability to fly.

they sill all have school/holiday type vibes and last night one ended with me trying to get to an old mates birthday party.

also ive been having a recurring dream i had forgotten in which i have a false awakening, and tihnking im awake, i explain the previous dream to whoever is there, but i am so absolutley 100% sure that it happened somewhere sometime that it almost hurts. probably just memories of past dreams that make themselves feel real when you are still dreaming.

its been very odd lately because i thought that i had never forgotten being lucid in a dream before, because usually its towards the morning and i will wake up and recall it. however lately ive been remembering throughout the day little moments where i had been lucid the previous night. makes me wonder what else i could have forgotten

a bizzare but fun one today. starts with being in some big hall with a lot of people there. one really odd character was throwing mince at people and then started to become more violent and throwing chairs and things. it seemed he was gonna hurt someone so we decided that we had to do something. i got a chair and we chased him. eventually cornering him, i stuck the chair over his neck pinning him down. he turned out to be made of mince ( i guess this all may be something to do with eating alot less meat lately?). he kept escaping so finally i put him in a bag and told a mate to go and put him in the freezer. after a while i asked him what he had done with him and he said he had put him back in his room, but only in a bag. we went back to his room and he had just put him in a bag in his drawer which made me crack up laughing. anyway he was just a pile of mince by now so no longer any threat it was hilarious to me so i recounted this story to the people there, starting off with you wont believe this because its so stupid but im going to tell you anyway...

there was a bit earlier where i was back at my old football club, and this girl asked me if i remembered her. i knew i knew her from an epic holiday dream i had about a month or two back, but this didnt get me lucid yet. somewhere along the time when i was telling the story of the mince man, it became clear that i was dreaming. it wasnt the clearest lucid, but it was based in a holiday party dream, so my tasks just went out of the window as i tried to just stabilise it enough to make it last longer and just go with the flow of the dream. in my mates room there were 2 girls (ors, marm) dancing in a wardrobe, and even though it looked too small in there, i thought i had to get in on that. we danced for a bit then it felt like time to move onto another part of the holiday. everything just felt so loving, like we were all on the same wavelength and there were no issues between anybody that we could all just share all this fun together. i got told that i seemed to have so much life, and as this was from someone with plenty of it themselves it just felt so nice and reassuring. ive definately had alot more energy lately and went on an amazingly long ride yesterday without getting at all tired. i definately feel that dreams can somehow effect your real life energy because sometimes they drain me whereas recently they have just energised me.

i found a mate who had the key to our apartment. (by this time i was semi lucid, but lucid enough to remember to keep stabilising) i put the key in my wallet and walked off into the dream with the 2 girls. i remember dropping the key and then finding it again, but sadly like too many other dreams, do not remember getting back to the apartment, and just remember partying with the crowds of people there. the only dream goal i really got to do was just walking around practising trying to find the things and people that i was looking for at the time. this was pretty successful and all in all a pretty amazing lucid that was one of the first times where i didnt have to trade off between the epicness of the dream, and my lucidity in it.

tech: just some mantras before bed, some tactile/visual visualisations and a wbtb after 4 hours sleep and a brief sit in bed while waking.

just had a lucid which blew my freaking socks off.

prelucidbefore i was lucid i was in this bar/shop. it was like tescos crossed with my old local the bull. people were working and i was training. all i remember was that it seemed odd that it was all sales based when the only real work to do was cleaning. unfortuately i spen a good few minutes of the dream cleaning up tescos i remember that someone was growing fruit so i told them they should come and see my roof garden (real) where ive got raspberries, strawberries, blueberries, currrants etc growing. when it felt more like a bar there was an old friend there who i got on well with. she was friendly as ever and it was all going well. when she left momuntarily my mate JC asked me about her. i just said something like 'well its always been a kind of 60:40 thing between us really. he then went 'oops shes right there' and she was right behind me. this upset her and she stormed out.

i followed to explain what i meant even though i wasnt entirely sure myself. she seemed to think that i was just rating my chances of a shag to my mate, but it wsnt like that at all. i explained that it was more like because we were always in different places, i had never rated the chances of it happening until then. this didnt help and because i had hold of her gently, i t must have seemed like i was the bad guy to these passing 3 blokes. they started to attack me with whatever they had (golf clubs) but i immediately recognised the main attacker as an old school friend. i told him it ws me but it didnt help!! he kept on hitting me and i could feel it a bit, but it didnt bother me. i managed to get hold of one of the clubs and miraculously took out the 2 others with one throw. this just brought further spite from the rest of the bar crowd and they all circled on me. the growing unease made me really assess my surroundings in a heightened fight or flight manner. it slowly dawned on me that i was just in an internal vision of my fears creating

lucid part this was finally enough to send me lucid. it was very tough though, and i feared that in the face of all this, i would just wake sraight away if i allowed myself to believe in the dream. somehow i managed to stabilise while getting lucid otherwise in wouldnt have worked. i looked at my mate (DM) and told him it was just a dream. he said it wasnt (or stronger words ) but i tried to show him. finger through palm failed miserably as it was already too stable for that. instead i just floated above the bar so the whole pub could catch on.

I was in a very crowded pub, so it was tricky to just ignore people amd do my own thing. this didnt matter though as floating in front of the bar was enough to prove that it was a dream to eveyone. plus luckily it seemed to help them to forgive me for whatever happened with the girl. i stabilised by rubbing my hands on the bar and peering round at everything quickly. they all responded well and asked me how they could stabilise it. once it was solid enough i said to DM that i was going outside for a quick fly. he joined me. along with a massive stream of people who flowed out of the pub. it was raining so i had the beautiful experience of stabilising a dream with the coolness of the rain. i took off and about 10 people took off from below me. a little mid air spin helped to make the flight so stable. normally i dont even get to land, but this was different. this is only the 2nd time i remember flying with other people, and the sight of them taking off below me was one of the most amazing experiences of my life. i pretty much cried with joy, then flew around with a mate like superman. in fact i think he had a superman top on at one point.

back on the ground in the galleria, and DM saw a video game he wanted to play. i warned him that if he got too into it, the dream may fade. i said if there was any chance that the real him may remember it, that he should just concentrate on remembering it should he feel it fading. i spoke to another mate, then turned round and DM was gone. i found him playing ping pong a second later though. I spoke to Luke and asked him if he was a lukid dreamer. he said of course, so i just repeated that if he may remember it to get in touch.

back in the pub and it seemed that a whole new bunch were up for some fliyng. i took them outside and there was a group of girls who i just explained to that they just have to try learning to float first. one girl jumped up then floated back down and bumped her ass it was funny but i could see she was trying so i held her hand and gave her a slight boost. she was fine after that and started floating around.

i floated past another mate of mine CS. greeted him by his full name and told him i thought i had seen another old mate nearby. we went over to meet AjG and it was him with his crazy beard under some kind of helmet. it seemed he was part of some protest, although it was impossible to tell the police from the protestors. i'd like to think this was a good future sign. i hugged him and he shook me around the big ol crazy bastard. this was finally enough to destabilise the dream, although for once i knew this was going to happen so i managed to stay completely still. it didnt help much and i felt little conection to the dream after waking so gave up on the deild attempt and ran downstairs to post this. i dont think it helped the deild attempt that i woke up completely on my front. i felt no vibes or anything although by this time its likely that i had used up my lucid energy if thats possible

mostly a semi lucid this one. went down to london to a place that was apparently westminster abbey. except it dodnt look anything like it, which reminded me of visiting similar places in london before. the architecture in my dreams is just mind blowing. i could just sit and look at the buildings for hours. even though they all seem to be kind of royal themed, which isnt my thing, its almost like the history is woven into the tapestry of the buildings design, and just a quick glance tells you so much of the story somehow. anyway westminster abbey looked far different as if it was made by hand from mud thousands of years ago. symbolism which i didnt really pay attention to was all overt he thing and the bit i remember was like a huge coin/seal type thing underneath a large window.

inside was a kind of gathering going on. it started off as a catholic mass type event, then progressed into an african style dance, then into a full on drum and bass rave. the mass was weird just for the hypnotic effect it had. everyone was doing this slow waving of theyre arms in the air, and even my dad was joining in who is even less religious than me. i took the piss a bit, but wasnt threatened by it so remained mostly respectful to these weird ceremonies. at one point in the rave this weird guy was going round telling people to quiet/sit down which was odd. he was still dancing so i took the piss and went over to him and told him to sit down like he had been doing. this got a laugh and we just started to dance really weirdly. like a floating robot dance later on the setting switched back to my house. i was with ug and we were laughing about the similarity between some church events and good old rave parties. god is a dj and all that shite. a bit like this video



in fact i even remember doing some of the mcing from this vid in the dream the dream ended with my floating round my house in semi lucid state as the party wound down. i remember seeing some more amazing architecture and relaying my past dream to some people so its another dream within a dream fail for me which i must work on. rc rc rc!