Thread: ~ Vex Kitten's Journal 05/06 ~

Thanks for the punishment... but...
*shoves Stag Boy into an ice cold shower so I can get down to dream journal-ing*

Happy birthday to Moi.
Since I'm now officially another year older and another year miserable-er, figured I might as well start this today. A miniscule change to work at over the next year.

Revamped my dream journal approach. Including Dream Mood and Influcencing Factors. Restricting regular dream posts to 100 words or less. Lucid dreams will be fully detailed. Decided to try the Lucid Dream Rating/Control thing.

~edited due to massive sp errors and all around sloppiness~

[b]May 31st 06

1- Intruders
Getting a bath ready. Heard noise from basement, dog started barking. Instantly knew someone was downstairs. I sneaked out of the house to neighbors to use the phone. It wouldn't work. Looked out window and saw strange truck parked outside my house. The driver noticed me watching and drove off.
I crept out the neighbors back door. They loaded me into a van and secreted me away. I had to let a guy put his arm around me, pretending I was his girlfriend. As we drove away, jack-o-lanterns littered the roadway. We ploughed right threw them all.

Mood- Paranoid
Influencing Factor - something fell over in the basement about 12am last night.


2-Labelled Nightsky
Walking around the bend that leads to my house. It was night, quiet, stars were sprawled across sky. Remember thinking I should break out the telescope, it's been a while.
Happened to look back behind the houses and caught a glimpse of Jupiter and 4 of it's moons. It was huge, larger than the moon. Could see the cloudbands and redspot... everything. Everything else was closer too, galaxies, nebula, star clusters...etc. It was stunning.
Oddest thing was that the planet, moons and all other celestial object were labelled similar to how they are labelled in my astromony nightsky program.

Mood - Amazed
Influencing Factor - Thinking I should put my telescope to use earlier last evening.


3- To Grandmother's
Driving to my grandmother's house. Faye, who lives down the way, pulled out in front of me nearly ran me off the road. I would have exacted some road rage on her but grams was priority 1.
Finally get there and Russ is unloading his belongings, moving into her house. This enraged me. Hedidn't deserve to live in her house. He'd only ruin it.
I started backing out and he suddenly ran over and hopped in back of the truck. Wanted a ride into town. So I took him just to get him out of there.

Mood - Irritable
Influencing Factor - No clue

Most happy birthday to you and all the best wishes.
Quite the organizational work you did there; I've never been one for too much formal organization (creating written classifications and such) but that's just me; after all, whatever works best is...best, hahah.

Thanks for the bday wishes Merlock. You're the first to offer some this morning.

About the formal organization here... my slight obsessive compulsiveness helps make it possible.
^-^

whats all this stuff about spanking?
haha.
how old are you guys anyway?

Too old to be spanked by a little perv like Stag Boy.

[b]June 1st 06

1- Searching Internet
On computer, searching for info on a specific place (can't remember where now) but it was of the highest importance to me. Ended up skimming through satellite maps online. Found the general area I'd wanted but couldn't zoom in on the specific house or building I sought.

Mood - frustrated
Influencing Factor - don't know right now


2- Scald/Maggots
((scalded my hand in boiling water a few days ago, the wound is very nasty looking))
Don't remeber much more of this dream other than my scalded fingers were agonizingly itchy. I absently scratched at them, forgot they were blistered. The blisters popped open. A thick milky fluid leaked out. When I looked closer, it wasn't liquid, it was actually billions of tiny squirming slimey maggots. I actually screamed and felt nauseated and faint.

Mood - horrified
Influencing Factor - Blister burst last night, worried about infection


3- Sole Strolling
Was walking through a huge grassy field under the stars. It was gorgeous. But I was alone. Felt as if someone was supposed to be there enjoying the night with me. Kept looking all about myself, waiting for whoever to show up. Each second that passed I grew sadder. Felt so abandoned. Like I was the only person in all existence. The other never showed.

Mood - Massive loneliness
Influencing Factor - Chatted w/ someone about such a scene before bed


4- The Blue Kitten
Happened across a scene of 3 kids tormenting a tiny blue kitten. It enraged me to see them picking on something so helpless. I yelled at them to stop but the kids didn't seem to hear. I wanted to save it everywhere I went a massive chain link fence barred my way.
I can still hear the kitten screaming, it screamed like a small child would.
Broke my heart that I couldn't help it. I could do nothing to save it.

Mood - anger/sorrow
Influencing Factor - A friend's bad situation lastnight and/or neopets?


5- Tyler Fire
Was in a junkyard. A black billowing cloud of smoke was rising. I followed it to the source and it was a tire fire. Everyone was running about crazily trying to extinguish it. But instead of calling it a tire fire they referred to it as a tyler fire. I tried to correct them but none listened.
I needed to get in touch with someone about the fire but my cell was dead. Saw a guy with a laptop and asked if I could use messenger. As I asked, an IM window popped up with owned written all over it... woke up suddenly.

Mood - anxious
Influencing Factor - wondering about Owned earlier today.

Influencing Factor - A friend's bad situation lastnight and/or neopets?
[/b]

doh....
neopets addict you too?
me too!!!

(my baby ogrin says hallo)

Hi italianmonkey.

Welcome to my dreams.
Not the safest place in the universe but sometimes fun.


Neopets. I was actually talking with someone else about them that night. I used to have a pet but it became severely neglected. Actually considering trying it again after chatting with said somene, though.

June 2nd 06

1- Locking Shop/Message Lady
Night. Was going through house triple checking all doors & windows were locked. D went outside and chased some shady looking chars from the premisis. He came back, took up position at the front. I went to the side door.
Went outside, a stout older woman approached. Said she had left a message for me to pass on to someone else. As she said this, outside brightened. Looked like a severely overcast day instead of night. Tried to get more info out of woman but she got into a red truck and left. I returned to locking.

Mood - paranoid
Influencing Factor - people milling about outside my house at 1am?


2- Stone Bridge
Was at a river. A bunch of NA native people waited to cross. An elderly lady eventually ushered us across. Strange, the bridge arched steeply and dangerously down instead of up...close to the rapid water. Felt it wasn't safe, but trusted the lady to get us across. She was constantly talking. Can't remember what she said.
Got to other shore but felt need to go back. As if I'd forgotten something. Me and 3 others tried to recross but I gave up half way. The bridge was far too steep for me to climb back to the original shore.

Mood - uncertainness
Influencing Factor - ??


3 - Chasing Christen
Setting Niagara Falls-ish. Felt like Goat Island. In pursuit of a girl named Christen. She moved at a near superhuman speed. Felt she was in trouble but wouldn't let anyone help.
I'd always find her near the water, staring sadly into it. She'd bolt upon seeing me. She climbed up under a bridge. I followed. She jumped from an incredible height just to escape. I dangled down, afraid of the height but convinced myself to drop. I didn't get hurt on landing. Continued to persue. Never caught her.

Mood - Urgent (why, dont know)
Influencing Factor - No idea


4- Road Home
Walked a dirt road alone. Felt familiar though I didn't recall ever travelling it before. Eventually others followed me. A split of family, friends, strangers. We began yapping about how good it'd be to finally get home. Turned onto another, familiar road. 2nd line. Knew we were almost home.
About halfway through the concession, I announced we were nearly there. That home was just beyond the next patch of pine trees.
As we passed the trees I was devistated to see that home was demolished. Nothing but a mountian of blue debris. We had no home.. no where to return to.

Mood - Anticipation then monsterous deahtlike loss
Influencing Factor - Land Reclamation thing???


>> 275th Recorded Dream<<
5- Toy Fishing
Me and a bunch of kids were near a dark, shallow river. (think I was a kid). All had fishingpoles. Me and a few others moved farther down river. We saw hundreds of toys floating in the water. Mostly stuffed animals. Tried to fish them out. No success. They were just beyond reach.
Ended up trying to fish a pink, tutu wearing stuffed dog out of the water for one of the smaller kids. She wanted it so badly. But a surge of water came and the toys were washed away from us.

Mood - Depressed
Influencing Factor - Saw a pink tutu wearing stuffed dog yesterday


6- Sis's Store
Visiting my sis. Went down stairs to the store under her apartment. The guys working there loaded a platter with all kinds of merchandise. When it was loaded nearly beyond carrying they rung in the purchase. It' was $1.50.
I paid, amazed to get so much for so little. Thought they had either miscalculated or it was my lucky day.
As I left, they called me by my sister's name. This irritated the hell out of me. I threw the merchandise back at them and stormed out, horribly offended.

Mood - Offended
Influencing Factor - ? no clue ?

BIRTHDAY!!

And don't think I didn't notice that you called me a little perv !
Your going to give me a bad reputation here on DV!!

* Throws a pie (not on Vex, but on Lindsey Lohan!!!) MUHWAHAHAHA*

might i add, that there is a typo under the Lucid tasks section of that post you made on your birthday.

[b]June 3rd 06

1- Doll Attic
Was in an old house. With video cam, recorded the premisis. Someone found an attic. I had a bad feeling about it, but went up.
The entire attic was lined with shelves of dolls. Also on a bed in midst of attic sat a lone doll. Felt it hated me being there. My cam beeped. Out of tape.
Looked back up at bed. Doll was gone. I quickly left the room, locked the door. Don't know where the doll went.
Continued recording rest of house. Had awful feeling something bad escaped the attic.

Mood - Worried
Influencing factor - no clue


2- Lady Barricade.
Looked out my front window. A bunch of women stood side by side, linked together at elbows to form a human barrier. The line formed at the end of my driveway.
Pondered whether I should join. Decided against it. Was more interested in getting pictures. Found out they were going to risk life and limb to barricade 'them' out. Don't know who 'them' was. "They' were supposed to be driving through to cause trouble.
Cars tried to drive through despite the human barricade. Huge brawl ensued.

Mood - Curiosity
Influencing Factor - No Idea


3- Bus Hunting
Can't remember who, but some people got trapped on a bus. Me and some other, on bikes, tried to chase it down. The bus moved to the highway and sped up. We lost it.
Tried cell-ing the people on bus, but our cell phone died. Tossed it on ground.
Eventually got to bus terminal but the people we were chased were gone. Searched the overcrowed terminal like crazy. Couldn't find them. Had an over whelming urge to whip out a gun and blast everyone to hell.

Mood - Insane Rage
Influencing factor - ??


4- Playgirl/Yahoo Talk
~ Unpostable dream ~
Wakened, quite rudely, out of it.

Mood - Unbelievably happy, then anger @ being wakened
Influencing Factor - Playgirl/'Sex in Dreams' thread?


5- Snow LD ((L- 4 C- 1))??
((late recalled LD))
After being awakened out of the previous dream, attempted to slip back to sleep. Watched HI.
Imagery was different this time...like a bunch of fireflies swirling around in pitchblack.
Slowly, the fireflies turned into drifting snowflakes. Outdoor scenery formed, feeling of a cemetary. I was lying on the ground in the accumulating snow. Wasn't cold. Watched the snow falling gently around me. Felt peaceful.
Waited for the scene to solidify... but was awakened... again.... before it could.

Mood - Peaceful
Influencing factor - HIT w/ no particular goal
((pretty sucky and short LD. I HATE being wakened from an LD ))

Thanks for the happy belated bday Stag Boy.
And when I called you a little perv, I meant it in the most loving way possible.
And have fun with your pie and Lohan. I'd have preferred a bday cake tossed my way anyway.

About the typo, theres always a typo. Unless it's major, I dont bother editing. Too lazy. But thanks anyway. Perhaps I should call you my own personal dictionary instead of a little perv... or maybe both would suffice.

hahaha...
tossed cake.
happy bday

Thanks for another belated happy bday jjm121!


Had Stag Boy brought the cake, I would have gladly shared some with you.

haha your welcome.

in response to what you said about going to bed the same time everyday:

i cant really.
i need to be tired to go to sleep.
it varies from night to night.

June 4th 06

1- Damned Deniro.
Wandered through a sweltering city. Sought refuge in a bar.
After a bit, a guy who looked like Robert Deniro sat with me. He bought me drink after drink, blue concoctions. Tasted like blue freezies. Had a good time with him.
Ended up sitting at the actual bar. Deniro leapt over it and started serving drinks. Made me a new one, noticed he slipped drugs or poison into it. I started bitching at him.
He didn't say anything. I got up and left. Just wandered, massively pissed off that some guy had tried to drug me.

Mood- Angry
Influencing Factor - convo about Goodfellas?


2- Victoria Park & Snoop
Sat on a bench in victoria park, chatted with strangers. To the left was a group of guys rapping. Listened for a bit.
Shortly thereafter the park hushed. A guy on an OCC pedal bike cruised up. It was Snoop Dog, or looked like. He rolled in as if he were God's gift to the world. As he passed my bench, the guy lost control and tipped over. Sprawled on the ground, groaning.
I burst out laughing like a maniac. Everyone else stared at me as if I were crazy.
Everyone left me.

Mood - Amused
Influencing Factor - No idea, maybe heard a Snoop Dogg song on Radio as I slept?

June 5th 06

1- Brantford & Old Bitch
Running from someone or something, in Brantford. The citizens were all really old and miserable. They bitched and moaned as I shoved my way through them.
Got hungry. Went into a small subshop. Was about to order but some leather clad woman shoved me aside. (reminded me of Hatchetface from Crybaby)
I turned on her and bitched her out, ordered and went and sat in back of shop. As I ate, I plotted how I was going to get revenge on Hatchetface.

Mood - Irritable
Influencing Factor - ?


2- Tablet Head
Just recall feeling as if I were being watched. Looked to the right and standing at the edge of a forest was a cloaked and hooded figure. I actually recognized it. Had seen it before.
Coudln't see it's body, as it was draped in a cloak. And instead of a face peering out from under the hood, there was a slate gray tablet, almost looked like a tombstone. On the tablet was indeciperable writing.
The thing, whatever it was, was frightening though it made no threatening movements or gestures.

Mood - Afraid
Influencing Factor - No idea


3- Unwrapping Burned Fingers
My burned hand was wrapped in a mit of gauze. Unwrapped it slowly, afraid to see what my hand looked like.
As I got down to the last layer, pulled it away but my flesh was still stuck to it. Ripped a good chunk of skin from my fingers. Could see tendons and bone. I wrapped my hand again quickly, sickened and on the verge of flipping out from the sight of my fingers.

Mood - Sickened
Influencing Factor - The top layer of skin peeling from the burn?


4- Hide and Seek
Was in a field of goldenrod. Butterflies everywhere. A little girl skipped to me. She said, "Bet you can't find me" then took off.
Suddenly was in a dark forest searching for her. Heard her whispering but couldn't find her. Came to a monsterous oak tree. Her voice came from inside it. I approached, acorns crackled underfoot. Looked down. The acorns I'd stepped on had blood and maggots oozing out of them. I backed away, disgusted.
Tried to find my way out of the forest but was lost. Could still hear the girl whispering around me.

Mood - Frightened/Lost
Influencing Factor - no clue.


5 - Restaurant LD (nap) ((L4-C1))
Went to sleep on stomach, head resting on my arms.
'Woke up' with my head down on my arms at a table in a restaurant. Sat up. The dream scenery was pastel-ish. Fake. I tried to force the scenery to solidify but I didn't seem to have enough strength to do it.
Someone was across from me talking. A waitor came, tossed several items on the table. Told me I could have them if I could answer one question. I nodded.
He asked a Star Wars question that I knew I knew the answer too. I couldn't call up the answer. Verbally scolded myself, 'This is MY dream. I can answer whatever the hell I want and it will be right."
But as much as I tried to wring and answer out of my brain, none would come. Eventually woke up, frustrated.

Mood - Frustration
Influencing Factor - Star Wars convo with someone earlier.

June 6th 06

((Had 3 dreams prior to these but was woken up early and forgot to write them down. Fell back asleep and now can't remember them. )

1- Miller's Store
Was at the gas/variety store at the corner of 69 and 2nd line. My grandmother's house was just across the field. Tried to get to her house but the field was waterlogged, slippery and muddy. Impossible to walk.
After a while, just hopped in a car with someone else and they gave me a ride there. Got on her lawn and just lounged under the apple tree.

Mood - anxious
Influencing Factor - ?


2- Birthday Party / Plane
At a kid's birthday party. Balloons, streamers, partyhats, the works. Kids everywhere. I didn't know anyone. Felt out of place.
Went to sit on the front porch. A small plane was circling. I informed the others. They paniced. All were certain that the plane would literally 'crash' the party. All scrambled for the basement.
I tried to convince them to get out of the house. The wouldn't. So I left. A few min later, the plane plummeted into the house. Huge explosion. Fire and screams.
I whipped out my cam and took pix.

Mood - Out of place
Influencing Factor - Absolutely no idea


3- Stones/ Sasgwaygo?
Was playing on a stonehenge like structure. Decided to leap off and fly. Just before I hit ground I went weightless and sort of back stroked through the air a couple of feet from the ground. Flew through fields and thick forests.
Ended up at an old house. A man and his kids were there. They invited me in, the man said, "Sago...sasgwaygo." and shoved my spiral bound dream journal at me. "Write."
So I did.
They fed me and let me stay at their house as I maniciacally scribbled in my journal.

Mood - Free
Influencing Factor - ???


4- Developing Film
Was in my bathroom aka makeshift darkroom. The red light was on. I readied to develop black and white film. Loaded the film onto the reels and put them in the developing tank.
Mixed the chemicals and suddenly it dawned on me that Id forgot to shut the red light off as Ioaded the film onto the reels. They'd be ruined, having been exposed to light. Was so pissed off at myself that I would have kicked my own ass if possible.

Mood - Angry
Influencing Factor - Wanted to develop film last night.

June 7th 06

1- Skirting Niagara Falls
On the city limits of Niagara Falls. It was warm, summer, beatutiful day. Looked forward to the cool mist that drifts from the falls.
Walked endlessly, no matter which way I went, I couldn't seem to find my way into the city it's self. I'd only end up farther away or back where I started.

Mood - Frustrated
Influencing Factor- thinking of NF often lately


2- Hospital & KR
Roamed a hospital, looking for a bathroom. Nurses kept stopping me, trying to make me get back to my room. I refused to go. Needed to use the bathroom badly.
Eventually, a huge guy with long white hair, stepped in front of me. He took me by the arm and tried to drag me away. I ran, finally found a bathroom. All the stalls were filthy, horrible. But I stayed in the bathroom rather than deal with the big white haired guy.

Mood - Annoyed
Influencing factor - ??


3- Un-grand Grand River
At a celebrtion alongside the grand river. People, food, games everywhere. Very festive.
I didn't feel like being festive though. Went for a walk along the river's edge. The farther I walked the filthier the river got.
At one point, there was a dam of trash and twigs and tree roots. It was so thick and sturdy that people were driving their vehicles across it.
The river seemed to be nothing more than a dump. Was very disgusted by the sight of it.

Mood - disgusted
Influencing Factor - ?


4- Strolling W/ Sibs
Was walking through B-ford, along what looked like Colborne st. Was with my sisters. They were shoving their kids along in strollers.
We were all headed home. Have the feeling we all lived at the same place.
As we crossed at a busy intersection, a car came whipped around skimmed both strollers. I was about to yank the stollers back onto the sidewalk but another car came and crashed straight into them.
My sisters were frozen to the spot. I had to go over and check the kids... they were dead.

Mood - Angry/Sad
Influencing Factor - My sisters' problems re their children[/u]

June 8th 06

1- Dogs Everywhere
Looked out my diningroom window to check on my Jack Russel. There were hundreds of dogs outside standing in line waiting to bail on her. Apparently she was in heat.
I banged on the window. Most scattered. Some stubborn ones stayed. A small curley haired dog jumped on my dog and started mating with her. I grabbed a baseball bat and stepped out back. Was met by a gigantic rotty x hound from hell dog. It snarled. I cowered into the house. Nothing I could do to keep the mongrels off my dog.

Mood - Pissed off
Influencing Factor - a dog that tried to jump mine last evening



2- ((can't read my scribbling to make out this dream... save this spot in case I suddenly remember in the future))


3- Messy Basement
Basement flooded. Walls and doors would disappear and reappear. Like a shifting maze. Mopped up the mess. Due to flooding there was a huge sinkhole in the floor. Inspected, looked like a newly discovered secret room, or more like the lair of some horrible monster. Terrified of it.
On other side of basement was another 'new' under room. It was clean, empty and bright. Make it a bomb shelter? Sub basement I called it. Stood in basement between the two accidentally discovered sub rooms, wondering what I'd do with them. Bury one... use the other?

Mood - amazement
Influence- thinking of cleaning out my basement


4- House Sitter
Watching a friend's house. She neglected to tell me she had a teenager that I had to sit too. This irritated me. Cooked dinner for both of us. He tried to retreat to his room to eat. Told him he had to eat with me or starve. He stayed.
Later, outside, he was reading. He suddenly came over and kissed me. I Protested at first, then just let it happen. Dream deteriorated to a sexual encounter from there.

Mood - Conflicted
Influence - a similar story

June 9th 06

((300th recorded dream))
1- Starving
A young woman sat under a dead tree. She was so malnourished, skeletal. Various people tried helping but could find nothing for her to eat. All vegitation was blackened, dead.
Someone cut open their arm and offered their blood for nourishment. She lapped it up, became a bit stronger. I recall someone saying a roast penguin would fix her right up. "Where the fuck are we supposed to get a penguin?" I asked
I seached for something to help the woman too. Came across a crystal clear stream with plump strawberries growing within it. Knew the water would heal her.

Mood - Need to assist
Influence - dont know


2- Running Man
Surveiled a street corner. With binocs, I witnessed a man run and pick up a stack of newspapers and take off with them. Odd, the guy looked like nothing more than a stick figure.
Anyway, we persued the paper thieving stick man. He eventually dropped down a manhole and was gone. Neither my partner or I was about to follow after. Radio-ed in for city sewage workers to ferret the guy out.

Mood - aggitated
Influence - haha... no clue


3- Mice Infestation
Curled up on my leather couch, tried to sleep. Heard scratching and rustling around inside it. Pulled couch from wall and white mice scattered everywhere.
Looked to dining room, patio door was open a slit. Mice were pouring in through it. I ran over, shut it and started stomping the mice. Some splatted under foot. Some crunched like insects. Some just scurried along as if nothing had happened to them.
Set out bowl of food and water. When the mice came for it I'd smash them with a hammer. Determied to kill every last one to them.

Mood - Extremely pissed off
Influence - ??


4- Simpsons @ Movies
((another toon dream ^-^))
I took Bart, Lisa and Maggie Simpson to the movie theater. We settled in. A group of annoying kids were a few rows ahead yapping and laughing loudly. I yelled at them to shut up but the only got louder.
Bart, unbeknownst to me, had brought his slingshot and fired it at one of the obnoxious kids, hit him in the back of the head. Said kid then complained to someone and we got kicked out of the movie theater.
We all complained to no avail. Left and just strolled about.

Mood - Pissed off
Influence - don't know


5- Annoying Stranger
Was at my grandmother's (I think) sitting on the floor, back against the couch, watching tv. People came and left, the usuall hustle and bustle.
An unknown guy plopped onto the couch behind me. I thought nothing of it. He suddenly draped his legs over my shoulders and squeezed my head with his thighs. I tried to pry free but he was locked on. Just when I thought I'd pass out, he let go. I stood up and bitched at him. The guy only laughed.
I grabbed the lamp nearby and smashed it on his face. We ended up fighting. Don't recall who won.

Mood - Murderous rage
Influence - absolutely no idea


6 - D's Mother's House Ruined
Walked outside D's mom's house. The house was neatly ripped in half. One part of the house was lying over in a field as if a strong wind had ripped it away and rolled it over there.
Walked to the back of the house, the side with D's mom's bedroom had sunk into the ground or the foundation had collapsed. The house rested at an odd angle.
Suddenly worried about his Mom. Rushed to the bedroom but heard her call us. Looked over, she was sitting safely under a tree in the backyard.

Mood - Fear


7 - Attack of the Cuddly Kitten and Teddy Bear.
((lol, almost forgot this one))
I was at home. Heard scratching at the front door. Opened it and and saw an adorable spotted gray kitten with amazing blue eyes. I bent down to pick him up. Noticed a teddy bear sitting behind the kitten. I reached over to pick it up too but the teddy bear turned it's head and grinned at me in a freakishly sweet manner. Looked at the kitten, it had the same little grin on it's face.
I was frightened of them... and locked them out. But the critters lurked about outside trying to get in.

Mood - Terrified ( and now... feeling stupid for being afraid of a kitten and teddybear)
Influence - Slightly twisted convos with a couple of slightly twisted people