Substance take over

**httpvalhairy** · 06-09-2015 08:34 PM

I have a boyfriend who used to use a very bad drug. I sometimes get paranoid that he us using again. And when I am really paranoid I have a dream and it's happened more then once. Different settings and different people. The first time that o can remember my boyfriend was high and so was my brother and I felt alone. Like I had no one to talk to and I was so scared and tempted. The second time I can remember was awful and was recent. My boyfriend was using and I lost him. When I found him again he was high and he was making out with this girl and he was kissing her like he's never kissed me before.. very passionately. I ended up kicking the girls ass and running after my boyfruend. I was so angry and I felt betrayed. About a week ago I cheated on my boyfriend we've talked about it and we are working on it but I only kissed another guy will I was drunk and it really had no meaning. But in this dream after I found my boyfriend hiding in what looked like a couch cousin fort I found my younger sister and she was also using this drug... I was so scared. So mad. And so alone. I ended up using in the dream thinking it would help. But it didn't and I ended up chasing both my sister and boyfriend. I couldn't catch them and all I wanted to do was talk. After what felt like hours and hours of chasing and yelling and crying I woke up and my heart was racing and I couldn't go back to sleep. I'm sure I've had this dream more than once but maybe the two just lasted so long it's felt like more than that. But I am so confused on why I have these dreams.

**IAmCoder** · 06-09-2015 09:36 PM

When last did you feel those emotions during waking life? The context will probably be very different, but the feeling might tie it together...

**ParanoidLlama** · 06-09-2015 11:28 PM

I don't think it's anything more than your current negative situation in life. The distance from not being able to catch him in the dream probably represents the drug he used to use, and as a result of this distance (or the drug), anger and sadness sets in (or your paranoia that he'll use it again). The subconscious also represented your sister using it, maybe to emphasize the severity of the negativity from being paranoid, as it seems to only serve as an enhancement for your fear in the dream.

As for why this is happening, it's your mind trying to say to calm down. The unconscious mind acts in strange ways, and it's why we have these forums. It isn't trying to scare you, it's trying to help you.

I hope this helped answer your question

. And, hopefully, sweet dreams...

**httpvalhairy** · 06-11-2015 11:31 PM

On Sunday.. I was a bit suspicious my boyfriend was high... We talked about it and he said he hasn't in a while but it's hard to believe because...well it's meth.....