Innapropriate Dream, Proceed With Caution

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As a forewarning, this dream is a bit vulgar. I just had it this morning and although I forgot most of it when I fell back to sleep, I remembered the main part well. I was in a house with some people and I was younger than them all. I'm only 18 in real life. I remember that at some point, everyone was gone except for me and a woman together in this dark bathroom. She was showering and I asked if I could masturbate while watching her. She let me. I don't know if she was particularly beautiful because everything looked really blurry when I looked at her and got going. The blurriness seemed to be because the bathroom was dark. I masturbated very quickly and when I finished, I shot my semen into a bathtub that was to my right and was separate from her shower. I felt mature for behaving in a serious manner like this and I thought that the older woman was surprised about my attitude. The bathtub was full of water and I started draining the water with my semen in it. At some point, I went back and decided to rub the bottom of the bathtub with my hands while the water was draining to assure that no semen would stick to the bottom and not go down the drain. After that, I left and the dream continued somewhere totally different. Something that I thought could be a metaphor was how, by cleaning up my semen, I was trying to not "make a mess." I looked up some of the symbols on dreammoods.com and some interpretations seemed like they might be significant. Blurry To have a blurry dream, indicates that there is something you are not confronting or are refusing to see. Life may be passing you by if you do not participate in it. It also represents secrets and confusion. Perhaps you think that someone is trying to keep something from you. Darkness To dream that darkness comes upon you, signifies failure in some work that you are attempting. Darkness is synonymous with ignorance, the unconscious, evil, death, and fear of the unknown. If the sun breaks through the darkness, then you will overcome your failures. If you feel safe in the dark, then it suggests that you like not knowing about certain things. As some might say, ignorance is bliss. Bathroom To dream that you are in the bathroom, relates to your instinctual urges. You may be experiencing some burdens/feelings and need to "relieve yourself". Alternatively, a bathroom symbolizes purification and self-renewal. You need to cleanse yourself, both emotionally and psychologically. Drain To see a drain in your dream, signifies your need to release and channel your emotions. You should not keep your feelings inside. Consider the condition and appearance of the drain for clues on how you are feeling. Alternatively, it may represent some wasted effort or loss. The dream may also be a pun on something or someone that is "draining" you of your energy or resources. Sperm To see sperm in your dream, symbolizes masculinity and fertility. It also refers to the potential for growth and development. About a year and a half ago, I had a somewhat similar dream where in one part, I was in my bathroom with the light on during night time. I was standing in the shower but I wasn't naked and no water was flowing. I was staring at a beautiful, young woman who kept dressing and undressing while looking at herself in the mirror. Another boy kept hogging my view but I saw her in the mirror.