Have I Lost A Twin? (not a lucid dream)

**theknight** · 12-11-2013 12:18 AM

Hello! I had a dream that I was talking with my mother about my grandmother /her mother/ and she said to me that grandma had a son who was named like me (and I got the vibes he even looked like me) who died. In fact there's no such thing, grandma has two daughters - my mother and my aunt. When I woke up I started crying.

Someone suggested that dream has nothing to do with a supposed uncle or my grandmother, and instead it means that I was supposed to have a twin who died in the womb, e.g. grandmother figure as a replacement of my mother and the 'uncle' looking like me and being named like me = not me or an uncle, but an identical twin (as they develop from one zygote). Anyway, my mom never got an ultrasound when she was pregnant with me so she doesn't know. Is that a possible explanation or not? BTW, as a kid I felt like wanting to have a twin and I didn't like the fact that me and my older brother wore different clothes. I also found it irritating that my friends and I looked different, I wanted us to dress alike and look alike.

Please, someone help me find the meaning behind that dream.

Thanks in advance!

**JoannaB** · 12-11-2013 02:28 AM

I think even if you did lose a twin in the womb, there is no way to tell.

What we do know however is that you have since childhood wanted to have a twin, and thus I think this dream reflects that desire for a twin, mourning if not an actual twin then the opportunity lost.

**theknight** · 12-11-2013 08:20 AM

Thank you very much for your reply. I'm glad that it has nothing to do with my health.
BTW, talking about twins, around the same time I had my OP dream, I had a dream about two very beautiful, blonde twin girls and I felt like I was in love with one of them.

**Superman1** · 12-12-2013 07:35 AM

You realised your desire to have someone like you, a twin, has died or you have forgotten the childhood idea, or let go of it.

Your dream about two very beautiful, blonde twin girls you felt in love with one of can mean your next step of loving the unique you! The single you.

So you see the pattern? You wanted a twin because you didn't appreciate your uniqueness or individuality.
Now it seems you see the beauty of that. You can love yourself, after the sadness of letting the old die.

**theknight** · 12-12-2013 02:55 PM

Originally Posted by Superman1

Your dream about two very beautiful, blonde twin girls you felt in love with one of can mean your next step of loving the unique you! The single you.

Thank you for your reply. I was hoping that meant finding true love but I guess I'll have to wait for that.

**shadowofwind** · 12-12-2013 10:05 PM

I think the twin can be looked at as a hidden, unexplored side of yourself.

I also think that the twin is suggestive of someone else who almost could have been born instead of you but wasn't. Maybe nearly everyone has something like this, its inevitable given the semi-'random' way that DNA gets combined, and this is something that can be felt sometimes in dreams.

Generally speaking, I think that people are likely to be disappointed if looking for "true love" as something that providence will make possible. All relationships are at least partially dysfunctional. But if you're sincere and take care of yourself, usually you can find an opportunity to love.

**theknight** · 12-12-2013 10:16 PM

Well, in university I hated being alone in my dorm and avoided alone time. I got the feeling that someone (like my double) was going to get me. I get scared when all alone in a room or an apartment and I avoid mirrors for some reason when alone. I have never experienced that before, but I there are always people at my parent's home so I haven't been alone for that long as a child and a teen.

**shadowofwind** · 12-12-2013 10:46 PM

That seems like something to think about then, why you feel that way. I think its hard to make relationships with other people work if you're not comfortable with yourself. I think you should be patient with yourself though, these are life-long developments, not things you fix in a day or two. You can have epiphanies, and your experience can change a lot quickly, but then it takes a lot of effort and living to make good on it.

I don't think you should think of the twin you're afraid of as someone else. That person is inside you, and you should accept them as a part of yourself.

I have a degree of self-hatred, which I only partially understand the reason for or what to do about it. But at the same time I am not hiding from myself in the sense of being afraid of solitude or allowing myself to feel in solitude. I recommend this, honest introspection pays off I think, I'd be much less happy otherwise.