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Last night I had a strange dream with a bunch of things that stood out. I was with N and we were arriving at this house...but I don't know if it was our house or not. So we get inside and we've got our arms around each other and stuff and we're all happy. Then I turn to N and tell him that I'm freezing. He looks down at my body and tells me that I need to put some clothes on and then touches my nipple and tells me that it's "icy cold." I look down at myself and see that I'm naked...haha, which isn't as weird to me as it should be. Then he ushers me towards a sort of changing room that has a bunch of clothes in it. So I am looking through the pile and see two hooded sweatshirts - one dark blue, I think, and the other a light blue. I grabbed the light blue one and put it on...it was very big. Then I started looking for pants and grab some pajama pants...and then I glance over at N and see that he is in his pajamas, too. But before I can finish getting dressed he says he's going to pick up some food for himself. So as soon as I get dressed I turn around to see a bunch of chicken and potatoes that looks REALLY good, and then realize why N wanted to get other food - he doesn't eat chicken. Then I had some conversation with a woman that was there...I didn't like this woman and I have no idea what we talked about. I just remember I didn't like it and I wanted N to get back...so I ran to the door to look out of it for him to be coming back. It was dark, so I flicked a light switch to try to turn on the light outside...it took a while for the light to come on, so I thought "that's strange" so I turned it on and off a couple times and, while I was incredibly amused by this, something just seemed wrong. That's when I started to think that I was dreaming and then I said to myself "Well, if I'm dreaming, then N will come back right now!" And then he came walking up to the door with a white bag in his hand. He was wearing a black and red coat. I was really excited to see him and his food smelled really good, but I was sad, too, because I thought about how I must be dreaming this. I opened the door for him and started to tell him about how the lady creeped me out...and then I woke up. |
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Weird dream. And I really need to start eating more so that I don't dream of food. Ha. : |
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The Best of my dream journal
MoSh: How about you stop trying to define everything, and just accept what you experience, and explore it.
- From the DJ of Waking Nomad!
Hmm. Well. I haven't had any substantial dreams that I have remembered. Just mostly bits and pieces of things. For instance, I dreamt that my computer was "internally" on fire...and it was flashing this thing on the screen and I was freaking out. ha. Last night I had another weird one where I kept getting the things that I was thinking of. All I remember is that there was something about trains...it could have been that I was hearing them outside...it's nice out, so my windows are open. Anyway, I can't recall, but I know that I was mysteriously getting my way in the dream and then, finally, I thought about the Coffee Beanery and how it'd be awesome to get one of their caramel coffee drinks...and then some guy handed me one...in a coffee beanery cup and everything. At that point, I was like "OK! I want a new car! Can you get me a new car, too?!" So the guy waved over another guy and they led me outside....to a big lot full of cars. hahaha. I was just like "Wow. Ok, show my your Toyotas...do you have any Echos?" haha. It was good fun, but at that point things stopped going my way because they didn't seem to have any cars I liked. They had a few hearses...weird, I know...and one of them was all vintage and cool...but I really don't want a hearse, right? So I just kept going along with them and stuff...I don't really remember anything else except for the part about the trains where I managed to cross the tracks right before a bunch of trains starting coming through. I was excited to have made it across. Then today, when I was driving across the tracks, I actually got over them right before the bell started to ring...just like in my dream. I thought that was kind of crazy. So yeah. I know there have been others that I've neglected to make a point to remember...but it's just been bits and pieces of dreams, so I've kind of just blown them off. My sleep has been very scattered, so I'm sure that is mostly why. |
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Ok, so, no lucid dreaming this week. However, last night I dreamt that I was trying to get to Kalamazoo. I was kind of lost and then I saw the Climax exit and a ramp to 94. I tried to swerve really quick to take it, but I ended up hitting some construction type thing and getting scared, so I swerved back and decided I would just come back around. Someone was with me in the car...on the wrong side of the car...and they wanted to get out right there on the freeway and go fix the construction thing. I was like "are you crazy?!" I was really excited to get to Kalamazoo because we were going to go shopping at some of the cool stores and hang out there....fun. |
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So fucking weird, man. Something or someone really wanted me to wake up. And I did at around 1:15am. This was after having a dream that someone was pounding on my door. I mean, pounding. In the dream, I didn't want to wake up, so I brought the sound of the fan to the forefront. A couple seconds later, I could still hear the knocking, so then I became outside of my body for a second and saw myself sleeping in my very upstairs window cubby. Then I started to convulse...and this made a noise - kind of like knocking - because the cubby is made of wood...it's like a platform. So, I'm convulsing. And I remember sensing that it was a girl at my door, but then when I started to convulse and noticed that I was producing an additional knocking sound, I thought to myself "Good, maybe he'll hear this and think that I'm not answering because I'm having sex right now." lol I kept convulsing and the a voice starting screaming my name...then that became all I could really hear. But I still can't recall the voice and whether it was male or female. As I woke up, in real life, I could still hear it and it sounded female. So, I woke up. I laid there a bit disturbed and scared for a few but I kept thinking I hear things. So I got up and checked the back first, thinking that the wind possibly blew one of the poles onto my car or something crazy and that maybe it was my neighbor at the door trying to wake me up. Nothing...still and quiet in the back. Then I went to the front. Nothing. Now that I'm awake, it's actually very, very quiet around here. I have no idea what that was about, but it does not seem that I need to be awake. I checked my cell phone...nothing going on. No emergency situations seems to be happening. And I find it hard to believe that there was someone actually at my door who gave up just as I was actually waking up. Maybe I had a seizure in my sleep. I have no clue. |
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I have had virtually no dream recall at all lately. Given that and the fact that I remember any details at all from my dreams last night.... |
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That reminds me of the last time I went to a bar. |
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Sick Dream. |
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Finally...some recall. I'm starting to think that the dreams I was having a while back - where I kept dreaming about food - were trying to tell me that, in order to remember my dreams, I needed to maintain my healthy and regular eating habits. After a week of not recalling anything that I dreamt, I finally ate good food yesterday and, voila, I remembered some things. Not much, though. |
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I had a dream that rapist Rob came to my parents' house. It was sometime around Halloween and I was at their house alone when someone knocked on the door - so I answered. It was him and he grabbed me and put a very small knife to my throat. I somehow managed to force him to stab himself in the neck, but since the knife was small, I was afraid it wouldn't slow him down enough. So I ran, grabbed a huge knife, and came back to the doorway. Then I stabbed him in the back of the neck, paused for a second, and then decided to chop his head off. I didn't know what to do after that, so I just called everyone I could think of to tell them what happened.....a ton of people showed up, mostly my family, and then I woke up - he was still laying on the floor, in two pieces, and no one had called the cops yet or anything. |
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LOL. Maybe you're in denial about wanting a giant rock on your wedding ring. |
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May 9th/10th Dream: |
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Hmmm. Hopefully I will remember more of my dreams as the day progresses...but right now I remember dreaming about Mike. All I can recall is him saying "Well, if you want that, then you're going to have to wait three years." Creepy. I have no idea what "that" is. |
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Ha. I dreamt that Mike and I were about to have sex in front of his mom, some guy, Michaela, and I think there was another little girl there. His mom yelled at us and was like "What the heck are you doing?!" Mike said something totally random in response. Then all of a sudden my nose got really stuffy, like I was allergic to something, but REALLY bad. I asked Mike for some tissues. He brought me a bunch and then went into the other room. When I finally felt like I was done blowing my nose, I looked to see what Mike was doing. He was making a bed on the floor in the back room out of a big, thick blanket and a ton of pillows. heh. |
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I dreamt that the FBI, or some other spying government agency, was watching/invading my house. The same thing kept happening over and over....I would come home with significant other to a cream-colored car pulling out of our dead end street to leave....every day at 4pm as significant other and I were getting home. Our house was the second or third from the end, on the left side of the street....hardwood floors....very new architecture...open floor plan that went around in a circle, with sliding glass doors in the back |
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Ha. I dreamt that Andre and Jenn were supposed to be meeting me at the bar...and I was waiting and waiting and they weren't showing. |
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Warped. |
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Hmmm. Well, I live in this house where, if you step outside, the roof is parrallel. I guess I have just had surgery on my wrist (again). There's quite a bit of dialogue....none of which really seems like it was important. I called my sister and she said she was chimney sweeping. It's confusing because at the same time that I am feeling/thinking that I don't want to have surgery....it's like I've already had it? There's a chunk of time spent in this bedroom....I'm there and I'm glad that it's warm because winter is coming and that means it has good insulation. I look around and consider how I might decorate things....try to figure out how high I would have to build a canopy over the bed so that my boyfriend won't catch his head on it, etc. I'm laying down trying to sleep, when I jump up, startled, and start to freak out because I need to eat and take my pain killers, so that by the time the numbing agent wears off, I will have pain killers in my system. I'm starving, so I must east first. The scene moves to the kitchen for a moment, where I guess I eat, but I don't recall. There are two kinds of banana pudding....one warm, and one cold. I want the warm kind. Odd, because I usually want anything that is like pudding to be cold when I eat it, but with lots of whipped cream. I'm not sure if I ate banana pudding or not.... |
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I had this dream that I was back together with my exboyfriend....or still together, I think. It didn't feel like we had broken up. So I can't remember what was happening before this, but I came downstairs, where he was sitting and watching a movie on the couch. I was in a loft, looking down on the couch and him. I felt very beside myself....as if I was watching the scene as a third party observer, but I was still myself. I don't know how to better explain it. So, he made some comment, which made me feel that he didn't want me there. He looked at me and seemed so happy to see me, but I just felt so strongly that he didn't want me there. I said something to that affect, like "Oh, sorry," or something. He then was just like "No, Aem, come here," and he patted the couch, moving things to make a place for me. I just shook my head. All I could feel and think was he was pretending...he was pretending well, too. That's where the being beside myself part comes in - part of me wanted to be there with him and believed that he loved me and wanted me to be there, and the other part of me just kept saying "No, he's lying, he's just an actor." After this little argument with myself went on for a bit, I then felt as if I was becoming "whole" again, and then I started flipping out. I went crazy, screaming and such. I actually started pulling my hair out. He seemed concerned, like he didn't really understand and wanted me to stop, but I couldn't shake the awful feeling that he was faking all of it. |
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Last edited by amyaem; 09-20-2007 at 02:09 PM.
It's too fuzzy to report coherently, however, some stuff from my weird dream: |
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