Xanous' Dream Journal

Prebed: Natty Light
Bedtime: 11:30?

4:30AM - Church Politics - NLD

There was something about church politics. An angry mob. I closed the doors to project those inside. They peopled didn't care about me so I did all I could to keep them out. I tried to lock a set of double wooden doors but someone got through. It was my old supervisor. The one I despise to this day.

I wake briefly but go right back in the dream sort of lucid but not really. I just thought of it as a day dream even though it was a full on dream.

I see D running along side one wall. There are rows of pew between us. I run super fast along the tops of the pews and and hulk jump on top of her. I grab her by the hair and slam her into a wall. I wake up.

7:00AM - #149 Vastness and Sensations - WILD

I woke briefly to take care of little man. I felt pretty good so I went for WILD. I focus on my cheek bones and chest with "I am dreaming" as my mantra.

I see a dream form. It's this strange abstract space fight. There are no stars and I am just cruising in the darkness. It's almost video game like. I see a read view of my "ship" It's just this gray saucer section with a cylinder jutting up in the middle. There is little to no detail. Really, it just looks like a hunk of metal. I am controlling it somehow and I shoot reddish yellow phasers at another ship. I come really close to a ship that looks like the starboard bow of some titanic like ship. I wonder if I am really underwater and I think of the actual vastness of the dream scene. The feeling is overwhelming and I go into REM atonia of sorts. At the exact same time as that though process was going on, I realize this is more than hypnagogia and become lucid.

I am in my bed and I all floating and strange. I can hear the alarm clock going off but I know that it is not real as my wife already left for work and I am off today. I tell myself it's not real but wonder if some how its really going off. I tell myself to ignore it since it really doesn't matter right now. I think I want to transition out of my body but I can't this time. For some reason I feel like something has a hold of my feet. My legs are being twisted and pulled upward. I feel myself stretch like taffy. I try to control the sensation and imagine my feet going to the floor but I just can't control it this time. After about a minute of fighting I wake up.

I try to DEILD but don't get anywhere so I record in my DJ and continue WILD

7:29 - #150 - Rastafarian Baby - DILD

I am next to a dry wheat field. I go into it and think we just need rain. Immediately it begins to rain. The tops of the wheat turn bright green and form a roof over me. I see through and opening where I stepped in that it is raining very hard. There are little wheat sprouts coming out of the ground at my feet. I reach out to feel them and as soon as I touch them they begin to grow larger. I leave now because I feel my space is getting crowded.

I enter some old white farm house. (The memory is a little blurry here). I wonder around the house and find my son in two different places. Both times I check on him to make sure he's OK. The third time I find him he is in some crib. I pick him up and he turns into a "Rastafarian Baby". His skin is dark with very long dreadlocks. I become lucid and say, "I am dreaming." I put him down and turn to leave.

Before I can do anything the dream goes dark. I find myself in the void and feel the dream fading. I rub my hands together. It seems to help but not enough so I rub them impossibly fast until I feel heat from friction. My physical presence become ultra real. I touch my face and I wonder if I am really awake.

Then I feel my wife in my arms. I think that since I can't get this thing going I may as well enjoy some lucid sex. I'll leave that part out.

At one point I wonder how much of this I am going to post. Then I suddenly feel that my wife is gone. I feel my crotch and I think that I am just humping the bed in my sleep. I become confused.

I have a false awakening. I find myself on a couch in someone's living room. I see my brother and nephew on a couch across the room. My mother in a recliner to my right. There is a TV to the left. I quickly enter my dream in my DJ. I remember thinking all the way back to the wheat field and running through the whole dream in my mind. Not once do I think this could be false awakening.

I realize there is some loud music coming from behind my left ear. I think there must be a speaker mounted on the wall. My brother tells his son that they need to get going. I feel sad they are leaving so soon and I slept the morning away. Then I think the music will probably wake my wife up soon. I don't worry about it because I want her to come sit with me. At that point she walks in and says something. I get up and go into another room with her. I wake up.