Hey guys,

so for some time now I have those dreams in which an ex girlfriend of mine plays a major role.
We broke up 10 years ago and I have long moved on since but because she keeps returning in my
dreams I always wake up with a hard to describe feeling which often ruins my mood and all the bad memories come back.
It's like a mix of that feeling of getting cheated on and feeling jealous and sad. Also those dreams usually occur when I felt great before.
Today it happened again and I will try to explain this dream as well as a recurring pattern which I noticed as good as I can.
The pattern I noticed is that whenever I dream about her I always have this huge feeling of unworthiness and end
up getting hurt by her (emotionally).
It usually starts off with me and her spending time together. We were on a festival which took place in a forest with
very vew people and it was nice weather. We were making out and just doing couple things. After some time we were holding hands,
taking a walk and talking tho I don't remember what we were talking about. While we are doing this in the dreams i have about her
i pretty much always feel abandoned and alone and she always has different characteristics. I remember that in my last dream I left
her alone for a while and after I came back she was making out with someone else. It was a complete stranger.
Then I woke up with the above described feeling.
One thing to note is that while i am awake and go on with my daily life i never think about her.
I was thinking about talking to a therapist because I fear this is not normal. I just want her out of my mind.