Xanous' Dream Journal

I partially wake from sone dream and notice how dreamlike my body feels. I hold still and notice that I can hear the boxfan. The moment I pay attention to it the sound morphs into the sound of the dining chair scooting on the hardwood. My son likes to do that and I wonder if this is really happening, but I quickly decide this is not likely. The sound is so loud that is fills my ears so that I don't even hear the fan. That thought brings the fan noise back and I feel my physical body again. I relax and renter the dreamstate bring the chair sound back. I focus on this for a moment to get deeeper in the dreamstate but I begin to wonder how I was able to turn this on and off like that. I let myself shift from physical body to dream body a couple of times at will. I try to analyse the feeling in hopes that i will be able to do this later at will. It seems like I can feel the chemical change in my brain and I was controling it like a switch. I begin to over analyse this feeling and soon lose my control of the dreamstate becoming fully awake. I quickly try to relax and DEILD but I let go too much and fall non-lucid.