Wishfulthinker

I was at my friend's house and kept waking up all throughout the night. I think this dream occured sometime between the hours of 6:25-8:15.

I was supposed to be held captive on a pirate ship. My boyfriend knew this and was worried about me, I was skyping him and he was on a train. I was also on the same train but he didn’t know this and I couldn’t tell him for some reason. Then we are all offered the chance to go into a better cabin, something is wrong as everyone is being watched on this train, like we’re being guarded. I go into this smaller carriage with red seats around a small table. I’m sat in this carriage with Rhian, Will, Beth M, little Cerys, another girl I don’t know and my boyfriend, who met me with just a ‘hey’ as if everything’s been fine. I return the greeting, should’ve realized things were strange but didn’t. I then started planning a Spanish writing Controlled Assessment that was about different countries, the sheet was like a table thing with the countries on the far left and different lines within the boxes. I looked up and asked which language we would be writing this in as I thought it could be different languages for each different country (eg UK parts written in English, Spain parts written in Spanish) and everyone laughs at me and I join in. My friend Will has a Scottish accent and he laughs and tells me “She gets 3 A*s on tests and can’t work out what language to write her Spanish controlled assessment in.” Dream ended.

WILD attempt

At 11:30ish pm I put my headphones in with pink noise for 15 minutes. I woke up with 4 minutes left of this so this lasted 11 minutes.

I walked out of my house (it was nothing like my current house but instead looked rather typically American style with lovely white wooden features, quite large and pretty.) wearing jeans and thought to myself, 'What can I do?' As I thought this I almost instantly became invisible. My first thought was 'wow! This is cool!' but then as soon as I began walking down the street (by this point I was completely sure I was in America. It looked like most average American streets in late summer/early autumn time before the leaves have started to fall with wide paths on either side of the road with lots of grass) I realized that it kinda sucked because no one knew where you were and when you were on your own that wasn't fun.

After this revelation I went to my boyfriend's house and climbed up to his room and through his window. "Hey! It's me, Katie! I'm invisible!" I smiled, standing by his window.

"No way!" He exclaimed, climbing off of his bed and trying to look for me. "That is pretty amazing."

"I know right?! Want to go play tricks on people?" I grinned, leaning against the architrave around his window.

"Hell yeah!" He pulled on his coat and we both set off, finding ourself at, surprise surprise, a stereotypical American high school! When we got there I found a bucket of water in my hands and started throwing this water at people, putting the bucket down over my head (so it hid my face) and starting to spin it to confuse people. As I did this someone threw bright blue paint at me, creating a slightly human shape out of the paint in mid air. After this I dropped the bucket and ran with my boyfriend, finding ourselves in a tiny railinged-off little garden/park spot, that was surrounded by building on three sides (each building a different age and architectural style). We started to laugh together.

This has been playing on my mind alot recently and I've been trying to figure out whether this really was a WILD or not. I've come to the decision that it was a WILD. It felt like a WILD but some of the stuff I managed in it.... it's quite advanced...

This was done without binaurals at about 4:30pm on Sunday 2nd December.

When I attempt to WILD my limbs twitch alot, so when they started to twitch I began to search for an image in my mind and seeing my boyfriend, climbing out of a sorta hole, I began to walk towards him smiling. "Hey, what are you doing here?!" I smiled, linking my arm with his as he jolted in surprise. "I'm dreaming! What are YOU doing here?!" he exclaimed, looking at me in surprise. I smiled back at him and replied "Exactly the same as you, lets go!" Grabbing his hand I started to run along this path, it was surrounded by lots of trees, like a forest either side and it was quite light even though the sky was dark with night.

We began to run up the incline towards an observatory until I slid to a halt. "Hey! Watch this!" I smiled, remembering my earlier WILD and kicked off the ground, floating in the air about 4 feet above the ground. "Wow, that's cool, I didn't know you could do that yet." He grinned, looking up at me. "Can you do anything else?" I thought for a moment and then zoomed off rather quickly, cutting through the stary sky before noticing the northern lights in the distance. I quickly landed back on the ground next to him and grinned. "Oh my God, there's something you just HAVE to see." I grinned, linking arms with him again and soaring back really really high into the sky, as we hovered together we saw the northern lights from a different, sideways angle.

"Wow. That's awesome!" he exclaimed, turning to look at me with a grin. "It's solar flares! People can see them from loadsa different countries!" I smiled, watching as the normal lights disappeared. He looked slightly disappointed beside me. "But there's no blue ones..." I frowned slightly, looking back through my memory to see if he was right. "Hmm... well, that's got to be changed!" Almost instantly after that blue lights began to streak through the sky, turning all different shades of blues and turquoises whilst we watched in admiration. "Christ, it's cold." I shivered as we began to fall towards the ground, pulling up to land gracefully and walk down the hill again. As we walked I remembered the conversation I'd (actually) had with him the day before with him about liking snow and I wanted it to snow for him. Shortly after this snow sure enough began to top the trees.

As I began to turn to grin at him I was awoken by him touching my hand as I'd been twitching heavily so he began to worry.

Yes, you read that right. I have successfully managed to WILD.

At about 12:30pm I decided I'd try and WILD again, I had a few bad experiences the last times I'd attempted this but my room was very light and it's been over 24 hours since my last medication so I decided nothing could go wrong. I put some pink noise and 10 minute restless to learning binaural beats through my headphones, set my alarm to go off 10 minutes later and lay back to try and fully relax my body until it were asleep. I kept reminding myself in my head that I would be dreaming when the next thing came into my mind and soon enough I could feel my limbs beginning to have a slight twitch in them and images forming in my mind.

I saw a coffee cup in my mind which then transformed to being on a desk that I was sat behind. I don't drink tea or coffee but I picked the cup up and took a sip. Looking down at myself I realized I had a smart business suit style dress and high heels on, neither of which do I normally wear. I had already convinced myself I would have been dreaming and by this point I had confirmed it to my brain. Looking up again the background of my position had formed itself into a typical office with a few plants in it. Laughing to myself I got up and started to walk out of the office, leaving the door and reaching a corridor.

As I got to this corridor I wondered if I could run in heels, normally I can't even walk in them so I gave it a go and sure enough, normal running, in heels that were at least 6 inches high. This time I laughed aloud, "Brilliant!" I exclaimed, reaching down to take them off as I stood in the middle of this grey concrete corridor. "Absolutely brilliant! ... I really don't like this dress..." After I'd thrown my shoes to the floor I started to unzip the dress, sliding it off my shoulders to find myself dressed in my favourite jeans and t-shirt. I looked up again and found the glass wall that was at the end of the corridor to now be right in front of me. For no other reason than because I could, I decided to jump out of this window thing.

As I started to fall to the ground, no glass impaled in me at all I realized I was in the centre of London. I hit the ground in a classic crouch with one hand on the floor, my first thought being 'Ow, my shoulder hurts.' As soon as this thought had entered my mind I realized that in actual fact, none of my body hurt. My conscious mind was aware that my limbs were twitching again, in correspondence to my dream actions so I stood up and began to look around me. "I have absolutely no idea where I am" I laughed, being completely useless at Geography. "Well this is great, I finally realize I'm dreaming and don't know where I am, typical Katie" I hit myself in the face with my hand, laughing at my own stupidity for both my lostness and the thought that had just crossed my mind. "Oh you are stupid sometimes. You're dreaming, you can do whatever you want to do!" I cried, grinning as I went to kick-off into the sky, intending to fly to where I wanted to be. As I got about 10 feet off the ground I had another brain revelation. "Wait, why fly, when you can teleport if you want?" As soon as this thought had crossed my mind I was no longer in the middle of London, a couple of feet off the ground but right in front of my boyfriend, who looked at me in relief.

As I threw my arms around him in a tight hug I smiled slightly. "I missed you" I sighed.
"You've missed me?!" he cried, hugging me tightly, "Katie, you've been missing for 20 days!" he exclaimed, pulling away to look at me properly. "I was beginning to think I'd never see you again!" I looked at him with anguish and confusion on my face.
"But, I was at work... in an office in London... I can't have been missing..." His expression instantly turned to one of pity as he studied me.
"Katie... you work in the RAF, you're a doctor, remember? You were taken from your office 20 days ago, you've never worked in London..."

At this point I lost my grip on the dream and it faded because my mind decided it had to remind me about the coursework I have due in tomorrow! But I'm quite proud I managed to get that far! This whole process lasted 7 minutes as when I removed my headphones after loosing the dreams I had 3 minutes until my alarm went off.

So as from my previous post you can see that I was persuading into trying to WILD, however so far all three experiences have woken me with a start as I have been scared in all three occurances.

The first occurance is written out in the previous post and was undertaken in the morning at my boyfriend's house.

At about 8:30pm this evening I decided I wanted to give it another go. I put on some pink noise and some 10 minute restless to learning binaural beats. After a while I began to drift into my state of being very relaxed. It took longer than the first time did because I tried to resist the twitching of my limbs that was so desperate to happen. After about 4 minutes of attempting to resist my limb twitches I started to see some images forming in the darkness in front of my face. These images started to take shape and I was greeted with a collection of still shots of dark and mysterious creatures (monsters) all in states of attacking. As one shot showed a particualy fierce creature snarling and seeming to leap straight at me as the still slowly zoomed in (like they do on slide shows sometimes) towards my eyes I awoke with a start, my heartbeat staying at a steady pace even though I could feel the fear in my shoulders.

I decided I would give it another attempt as I was just being stupid, I'd told myself the next thing I'd see was a dream so why did it freak me out, it wasn't real right?

This time I slipped into my relaxed state alot easier than I did the first time and began almost chanting the phrase 'The next thing you'll see will be a dream, NOT reality.' through my head. This time, however, I did not resist the twitching of my limbs when it arrived and a dream started to form into my mind.

I was in a black box-like room. All of a sudden I saw what, at the time, I considered to be a flash of light across the ceiling but I now come to realize that it was a person dressed in white crawling along the ceiling. Slowly I began to walk forwards and into this other room containing only a chair, very similar to that which could be found in death row when the electric chair was used. I'm not sure what happened but all of a sudden I felt trapped, my limbs strapped into the straps of this chair and unable to be freed. I looked up in a panic and the white flash I saw before was right in front of my face. It was a child, about 7 or 8, sort of similar to the child that can be seen within The Grudge horror film, with completely white skin, black eyes and a large stretched month into an expression more fear-striking than a scream with blood around her mouth. As this image was directly in my face I woke up startled, thrashing my arms as I sat up and into my dark room whilst attempting to turn the lights on. This time my heart had just started to beat quickly after the shock I'd just experienced and the tension within my shoulders was massive.

Before anyone tries to tell me that my fearful experiences are just because I'm a naturally scared person, I love horror films and it's very rare that one of them scares me, and never as much as these dreams and images have. I'm not sure why all of a sudden my mind is having this affect on me.

One thing's for certain, I'm not trying to WILD again any time too soon.

Today Djpatch999 persuaded me to try and WILD. He'd attempted the night before and thought it'd be a useful exercise for me. He lent me his headphones playing pink noise and set me off on my task. A few conditions that probably should have been considered before this experiment were the fact that I;

- am ill and have been for a few days,
- Had taken some medication that day and was still under its effects,
- Had been watching horror films the night before at about 2am and earlier in the evening when I was not able to sleep because of the first reason.

After a while of trying to relax to the brink of unconsciousness by keeping very still and focussing on just my mind I managed to feel my limbs loosen up and stop twitching or moving. I'm one of these people who's limbs can barely ever keep still. Whilst this was going on my mind was flitting between many different thoughts. After some more time had passed I noticed my body go very very cold. This was even more prominent to me because I'd been having a hot flush within my illness as I attempted this. Once my body had gone really cold I began to notice that one of the thoughts my brain was switching to was a little different to the rest. I didn't realize this had happened till alot longer after I had woken up.

This thought then began to develop into a dream. I think it was part-way through when I joined it because I was in a pitch black forest and I had been running away from something very fast, and very hard as there was adrenaline filling my body. The reason I think the dream was part-way through is because I knew I'd been with a group of people before and now I was all on my own. Somehow in my mind I knew everyone in that group, including my boyfriend, was dead. This thought petrified me and threatened to send my dream self into hysterics, whilst I'm fairly sure my breathing actually remained normal along with my heartbeat. I looked around me frantically searching for the thing that had been chasing me and I heard and felt a really fast rustle/whoosh through the undergrowth so I turned on my heel and started to sprint again.

Apparently it could be seen by the other person in the room with me that my hands were starting to twitch and jerk at the time and it was evident that my eyes were moving very quickly and panic stricken behind their closed lids.

As I sprinted away this time I could feel something had changed and I knew I was going to die. I was terrified and completely panicked. I kept running and suddenly felt something grab my arm and before I could fall to the ground I woke up suddenly, finding the other person in this experiment stood over me beginning to turn the pink noise off. When I awoke I could tell my right eye-lid had been twitching heavily on my body which corresponded to the franticness of my 'dream'.

It was pretty scary stuff. :L

This has awful recall. I remembered part of it about 10 minutes after I woke up and the last fragment about 3 hours later.


I was stood with my from tutor Mrs Wall in the construction room trying to decipher some words written on a page in her handwriting. The words were really, really difficult to read which didn't alarm me in my dream because I get really bad headaches which make it difficult to read bad handwriting and Miss's handwriting is appalling.
*Later remembered*
It was an ILID day in school (these are special days which only my school seem to do. Something about individual learning) and we spent a certain amount of time in our option groups which I think was an hour so I was spending three hours in Construction (all morning) and the afternoon in Spanish and History. I was only halfway through 2nd period and I was talking to Miss about not wanting to go to afternoon lessons and just skive school (Uncharacteristic for me. I had perfect attendance until this week and I got sent home ill, surprisingly this afternoon the day after I didn't want to go to Spanish in my dream and I had Spanish in the afternoon. Possible link?)

I spent the half term doing lots with the family and I read the lyrics to The Gambler written down with a message from, my old house parent from my boarding hostel Stanley House, Dae saying I might have been in it when they performed it at the variety show (some of my friends had been 'singing' the lyrics on Facebook the evening before. I've never heard the song before)
Then I went to the mess (a military dining hall and bar and accommodation) on my military base with my boyfriend and my parents, it was really really busy and it was laid out really strangely with completely different room configuration to normal. I was stood talking with the three other people I was in the building with when my dad suddenly saw the people from the farm (I don't know anyone who lives on a farm. Who these people actually are, I have no idea) and they've had a flood there. They're trying to fix and sell the farm. George then turns around and says we should buy the farm. We go to the farm and look at it and agree to buy it.

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I'm in London with George and my parents when all of a sudden this Japanese tourist, who is a student, falls into the Thames. I run over to see if he is alright. Miraculously he is out of the Thames and standing by the railings. As I walk up to him, trying to check he's alright, he turns and starts to sprint away. I run after him, intent on making sure he's fine, and after we've twisted and turned through narrow streets along side the Thames I watch him get picked up via piggyback by his teacher (no idea how I knew that) and then watch them both run away into the distance. Then I stand there and wait for my parents and George to catch up with me.

Saturday 20th October
*Fragment* Cutting out a piece of pretty paper to stick in my mum and dad's anniversary card that's sat on my bedside table because I'd written the inside incorrectly.

Sunday 21st October
Supposed to be going on a date with my boyfriend and then I forget about leaving the house with him and end up sitting in my living room on my laptop and playing Assassin's Creed and I eventually remember the date and rush around 8 hours later getting ready whilst my parents have been in bed all day and then I go and meet him in his car at 7pm. He drives himself home with me in the car, visibly irritated at my forgetfulness, and when we get there my dad is at his house and his mum gives us all food. My boyfriend has pork, dad also has pork but wanted law (this for some reason amuses me) and I ended up eating left over Chinese chicken in gravy.

Tuesday 23rd October
*Bit Fragmenty*
I become a scientist when I grow up and leave school and after lots of experimenting I finally find and manage to isolate the gene for fire resistance. I then manage to insert this into birds and make fireproof birds known as 'Fire birds'. I then inject a 'vaccine' into myself that will make me fireproof. After lots of trial and improvement it works but needs heavy monitoring. Then I do lots of press conferences and new interviews and everything and can make humans fireproof with lots of close observations or they die. A journalist steals lots of these 'vaccines' and uses them on people and they all die and then I eventually get them all to hand themselves in so some people are managed to be saved. After this fiasco I discover that the gene for fireproofing is actually a third helix on our DNA to make all the humans injected with the 'vaccine' triple-helix-stranded DNA hybrids. After this I can make a genetic 'vaccine' that can just be given to people and doesn't require any treatment or observations or anything and they will then become fireproof.

I'm walking down from the airfield where I live with some people from Siren and Spacer and then I find a girl who has ridden Darcy (a horse at my stables) in her car feeling really unwell so we call for an ambulance and have a military one tear up the road as we get in the back of her car which is now a mini bus and lie her down flat. A civilian ambulance also appears. y friend Cameron walks past.

Something in my school on Tuesday, I'm sat in Maths trying to remember or work out when my drum lesson is and then I think about going to the music studio for my lesson. I'm sat in form in the morning as well and get handed a pink slip which means I can't go to my prom and my form tutor's proper disapointed with me.

Walk to Siren from the train station, Siren being in a building like the new sports hall I have at my school and find my cat Fluff there. I go inside and find a casual bedroom like my Nain's instead of a studio so I just casually sit in there with Jess, Kitty, Kathleen and Gav with my cat and one of Gav's dogs until my mum can pick the cat up from outside normal Siren building and then produce a show in a purple skirt and very bruised legs. (?)

These don't actually have any detail as to what I did or how I realized I was lucid, I didn't write that down and it's too long ago to remember now but it happened! I'm such a fail. :L

Friday 28th September
A casual Math's lesson, judging by our behaviour it's Monday period 5 but it's dark outside and the level of heat suggests it's the middle of summer. We are, as normal, discussing some complete rubbish and then we all decide to staple our books together and then Sir walks in and decides to help us and then staples my book to my face (very uncharacteristic for my teacher).

Friday 28th September
I'm sat in McDonald's with Kitty, George, Kathleen, Sam Burns, Nick and Ana. I'm chatting with them all whilst some people eat and I keep stealing some of their food and then can only watch and crease myself laughing whilst Kitty gets her foot stuck in the metal door shutter things that are in front of shops and is hoisted foot first off of the ground as she attempts to pull the shutter down for some reason. We've all come from Wales where we'd been working all day shutting down my grandparent's farm (which they've never owned) with all these strange animals and I get bitten by a lemur and almost keep the lemur and a monkey.

This is in very little detail as these are backlogs of dreams that I want to keep track of as some of these were reoccurring day dreams that switched between the waking and sleeping world to happen so they interested me (before I became educated in lucidity (is that even a word?))

Dream 1
Active service on a massive scale, the second Falklands war. Contain lots and lots of action and violence, killing lots of people along with being shot a few times before eventually ending up severely wounded and almost loosing my life before going home to my boyfriend.

Dream 2
Walking down Lincoln high-street with my boyfriend when all of a sudden a car swerves from the road into the shop I'm stood outside, taking me through the window with it whilst I push my boyfriend out of the way. I make one of my friends, Anthony, promise to look after my boyfriend as I start to bleed out and think I'm going to die and then get saved at the last moment but end up serious injured for life with a prosthetic limb instead of my entire left leg, I then meet the doctor who saved my life.

Dream 3
In a forest on the side of the motorway between Glasgow and Edinburgh in a Hunger Games style set up that was drawn in some schools throughout the country. I have a flashback to the reaping where I volunteer to save a love interest's friend and then when I end up in the games with said love interest I do everything I can to protect him and eventually I die and he wins the games and for a while I see him trying to live through the trauma of this event as if just floating or on a TV screen and then eventually after about 4 or 5 weeks I return to school all bandaged and bruised and reveal that no one actually dies in the games, we're all saved from near death as that's the only humane way to hold these games in the current day and age.

Within this thread I will aim to keep an accurate and up to date log of all dreams I remember anything about and try and further my knowledge and understanding of my own subconscious and then, within time, my more concious thoughts within dreams. Think of this as a kind of experiment I am running on myself that all of you are welcome to sort of watch and comment on. I honestly have no idea how well this will go but here goes. My journey into the unknown begins, now.