Xanous' Dream Journal

Thoughts
Lucid
Non lucid

I was so hung over this morning I went back to bed after being up for 3 hrs. I decided to attempt WILD. I didn't really care if I got any sleep I just wanted to lay down. I started on my left side. I watched a lot of HI. I have been getting too excited in SP that I wake up. Some people don't have the SP and I have notice before that sometimes I just transition with the HI. Well that doesn't work well for me most of the time but I was trying to tell myself that I could do that and not get excited. So I really focused on the visuals more than the physical sensations.

I picked "get lucid" as my mantra and focused on HI. I hit SP and got way excited I started a lot of inner dialogue. "Oh yes this is it here we go ya omg ah shit" I woke up. I then I got up to pee and went back to bed on my right side and started the WILD again. I basically dropped the mantra and just meditated and watched HI until SP kicked in.

This time I stayed relaxed. Instead of transitioning out of my bed like usual I just visualized but didn't have much clarity of thought. It was more like strong HI. It was something like me looking at a video game and I was trying to move crustations that looked like little grey balls in the water with my mind. I wanted to shrink them but couldn't. I guess I had TOTM on my mind

Then that visual went away and I had a FA. I was so disappointed with my LD that I just rolled over from my left to my right side. I thought about the lucid dream and thought "Well that one sucked" (I didn't catch this until I actually woke up but I wasn't on my left when I started the WILD. I was on my right the whole time!)

So being in the dream still but not knowing it I noticed I still had residual SP vibrations. I thought it was really odd that it came back so fast. I checked by rolling my eyes to the back of my head (Sometimes that makes the vibrations more intense.) I was glad I was in SP and I just relaxed but I think I fell non lucid after that. I don't really remember much after that. There's just a fragment about seeing my dad.

The last time I actually WILD I had a lot of confusion but I my awareness we a lot better. If I wan't hung over I probably would have had it. Oh well, at least I was able to get lucid. I was starting to think that I was in a bit of a dry spell. Plus my hangover is gone! Now that I have more confidence tonight should be a good one as long I don't drink