Thread: ~ Vex Kitten's Journal 05/06 ~

March- Non posting due to altering some undesirable aspects of my life.
Constantly screwed around with my sleep schedule.
Worked it down to 5 hrs sleep/nite.
Dream recall was shakey, average recall 2 dreams a nite.
Kept a record of dreams just too lazy to post them.
***3 LD's in march
1- recorded above
2- Conjouring J Dream
3- The O Control Panel

Starting anew beginning of April.

April 1/06

1- 69 Tiger
Pulled into the gas station at 69 corners, paid to have the gas tank filled. When I got back outside watched kids playing in the field behind my grandmother's house.
From out of the brush a huge saber tooth like tiger charged straight for the kids. I felt no worry or fear for them. Just watched as the kids were chased down one by one and mauled. Other people rushed over and surrounded the tiger, started clubbing it with various blunt instruments.
Eventually I went over out of curiosity. Eased through the crowd of clubbing adults to see if they'd killed he tiger. It was still alive, swiping at them, growling.
Don't remember how but I managed to knock the tiger onto it's side and it laid there as if it were mortally wounded. All the color faded out of it so that it was white and black instead of orange and black. Then everyone became afraid of me like I was something worse than a child mauling animal. They crept away from me as if I were a monster or something. So I sat with the tiger and watched it slowly die.


2- Bad Pet
I was sitting on my couch enjoying the sound of rain and distant thunder. Some one was with me but I can't remember what he looked like. All I remember is he had blue eyes and shaggy brown hair. He pissed me off by leaning over and kissing me.
I made him strip naked, I put a choke chain on him and chained him to a tree outside and left him there in the cold rain, as punishment. I laid on my couch and listened to the rain again, and Chopin. The two go good together.
After a while I was back outside again to retrieve my pet. I made him prove how sorry he was for kissing me without permission. I looked down at the guy after a bit and he'd changed into someone else. I recognized the guy, knew he was a fictional character and came to the instant conclusion that I was dreaming...but the guy bit my thigh really damned hard. So hard it woke me up.

***checked the clock, I'd been shocked out of my dream a few minutes before my scheduled wake up time...7:30 am. Which is good. It was the first time in a couple of weeks I'd wakened without the alarm.

April 2 /06

Time switch last night.

1- B-Ford
Hired a local delivery service to take me into town. The owner came, we chatted the entire ride. Came to a corner, saw a couple of friends. Hopped out and joined them. One of them was mad because as the owner never once allowed him to sit in the front seat.
Eventually tired of his bitching and struck out on my own.
Ended up on a street that had two very steep sloped on either side. At the top of the slopes were huge chain link fences. In some spots paths that lead up to small breaks in the fence. I tried to use the paths but the grass was too slippery.
Realized, at one point, that I had a long skinny balloon in my hand, the type to make balloon animals from. As I walked, I formed it into a deformed looking balloon poodle, which quickly popped. Tossed the balloon aside and continued down the street.


2- DV
Was on Dream Views typing up a substantial post. When I tried to submit it, my post wouldn't go through. The screen kept coming back blank and I'd have to retype my post.


3- Dead?
Lying on a cold metal table. Eyes were closed, sewed shut, as were my lips. I could feel the sutures holding them closed. Somehow I could see, watched as 'docs' did the Y inscission. It was painless but I felt everything. The sensation of someone invading and rummaging around in a chest cavity is not a nice one.
Felt them embalm me and sew me back together again. The sensations are indescribable. Anyway, they prepped me for my funeral. Realized I was to be buried. I didn't want to be buried. Felt as if my soul were trapped in my body, so though I wasn't technically alive, I was still alive in regards that my soul hadn't departed.
Skip to funeral. I could see the people coming up to view me. All the while I was screaming out in my 'mind' hoping someone would understand that I didn't want to be buried. Only a little dark haired girl seemed to be able to 'hear' me. She didn't speak but I knew she could understand me. However she refused to tell the others that I was trapped in my body. The girl put a little red rosebud on my chest and left.
Spent the rest of this dream trying to break free of my body.


4- Chauferring
Was in my bf's truck. My aunt came by, opened the door and stabbed me in the left bicep. She then gave me the knife and dared me to stab her. I shook my head, told her I didn't want her diseased up blood staining the truck interior. She laughed and gave me a small bottle of Crown Royal. Immediately took a guzzle, didn't like it. Stashed it under the seat.
My brother jumped into the back seat and my aunt into the front passenger seat. We left.
Stopped at an intersection, noticed my passengers had vacated the vehicle. They had hopped out to harass that McDonald's mascot, the purple one, who was walking down the street. Embarassed by their behavior, I rounded them up and we left.
Don't know exactly when, but the truck turned into a 3 seater bike. I was at the lead, doing all the work while the other two just relaxed. I was extrememly pissed off about this but felt the need to hurry and drop them off just to be rid of them. We came to a steep hill, they jumped off the bike and left me to carry it up the hill, solo. So, struggling with a muddy and heavy bike, I proceeded, swearing I was going to kick my kin's lazy asses when I got to the top.

April 3 /06

1- Vampire Cruise
Was chasing around a vampire that looked like a very young Tom Cruise. He'd grab people left and right, bite them on the neck and rip huge chunks of flesh away. The guy would chew up the neck meat and then spit it out at me, taunting me.
Eventually got him cornered in a bar, more like one of the old saloons from a dusty western movie. I searched everywhere for him but couldn't find him.
Suddenly a couple of big guys, one black and one white, came busting into the bar. They looked like they'd just stepped out of the movie 'The Matrix'. They routed out the Cruise vampire and shot him repeatedly, relentlessly, till his body was nothing but a rotting pile of mangled flesh. Maggots spilled out from some of the guys veins. Disgusted me.
The 'Matrix' guys bagged the body parts and left. Everyone in the bar came out from their hiding places and were relieved that everything was overwith. But the white 'matrix' guy came busting back in and started shooting up the entire bar. He saved me for last, pressed the barrel of his gun into my forhead. He was going to kill me because I'd failed my job.
I saw his finger twitch on the trigger, heard the pop of the gun...woke up.


2- Giant Eagle
My bf and I were driving down a highway. I happeded to look up in the sky and saw a huge bird soaring near to the ground. It circled over a field of farm workers. The workers all watched it in awe.
Suddenly, the huge bird, a monsterous bald eagle, dropped to the ground. It landed on top of a woman dressed in red, had her hooked in it's massive talons.
I demanded my bf drive closer, I needed to get closer. So he did, though he protested that it wasn't safe. He asked If I had my camera. I searched about myself and realized I'd forgotten it. Was pissed at myself for not brining my camera this one time.
The giant eagle started consuming the still screaming woman. No one tried to help her. The other farm workers scattered and some poeple stopped along the highway, but only to watch. No attempts to save her were made.
We just drove by slowly a few times, not able to believe the sight before our eyes.


3- Sick Brats
Was at my grand mother's house. Lots of kids. I was trying to cook a meal but the kids kept running through the kitchen, throwing stuff around. I yelled for their parents to get them out of the kitchen but no one listened.
Pissed, I went outside, reached under the house and pulled out a huge mitt ful of garter snakes. Broght them back into the kitchen, tossed em in a pot with the intention of feeding the snakes to the neglectful parents and bratty kids. Maybe they'd get grossed out and leave the house.
Most left before supper was done. It got really quiet. I checked in the living room and my niece and nephew were all that were left. They were very apparently sick, near death sick by the look of them. I asked where their mom went. The said she left to play bingo. would be back in a couple of days.
So...i was enraged yet again that kids had been dumped on me. Sick miserable kids at that. I sat with the kids and watched cartoons as I silently contemplated the best way to kick my sister's ass when she came back.

Apr 4th - no dreams recalled


Apr 5/06

1- Unwanted Visitors
I was walking down the hallway in my house when I heard voices coming from the living or dining room. I crept towards the kitchen, peeked around the fridge and saw 2 people sitting at my dining room table. One was my cousin Lynn, the other was the local radio station dj, Josh.
I remember thinking, "Wtf are they doing here?" I stormed into the dining room and was about to ask them that very question when I overheard what they were talking about. I moved to them and they didn't even seem to notice me. They continued on with their conversation, which was basically making fun of Lynn's mother. So cruel yet so funny.
After a bit I tried to convince them they needed to leave. They ignored me so I just sat down and continued to listen to them berating Lynn's mother. All the while I wished they'd just shut the fuck up and get the fuck out.

***Lynns mother called earlier that afternoon but I didn't answer. Didn't want to talk to her. Guess this dream was sort of a small punishment for ignoring my aunt.


2- Chinese Food Delivery
We'd ordered chinese food from the local restaraunt. (which sux pretty bad) Waited and waited for it to get delivered. We were about to go straight to the restaurant to complain when there was a knock at the door.
I opened it and my cousin Lyle was there, delivering our meal. Chatted about his girlfriend for abit, who happens to be the daughter of the owner of the establishment we ordered from. He said they'd been having problems but were still sticking together, or something along those lines. He then asked for a delivery tip. 'Get our fucking food here on time next time, how's that for a delivery tip.' I said then laughed and closed the door in his face.
My bf and I unpacked the food. I opened the rice container and started shovelling steamed rice onto my plate. Was about to shove a heaping forkful into my face when I happened to look down. Realized my rice was moving. I nearly puked across the table when I realized it had maggots mixed in with it. I shoved my plate and the rice container onto the floor. Looked at the rest of the food, it too was infested with various insects, worms or larvae. My stomach turned and I started shoving the food off the table. Dont know why I did that.
Ran to bed and curled up under the blanket, trembling with disgust. My bf came back after me and pulled the covers from my body, which caused me to awaken.

***Had chinese food for dinner. My stomach was horribly sore for hours afterward. Definately an influencing factor here. Blah...maggots...

April 6/06

1- My BF the Lab Rat
Had my bf nude in the bedroom. Preformed various, steadily more perverse 'tests' on him to see how far he'd let me go before he begged me to stop. Strangely, I wasn't aroused in the least as I experimented. Remained utterly composed and professional throghout the entire process.


2- Trapped
Was looking for a ride out of B-ford. Couldn't find any so decided to walk, hitch hike. Got to the last convenience store before the city limits, went in and bought a small chocolate milk. It was all I could afford.
Met up with my cousin Tina. We both walked to the edge of the city. Only then did I realize I'd forgotten to snag my chocolate milk from the counter at the store. I left her, turned to go back and get it.
After a few minutes of walking I encountered a wall of shatterproof glass that surrounded the entire city. There were doors in it occasionally, I ran through one only to discover that another glass wall was a few feet beyond the first. I noticed another door at the far end of the second wall and ran for it. Before I could get there the door closed and i was trapped between the two glass walls. I couldn't get into the city and I couldn't get out into the country. I kicked and punched at the glass but it wouldn't shatter. Felt like I was trapped in an aquarium or something.
Though I looked for an exit, there was none.


3- Trailor Park Maze.
Was visiting my cousin in the trailor she used to live in. Chatted for a bit then decided to leave. I walked out the front door only to discover that her exit was the entrance into someone else's trailor. I backed back into my cousins trailor and shut the door. Moved to the back door and tried that. Same thing happened. It lead to the interior to someone else's trailor.
Confused, I asked her how to get outside again. SHe laughed and told me I had to find my own way out. This irritated me mildly, so I just left out the back door, walked through the new trailor and went out the nearest exit, only to find myself in a new third trailor. I went through a door there and again was met by the interior of yet another trailor. After a while I was storming through trailor to trailor desperately seeking a way out.
It suddenly dawned on me that I had to find a different way out. Doors lead to more confusion.
The woman in the last trailor looked like my sister's ex boyfriend's mother. She told me to sit down and relax. I didn't need to leave.
I shook my head. All I wanted was to get out of the massive mess of interconnected trailors. The curtians concealing the bay window suddenly caught my eye. I swiped up a kitchen chair and smashed it through the window and quickly dove out of it. I landed on cold hard concrete but I didn't care. I was finally free.
Looked down at my arms, they were sliced up a bit from the glass on the ground, as were my legs. Didn't bother me too much. I started running home, wanted to get away from that trailor park from hell as fast as I could.

Apr 7/05

((grrrr... distractions))

1- The Blue Book
Was visiting my cousin Tina at her house. We were at her kitchen table flipping through a photoalbum. I wasn't really paying attention to whatever it was she was yapping about.
Her boyfriend came out of their bedroom carrying a huge ancient looking book. He plopped it onto the table in front of me and opened it up. It was like a huge sketchbook. He showed me page after page of sketches, all were varying shades of blue.
I was amazed at every single piece of work, asked who's they were.
He told me they were all mine, that I'd lost them years ago. He gave the book back to me.


2- Half Wedding
A bunch of us were gathered in a Sistine Chapel-ish type catherdral. We were there for a wedding. I didn't care. My attention was held by the exquisite architecture and gorgeous murals.
After a while a woman named Judy announced the wedding was about to start, but there were no men allowed to set foot in the church. Only then did I notice that yes, the congregation was all females.
The bride started crying, wondering how she was supposed to get married if her groom was not allowed in the building. Judy tried to assure her that everything would work out. Just to have patience.
I shook my head. The whole situation was increadibly stupid. Had to sit there and wait and watch for this 'miracle' wedding to happen.

3- Malfunctioning Jeans
Just recall a bit of this dream. Was walking through school but had to stop every few seconds to rezip my jeans zipper. It kept coming undone.

April 8/06

1- Dog Walking
Was in a city that looked like a splice between Niagara Falls and B-ford (again)
I was walking a jack russel terrier, one that looks alot like our new (as of yet to be named) dog. From out of no where a bunch of other breeds of dogs charged toward us. They were all trying to mount my dog and mate with her. I was kicking and swinging trying to fend the mongrels off. What pissed me off more than anything was the fact that my dog was letting them bail on her.


2- Swapping w/ Granny
I was at Granny's house (she happens to be my aunt btw). She was trying to talk me into swapping...swinging...whatever your preference for the act would be. She wanted me to take her husband and she'd have mine for a day.
I was totally disgusted at the thought. No way in hell I'd want her husband. I barely even liked looking at the guy, I sure the hell didn't want to touch him.
She endlessly tried to convince me... but I wouldn't go for it. The mere thought of it grossed me out.

April 9/ 06

1- ET's & Darkness
Was at my grandmother's house, the way it was before it was renovated. I think I was a kid again because I felt smaller or less signifcant or something.
Anyway, I was outside in the dark. I remember seeing the nightsky, there were no stars. It was just pitch blackness. And it terrified me.
I ran into the house and tried to turn on the outside light but it blew out. The dark outside was unbelievably thick, more like a thick fog than just darkness.
Everyone else in the house didn't care. They were going about their usual nightly business. Though I was afraid of the dark outside, i stood by the back door staring out into it, knowing that something was lurking just beyond the blackness. In my mind, I felt that the house was surrounded by aliens just waiting for the interior lights to be turned out so they could attack. Every so often I'd see a soft glint in the darkness, knew it was light sparkling off the alien's huge black eyes.
My mother told me to shut the door and get to bed. I told her no. I wasn't going to bed because I was scared. And I begged for her to not turn out the lights. She ended up draggin me to bedroom by my hair and throwing me onto the bed. She told me there was nothing to be scared of. That only bad kids were afraid of the dark. I tried to tell her about the aliens outside but she only smacked me in my mouth, told me to shut up and get to sleep. I covered up and hid, dreading the moment that everyone else went to bed and all the lights would be shut off.


2- Movie Nite (225th recorded dream)
Was in line at a movie theater with a bunch of my neices and nephews. Behind us were a bunch of other kids, loud, obnoxious kids. It took all my will to not turn around and kick the mouthy little bastards in the teeth.
We finally got into the theater but 'my kids' took off with the 'bastard kids'. Spent the rest of the dream trying to chase down and sift 'my kids' out from the bad ones.

3- Nose Stud Incident
Was looking in the mirror, using a q-tip to clean around my new nose stud. I got the exterior clean and then went about trying to clean the inside up a bit. I gently shoved the q-tip into my nose and it got snagged on the inner part of the stud.
Tried not to freak out as I tenderly attempted to unhook the q-tip. But I jerked suddenly and the bottom part of my nostril ripped from my face. Didn't know what to do, tried to shove the ripped piece back together but it kept coming back apart.
It didn't hurt, it was just a disturbing sight. My nose bled from the outside and the inside as I kept trying to force my nostril to reattach to my face. It just wouldn't stick.

***actually got my nose pierced yesterday.


4- Dog Walking ll (variant)
Was walking my pet, this time it was a guy in a leash and collar. As we were strolling happily through a park a bunch of girls started calling to my pet, trying to lure him away. He pulled and tugged on the leash trying to get to the little sluts. Again, I was pissed the fuck off, trying to keep the skanks away from my too willing pet. I realized I'd have to impose stricter training sessons on my mutt.
At some point we ended up in a grassy field together, lying in the midst of it. My pet was naked and still wearing his collar and leash. I snuggled up next to him to keep him warm. I caressed him as if he actually were a dog. It felt so nice just to be lying there like that, that I thought, ... 'this is too good to be true'... I suddenly realized it couldn't be true. It had to be a dream...and I woke up.
***Funny little coincidnece, Dog New Tricks by Garbage happened to come on while I was typing up this dream. hehehe

[color=darkred]April 10

April 11/06

1- Dentist or Doctor
In this one I was a teen boy. My father was a doctor. My mother a dentist's assistant. They were arguing over whether I was meant to be a dentist or doctor. I didn't want to be either. I didn't know what I wanted.
Father took me to the building that his medical pratice was in, tried to get me in excited about becoming a doctor. I was bored out of my mind. My mother then storms in and starts a huge argument with him right in front of all his nurses and patients. Monsterously embarassed, I sneaked out and went to sit by the river. It was full of rapids and whirlpools and for some reason it's turbulence calmed me.

2- Crossroads
I was hanging out with 3 guys. Had the feeling we were really close. Felt good and normal just to be in their presence. We were walking right up the middle of what was normally a busy street. Came to a 4 way stop. Each of the 3 guys shook my hand and took a different street. Knew I'd never see them again. I wanted to call them back but didn't want to seem like a weak whiney fool.
I tunrned and started back down the street we'd walked up together. Suddenly footsteps chargged up from behind. I turned and saw that one of the guys had come back to me. He sort of reminded me of Kiefer Sutherland? He took my hand and said he couldn't leave me. He'd never leave me.
I was overjoyed. He pulled me along and showed me an alley, a shortcut to get home. Together we strolled through it and came to a huge elegant mansion. It was way out of place for the city we were in. He told me that it was home. We went up onto the wrap around porch but couldn't get into the front door. He showed me to the side and said we were only allowed side entrance for now and only restricted to the one room. We'd eventually gain more access to the house and be allowed to use the front door, but not for a while.
We ended up sitting on the rocking chairs on the porch. I didn't care if I ever got inside the house. I was just happy to be on the porch.

3- Triplets?
Me and my bf got into a huge fight. He left. I looked out the window as he was leaving and noticed there were 3 girls with him. One was a newborn baby which he carried. One was a little girl of about 5 or 6. The other was older, about 15 maybe.
I chased him down and asked him where he got the kids from. He glared at me like he wanted to kill me, then coldly informed me that they were our triplet daughters.
Right away I shook my head. Told him I didn't have any kids. And that there was no way in hell those girls were triplets. He just shrugged off the comment and started walking. Turned back and said I didn't deserve him or our daughters and said if I ever came near any of them, he'd kill me.
I didn't care. They weren't my kids. I just went back into my house and turned on the radio. Classical music was playing. I laid down and let it drown out my confusion.

April 12/ 06

1- Shopping for Nothing
Was in a grocery store, couldn't find what I needed. (can't remember what I was so desperately searching for)
Ended up throwing a bunch of other stuff in my cart. All useless or indulgent items. Cart was full of them and hard to push.
Made it to the cashier and instead of tallying how much all my items totalled, she merely touched the cart with a finger and nodded. The total came out to over $500.
I gave her my bankcard. She looked it over, tossed it back carelessly back, informed me that I had insufficient funds. She seemed to enjoy breaking the news to me.
I just shoved my cart down the isle. It crashed into a floral display. Flowers and broken vases were scattered everywhere. I left. Walked home, severely enraged. Wanted to grab the first person I happened across, drag them into the nearest alley and creatively murder them.

2- LIghtning Demon
Was caught in the middle of a thunderstorm. I was terrified that lightning was going to strike me. I knew it would if I stayed out in the storm. I found shelter in an apartment building entrance.
Watched the lightning for quite a while. It flashed in an array of different colors. The predominant color was pinkish-purple.
Slowly, the bent fingers of lightning began to take on shapes. This amazed and disturbed me. Finally, all the streaks of lightning came together and formed a demonic face for a split second. It seemed to see me. I watched, the face appeared again in a flash, this time closer. With each successive burst of lightning, the demon face came a bit closer.
Suddenly it flashed again, the massive demon face was right outside the window. I staggered backward, scared out of my wits. I knew then that yes, the lightning wanted to strike and harm me. I tripped over something and woke up before I hit the floor.

3- Aliens
Was in a crowd of people in a beautiful setting. It was like a summer afternoon family picnic.
Was sitting alone enjoying the warmth. Happened to look up into the pure blue sky and saw what looked like a massive triangular space craft. As it soared silently along, it eventually blocked out the sun. Knew the ship and it's occupants were not friendly.
I turned to tell everyone to run, get to safety. There were all staring up at the ship and smiling. Suddenly everyone began peeling thier flesh from their skulls and tossing their faces onto the ground. They then stuck their fingers in their eye sockets and pried their skulls apart. This made a sickening sound sort of similar to eggs being cracked.
Under the skulls were the heads of aliens. Sterotypical big headed, bald, big eyed aliens.
I was so astounded that I stood there stupidly staring. I was the only one who wasn't an alien. THey all looked at me and started to lumber towards me. Their moves were jerky and zombie like.
I turned and ran, but no matter which way I went more aliens would suddeny appear and chase me into another direction. Got the feeling they were trying to steer me to my death.

April 13 /06

1- Uncleanable Aquarium
Was scrubbing out a massive fish tank. It was crusted with what looked like dried gobs of snot. Which was really damned disgusting.
I finally got the tank crystal clear, put all the synthetic stuff back into it, filled it with water. It looked as good as new.
Fish were suddenly in it. A small blue beta fish and a yellow and black one that sort of looked like a lion fish. There were also many little transparent fishes. Could see their innards as well as their skeletal system. Watched them for a bit then remembered that I had two other beta fish cramped into a small tank.
Retrieved the red and blue fish and dumped them into the larger tank, hoping they would fight...like they were supposed to. The two new fish didn't do anything. Just floated around totally ignoring each other.
I ended up tossing a couple of pink sea anenomie into the tank as well then went into the kitched to get a drink. The tap water was filthy, a brownish yellow. Tossed my drink into the sink and left.
Checked on my fish tank and it was suddenly filthy again. Could barely see through the glass. I simply snapped. Grabbed a nearby kitchen chair and used it to smash the fishtank. Water and glass flooded my dining room. I immediately started stomping on all the fish. My bare feet were getting sliced up from the glass as I squashed the life out of the fish, but I didn't care. I just wanted them all dead. Gone. Sick of cleaning that damned tank.

2- The Black Bird
I was reading a book titled Savior. I was really interested in it but the content of the story didn't seem to stick in my mind. As I was curled up on my couch reading, a black bird smacked into the back picture window. I tossed my book and rushed to the window to look outside and see if the bird was okay.
THe bird wasn't outside. Somehow it had managed to slip right through the window pane without shattering it. The little black bird was lying there twitching on my dining room floor. I scooped it up and decided to try fix it.
Took it into the kitchen and somehow knew that it's body was now usless. Paralysed? The bird's head was still fine and lively. So I twisted it's head off of it 's body. I shoved the body aside for the time being. I jammed the blackbird's head down onto my index finger. We became symbiotic. The bird head was alive and well, even trying to chirp. Knew it was hungry and thirsty so I fed it a chocolate covered peanut and then tipped it's head down into a saucer of water so that it could drink.
Carefully, I rummaged some wires out of the 'junk drawer'. Rigged the wires up so that I could send an electric current through the bird's unmoving body. No matter how much I tried to 'shock' life back into the body, it would not be revived.
I felt horrible. I felt that I should be able to entirely save the bird. The fact that I couldn't just killed me inside.
I suddenly realized that I couldn't keep the bird head. I was wrong to have tried to help it. I only made things worse. It could never live a normal life now. I pulled the blackbird off of my finger and laid it on the kitchen counter. Suddenly there was a huge hammer in my left hand. I instantly lifted it and brought it down. Heard a mushy little crunch as the hammer crushed my bird's head. Felt horrible. Worse than I can ever remember feeling. I went back to my couch, curled up on it and literally wept.

3- Me, the Mechanic
I was in a field with a bunch of others fixing cars, like the pre tune up phase just before a demolition derby.
I know nothing about fixing vehicles. I don't even drive so the mechanics of how a vehicle is able to drive are totally beyond my comprehension.
I was tuning up a huge white bus. I moved about the thing like i knew what I was doing. To finish off I wanted to put some fresh tires on it. There were none so I quickly stole some tires from someone else's vehicle and put them onto the bus. The driver of the bus eventually came along, clapped me on the back for helping him. He then ushered a bunch of people onto the vehicle, each of whom thanked me or shook my hand for doing such a good swift job of fixing their bus.
After a few minutes the bus departed.
Suddenly this guy jumps in my face, accusing me of stealing his motor. It was the guy I'd stolen the tires from. I assured him I didn't steal his damned motor, there was no way in hell I could lift a motor out of a car. But he was dead sure I was the one who'd taken it.
Next thing I know, a huge crash echoed throught the area. I looked down the road and saw that my bus had crashed. I ran to it and tried to help the passengers out of it. They either swung at me or cringed away, most swearing at me or calling me down. The one phrase that really blared out though was..."You've done enough harm as it is. Get away. You're no help."
So I dejectedly left them. Feeling horrible that my help had only caused them further hinderance and pain.

4- Dirty Laundry
Was walking down a road that looked like Town Line. Came to a valley of old run down houses. An old fat woman was sitting crosslegged on her front lawn. She was in a moomoo and big floppy straw hat. She waved me over. I ignored her and continued on.
Came to be in the midst of a small town. A guy, the Keifer looking guy from a previous dream, waved me over. Offered me a job. I accepted. He lead me down a narrow decending alley and to a huge rusted metal door. He shoved it open and shoved me inside.
It was like a massive laundry. Gigantic well worn vats of boiling linens were everywhere. I felt compelled to touch one of the vats as we passed by but Kiefer smacked my hand away before I could. He told me I wasn't ready to touch them yet. I was a bit angered that he'd hit me but it quickly passed.
He launched into this long boring explenation of how each of the vats contained soiled fabric from a different house. Explained which vat contained which house's fabrics.
He then handed me off to a really skinny woman with puffy black hair. She reminded me of Chris Rock, but in a slinky little dress and stilleto boots. (shudders) 'Chris' lead me to a smaller room in which small steel tubs and washboards were being used to wash clothing. She shoved me down beside one of the tubs and ordered me to get scrubbing, told me there was a whole shit load of scrubbing to be done before I could leave. So, I set to work.
After a bit, I noticed a younger guy, maybe about 16, 17 or 18? His arm was in a sling. He looked up at me and smiled though it was obvious he was in pain. I sneaked over and asked if he needed help. He nodded. He used his good left arm and I became his right as together we worked on his pile of clothes.
Suddenly Kiefer was there. He whacked the tub with what looked like a contorted cane, and ordered me back to my own workstation. I slinked back. He knelt down beside me, glared at me and told me to take care of my own dirty laundry before trying to clean someone else's.
So, I sat there dejectedly scrubbing endless scraps of clothing, occasionally looking over to the guy with the broken arm. He looked so weak and worn. Felt so bad that I couldn't help him...and at the same time hated that Keifer was right about me having to take care of my own laundry first and foremost.

***Here is my blog entry from last night just before I slipped to bed.
It's 2 am and my mind is plagued with... Why?
Why do I bother to give a fuck?
Why do I let them keep getting to me?
Why am I cursed with this god damned savior compex?
Who knows?
Who cares?
Wonder if those questions influenced my dreams any...

[color=darkred]April 14

I don't know is anyones ever mentioned this to you but you should write a book.
I think your writing is great, and you seem to remember your dreams extremely well
*jealous*

Actually Explode, a couple of people have mentioned the book writing thing. Thanks.

But Ill tell you what I told them, I'm just too damned lazy to even think about writing an entire book. Perhaps I will one day if this accursed laziness ever disappears. Damn my inherited lazy genes, damn them to HELL.

April 15 /06

1- Fossil Hunt
Walked down a road until I came to Medina Corner. There I saw two huge rocks that had fossils on them. The one one scooped out into a bowl shape and inside there were 2 fossilised handprints and one large paw print.
Was going to keep them but some guy pulled up in a truck and said they were his. I didn't argue. Just walked up 1st line and scanned the rock walls for more fossils.
At some point the dream changed to me being inside a huge storage type room. Shelves upon shelves of papers and old books lined the walkway. Some of the papers had spilled out onto the floor. I picked them up and immediately recognized them as pictures I'd drawn back in Kindergarden. They made laugh as I flipped through them before I carefully stored them back on the shelf.
Left that room. Strolled through what looked like a historical museum. Suddenly had to go to the bathroom. I found it, it was small and old fashioned looking. Odd thing, the door to the bathroom was like seethrough plexiglass. I didn't want to go where everyone could seem me but had no choice. I waited for others to walk through and decided to just sit and go as quickly as possible.
Of course, as I sat down on the toilet, a tourgroup strolls through the place and stops to watch me using the bathroom. I was tremendously humiliated and tried to hide my face from them. Cant' remember anything beyond the humiliation.

2- Class 2112
I walked through school hallways. They seemed to be a splice of a couple of the highschools I attended. Found my room, it was room 2112. Sat at the back of the class and got my books out, started jotting down notes.
Suddenly I was distracted by a guy sitting a few rows over. He was sucking on a push up pop and it aroused me monsterously. I kept peeking over at him every so often between notetaking.
Eventually looked down at my book and noticed all my writing had vanished. My page was blank. The teacher then annouced that we had a quiz on the lecture he'd just given and we were allowed to use the notes we'd just taken.
Of course, I didn't remember a damned thing of the lecture because I was distracted by teh pushup pop guy, and my notes mystereously disapeared.
Lucky for me another guy, one I went to school with, helped me cheat on the quiz. But even through the quiz I kept stealing glances at push up pop guy. I couldn't help it.

3- Maxxx's
My sister, a few of her friends and I were at a dance club called Maxxx's. I remember the name well because of the 3 x's. Anyway, they were all afraid to get up and dance so I took it upon myself to be the brave one.
I got out on the dance floor and started making a complete ass of myself. I started dancing like Carlton from the Fresh Prince of Belair, and also did the Elaine dance from Seinfeld. They all started laughing and eventually came out onto the floor and we all danced like a bunch of drunken idiots. Didn't care how stupid we looked.

April 16 /06

1- Hamlet
Me and some guy walked into this hamlet of small closely built log houses. We entered the first one and did a thorough search of it. Don't recall what we were looking for though.
The last room searched was a bedroom. I decided to move the dresser away from the wall and surprise, there was a huge hole in the wall. It lead down to an old dirt cellar. There were also words scraped and scratched into the wall but can't remember what they were.
THe guy with me drew his gun and jumped down into the hole to search it. He disappeared. I was too afraid to go in after him. It was pitch black down in the hole.
After a while a really old lady came out of the hole. She had an old fashioned long gun and was threatening to shoot me. I simply grabbed the barrel of the gun and pulled it from her gnarled hands. She jumped back down into the hole and disappeared.
I left, met up with other 'police' type people. They informed me that all the log houses in the little hamlet were joined by underground tunnels. I went in and searched the other houses and found it was true. Tunnels joined up the entire village.
As I searched one of the houses the old lady appeared again, caught me off guard and kicked my ass.


2- Goat Girl
In this dream, I was a carmel colored goat trotting down a dirt road. A few feet ahead of me was a jack russel terrier. I was following where ever it went. Had the feeling I was running from something but can't remember what.
The dog leapt down into the ditch to get a drink. I followed. As I bent down to drink, my front hooves became my hands and I cupped water up out of the ditch to drink. I suddenly switched back to goat, then to human, then back to goat.
After my drink we continued on up the road. The dog eventually turned up lane way that snaked through what looked like just budding poplar trees. I followed. At the end of the lane was an old abandoned farm. The house was caving in and covered in vines. The windows were huge an hollow, reminded me of eye sockets in a skull. The barns were collapsed, the farmland was dead. Crops were nothing but black rotted stems hunching over the ground. Everything was dead and desolate, but there I felt safe.


3- Sailing & Sharks
Was on a rediculously small sail boat. We were on a lake or ocean that was crystal clear, could see to the bottom of the body of water. I stood up and looked down into the water and saw that it was teeming with sharks of all different varieties. They were huge. Most dwarfed the sail boat... I knew they were swimming around down there just waiting for us to fall in.


4- Stalking Falcon
I was on a task or hunt for something. I kept getting distracted from whatever it was I was supposed to be looking for, by a falcon. Every little while I'd catch sight of the bird soaring nearby and I'd stop and watch it. It was too beautiful not to.
After several distractions, I completely forgot what the hell I was looking for. I stood and simply indulged in the sight of the soaring falcon. From out of no where a huge crow or raven swooped down and slammed into the falcon. Both birds fell from the sky leaving a trail of feathers fluttering down after them. I ran to look for the falcon but couldnt find it.

April 17/06

1- Rehired
Don't know how it came about, but I was working again at the video store that I quit from a few months ago. (a job I dispised) It had moved from the small central plaza to a larger one.
I was busy trying to keep the videos alphabetized as people kept coming in and messing them up. It drove me insane!!! I felt like kicking the people in the ass and telling them to put things back where they got them. I wanted to quit again already.
The boss was there suddenly, and she stormed over to me and yelled, "You better not fucking quit on me this time either!"
Of course, I was about to just up and walk out the door because of her attitude but the customers kept messing up the movies. I felt overly compelled to set things back in order... old OCD urges seemed to have returned. So I stayed stuck at that damned movie store trying to keep things sequenced and tidy.


2- Road Trip ((250th recorded dream))
I was crammed into a car with a strange family, literally crushed up against the passenger door. We were barrelling up a highway and they were all arguing which way we were supposed to be heading. Finally sick of the constant bickering, I yelled, "Just stay straight for fuck's sake!!!"
The guy next to me suddenly squrimed even closer. He was staring at me with this blatently love (or lust?) struck eyes. It creeped me out massively and I wiggled even closer against the passenger door away from him. He just leaned onto me all the more. I felt like I was going to suffocate and considered just opening the door and rolling out into the midst of the highway just to escape the madness of the entire situation.


3- Brides
I was lined up with other girls of various ages. We were all dressed in plain white silk gowns and had veils draped over our faces. I don't know how I ended up in that situation but just stood there with the others. We each also had a white rose. I twirled mine in my fingers and simply watched it out of bordom.
Each girl, in turn, went into a room and was never to be seen again. When my turn came, I stepped into the room to see a guy who was trying to impersonate Jesus. He wore a thorn crown. Blood droplets slid down his face occasionally. I also noticed that his hands and feet were tattooed, some kind of representation of the scars left from being crucified?
Anyway, the guy was naked but for bit of a red silk sheet draped across his midsection. He beconed for me to go to him. I was too shocked by the sight of him to do anything but stand there. So he got up and moved to me. He lifted my veil and leaned in to try kiss my forhead. I cringed away then shoved him back onto the bed. Tossed the rose onto the floor and stepped on it, squashed it into the ground.
He stood back up, a look of serenity upon his face. He began spouting biblical passages to me in an attempt to persuade me that I belonged to him. That I was his bride. I didn't buy a single word of it. "I belong to no one!" I half yelled at him as I stormed toward the door.
The guy yelled after me, that if I left him my life would be nothing but pain and suffering. He said that if I stayed with him I'd be taken care of and be showered with luxuries for the rest of my life...blah blah blah...
I only shook my head. I had no intention of being 'taken care of' and would rather live a life of misery that be someone's pampered little bitch bride. I left the buiding, stepped outside and into the night and felt wonderfully liberated. I hitched up my gown and walked down a narrow dirt road to who knows where? The landscape was totally foreign to me.


4- The Flanderses
((a cartoon dream...<3 when I dream in cartoon))
I was part of the Simpson's cartoon. (wish I could have seen what I looked like ^-^)
Somehow I'd ended up watching Ned Flander's kids, Rod and Todd. We were all outside playing on the front lawn, the boys were riding their bikes up and down the drive way. One of them veered out onto the street and was nearly run over. I ran out and scooped he and his bike up, brought them back to the house.
While I was saving the one boy, Bart Simpson had sneaked over into our yard and had shot a little toy missle into the other boy's eye. He started screeching like he was dying.
Me and all three of the boys went into the house. Bart kept apologizing to the kid to try get him to stop freaking out. I went over and sat the boy on my lap, started singing some song (can't recall what).But the kid stopped crying and latched onto me. I quit singing and he'd start crying again. So I had to sit there and sing endlessly just to sooth the boy.
Ned finally came home, paid me a decent sized roll of $$ and thanked me for watching his boys. I got up to leave but the kid stayed clamped onto me. He started crying again, begging and pleading for me to stay. I tried to peel the kid off but he wouldn't be removed. Ned suggested that I stay till the boy fell asleep then he'd be able to pry him from me. So I sat back down and just watched the others go about thier lives.

April 18 / 06

1- Highschool Again
I was roaming aimlessly about my school. Had history class but didn't feel like going. Strolled through the library, picked out the play Hamlet and flipped through the pages. Settled into a comfortable seat and began reading.
After a bit I felt that I had to get out of the library. With book in hand I made my way throught the maze of hallways and annoyingly happy students. Rounded a corner and there stood my mother talking to one of my teachers. She was explaining to my mother that both parts of me were failing miserably. That if I didn't get working I'd fail and be expelled.
My mother glanced over at me and started crying, right there in the hallway infront of everyone. I was enraged that she'd try to guilt trip me with tears right out in public. I was so infuriated that I was fighting off urges to strangle her to death.
"Why can't you just conform?" the teacher asked. "It's not that hard.."
My mother nodded her head and asked the same thing. I looked down at the book in my hand. It had, at some point, turned from a paperback to a hardcover book. I wound up and whipped it at the two women, then stormed away. I was filled with a rabid desire to just murder someone.


2- Penthouse Party
Was on an elevator, steadily rising. When the doors finally opened I stepped out into the midst of a glitzy party. Everyone was dressed to the hilt in designer clothes. I felt really out of place and was sure that they would notice and toss my under dressed ass out of the party. They didn't. Someone actually came and greeted me, introduced me to many others there.
Made my rounds mingling, refused to drink. Refused to eat. Eventually I eased my way to the huge windows that spanned one side of the room. I stood there and found it more pleasing to watch the lightning leap and lick across the dark sky than participate in the party behind me.
After a while, the stormclouds split right down the middle and spread apart to reveal the star studded night sky behind. It was the most amazing thing I'd ever seen. On either side of the strip of nightsky, the stormclouds were still active and shooting out fingers of brilliant lightning. I was spellbound, completely forgot about the party.
The stars then began to slide across the sky, as if the world had suddenly decided to spin faster. I pressed right against the window trying to take in as much of the amazing sight as possible.
Then planets slid by, Mars rolled by, followed by Jupiter and Saturn. They were so close to the earth that I could see the other planet's surface features. It was simply astounding. After them, various nebulea also sailed across the split in the lightning storm. I recognised some of them, particularly the horsehead nebula and the lagoon nebula. Star clusters and galaxies moved through the split too...words could never explain how wonderous the sight was, or the feelings that were roused within me while I watched the universe scroll by.

April 19/06

1- Changing Nose Piercing
I was in what looked like a mall bathroom, lots of stalls and people milling about. I'd just bought a new stud to replace the ugly nose stud I have in now.
I started to pull the old piercing out but it wouldn't move. I had to tug on it before it loosened up. As I pulled it out, it took forever. It seemed like there was no end to the thing. When finally it was pulled all the way out it, the actual part of the stud that piereced my nose was really long and narrow, like a metal skewer.
I hadn't noticed at the time but a group of people had gathered and had been watching as I pulled the long metallic object out of my head. Most of them were disgusted. Some were amazed that something that size had been jammed up my nose.
I, personally, felt sickened by it. I wondered how I'd managed to keep that thing up my nose without it jamming into my brain.


2- X-Files
Was with Skully from the x-files. Not sure if I was myself or playing Mulder. It was dark and we were hunched over a dead body. But neither of us could figure out what the hell it was! It looked as if it were a cross between a human and a baboon and even had some reptillian aspects about it.
Next, we were preforming an autopsy on the thing. Skully all of the inscissions and dissection. I merely watched. We discovered that the creature had human innards, it was just it's out ward appearance that was out of the ordinary.
OH, during the autopsy, I'd switch back and forth between the creature that was being examined and myself, the examiner.
Still didn't figure out what in the world that monstrosoity actually was.

Been a while... gotta get this back on track...

May 29th

1- Ghost Brat
Three kids were sleeping in my basement. They came upstairs crying. Said there was a ghost downstairs. So I let the kids sleep on my bed. I laid on the floor.
Eventually I got up. Noticed there were 4 kids on the bed instead of 3. Knew one was the ghost. I yelled at it, told it to get back in the basement. It couldn't sleep with us because it scared the kids.
But it wouldn't go. It kept charging me, trying to scare me. I wasn't afraid. Just kept trying to get it back into the basement.

2- Windows
Recall messing with my bedroom window. Stuck a small square of clear plastic on it. Then covered that with a larger rectangle of window tint. I then tried to fit the glass into the pane but the glass was too narrow. It fell out and shattered on the cement below.
Bad thing, no window meant the house was vulnerable. Knew someone was going to 'break' in. Paranoid, I ransacked the house for something to cover the glassless window.

May 30th/06

1-J.N. Get Together
AM, SK, DA, KA & others in building with many small rooms.
SK was sick and retired to a room to escape the others. I joined her. But DA found her and the others flooded into room, took her away.
Left with AM, DA and KA. One spilled hot coffeee across his hand & showed us the burn. In turn, I showed them mine and AM grabbed my hand and tried to burst the burn blisters.
They were all determined to pop them, don't know why.

*Mood- Aggrivated
*Ifluencing Factor-On J sight before bed/worried about my burn



2-J Get Away
Chasing J thorugh a massive mall. He was able to leap up, spiderman-like and crawl up balconies & walls. Security tried to help catch him but they were unsuccessful too.
Eventually, J was on 2 skakeboards, on/foot. I eventually caught him, took his boards and crammed them in garbage. Suddenly he had another skateboard, tried to get away. I grabbed back of his shirt, took the board and snapped it in half. Had to hand onto him so he couldn't escape.

*Mood-Pissed off
*Influencing Factor- J's mood & watching skateboarders earlier in evening



3- Free Meal
Parked outside a small house. Entered it to see old black lady cooking up a storm. She offered us food. D took some. I didn't. Wasn't hungry.
Went to sit down but the house was full of people. So D sat on floor and ate while I waited impatiently. Had somewhere important to be, though can't remember atm where that important place was.

*Mood-Impatient
*Influencing Factor-Stomach problems yesterday, skipped supper?



4- Mir Condo
Visited my sister in her new place. She had 2 babies, twins I think. She looked very haggard. As we readied to leave she tried to convince us to take one of the babies to keep as our own.

*Mood-Irritable
*Influencing Factor-Thinking of my other sister's twins

Vex said she wants me to throw pie on her and lick it off!! I think she needs to be spanked as a punishment.

lol

Hahaha... I said you could throw a pie at me anytime you feel the need. You're the one who brought up licking it up.


But... i'll still take the spanking none the less. It's been a while...