Thread: Sara's journey to lucidity

This was great! A good improvement from last time, when I was struggling with missing feet, falling over and loosing lucidity within less than a minute.

Before going to bed, I read about 15 minutes in my newly received EWLD book. I'm playing 'the ultimate lucid induction' mp3 every time when I read about lucid dreaming and this time also on my speakers instead of on the iPod. It was around 3:20 that I fell asleep and less than half an hour later, I have this dream!

I was in a underground hallway (like in a deserted shopping centre). I had a skateboard and was trying to ride on it. But just standing was too difficult to accomplish, so I was just pushing the board forward, trying to jump on it and then missing. There was a group of skaters around the corner, they were doing some tricks, which made their board crack and a part of it flew in the air and hit me. They started laughing at me, because I was such a terrible skater. Then I thought 'ah, you can laugh, but I don't care, cause I am dreaming!
Some other guy walked towards me, he had a large cardboard box in his hands and as I was touching the box, I was saying out loud what I was doing 'I'm touching the box' 'I'm grounding my dream'. I had to act quick, because the dream didn't stop, it was like a flowing storyboard and I just had to act with it.
The guy who held the box, pushed me, so I could move I looked at my feet and they were there! I was wearing 1 white shoe and 1 black shoe. As I followed this guy, I was leaping into the air and kind of floating after him. We entered a small room, where his dad was sitting at a table. I was still holding the box and wanted to hit him on the head with it, just for fun. But as usual in my dream, when I kick, slap or punch someone, it feels like I miss or has no effect.

I was now floating around in circles around this man, really wanted to lightly slap him with the box on his head, so he would notice/respond to me, but I couldn't approach him. After 2 circles at 2m distance around him I gave up and was flying (involuntarily) towards the ceiling. I thought I could go through, but it all went black. I thought 'better wake up and write it down, before I forget!" So I forced myself to wake up, feeling my body being still in SP. I got myself to sit upright but something was not right... It was an FA and then I woke up for real.

This is the first time there were DC's involved. I didn't interact with them, they were acting like they had a business of their own, pushing me with them in the flow of my dream. I'm thankfull, because maybe if I would just stand still again, I would fall off my feet and wake up. The dream was rather soundless. No talking, no music, no sound-effects. Only my own voice when I told myself 'touch the box'.

I guess this time it lasted around 1 or 2 minutes, there was a strong 'flow' which didn't allow me to slow down, but a lot had happened :-)

This is SOOO worth all the 'effort'! I just can't wait to dream again. So, off to bed again for the rest of my core sleep :-)

NICE!!!!!

Congrats Sara! thats great!

Its strange with the no effect violence in dreams, I dont often have those types of fighting dreams so it never comes to me to hit someone in my dreams but there are some people who have mental fighting dreams, nice one on attempting it

Congrats on improving your lucidity. I'm still waiting for the day to come. I've only had a couple that lasted just a second or two.

Originally Posted by mark

NICE!!!!!

Congrats Sara! thats great!

Its strange with the no effect violence in dreams, I dont often have those types of fighting dreams so it never comes to me to hit someone in my dreams but there are some people who have mental fighting dreams, nice one on attempting it

Thanks

I was wondering, maybe this was a signal for me, that it's not good to reach something (or to get someone's attention) by trying really hard, but I should back off a little and allow things to come to me instead.

Last night I had 2 very long (non-lucid) dreams both with you in them, it will take me some time to work them out, but they were very pleasant. Maybe it's because you're writing in my dream journal quite often, that my mind decided you should be in my dream too

Originally Posted by raklet

Congrats on improving your lucidity. I'm still waiting for the day to come. I've only had a couple that lasted just a second or two.

Don't worry raklet, I'm convinced your next, longer LD's will come very soon! I've started keeping a dream journal 1 month ago and some days I couldn't remember anything or just a short glimpse or feeling. So don't worry if you have days with little recall.

Originally Posted by Sara

Last night I had 2 very long (non-lucid) dreams both with you in them, it will take me some time to work them out, but they were very pleasant. Maybe it's because you're writing in my dream journal quite often, that my mind decided you should be in my dream too

Woooohooooo!!! lol I was in your dreams cool I shall have to try and return the favour

Lots of people have dreams about fellow DV members im gonna have to try and get some because they always make for a great read

im looking forward to reading these dreams

OK, I've been procrastinating this too long, which only makes it harder to start.
First dream which has a title

Kissing in Crocodile Creek

I'm on holiday with my boyfriend in an eastern European country with nice grassy hills and forests. Somehow I end up walking alone through the countryside, when I recieve an sms and arrange a kind of blind-date with someone from this forum (at that time, I don't know exactly who it is). He gives me a route description and when I'm allmost there, I can see him in a field. There's a watch tower next to the road, where I climb in and try to observe my blind-date without him seeing me. My vision is unclear and I start looking for my photo camera so I can zoom in and get a better look at him. I see that he saw me and he's coming toward my hiding place. I try to hide behind the door, so I can surprise him.

[real life interruption while typing: my Czech flatmate knocks on my door and brings me delicious palačinke (pancakes with molten chocolate, banana and whipped cream]

So, I was sitting behind the door, ready to jump forward and surprise him, but I don't get a chance, cause he already expected me to be there
Now he's so close, my vision is not blurred anymore and I take a good look on him. Wow, he is very cute! He has light-brown hair and very sweet blue eyes.
He's a bit younger than I am (2 or 3 years) but in contrary to what is seen as 'normal', I like it when a man is a bit younger than me.
All tension about the blind-date disappears and I feel I really like him! I want to be close to him and I think he feels that, because he takes my hand and together we walk towards a small creek. I feel both excited and mellow, walking hand in hand... that just-fallen-in-love feeling...

We're heading for a forest, where no-one can see us (I still know I have a boyfriend somewhere, but I'm convinced he can't see us here). We reach the water and walk into it. Walking through the water feels great and he starts walking even closer to me, till his body is touching mine everywhere. Then he turns and kisses me, in the best way I've ever been kissed in a dream (which usually is already better than real life)

Unfortunately, the kiss lasts very short and suddenly there's a crocodile in the water, heading for us! We run out of the water, but there's a 1m high wall with a steep grass hill that we have to climb to escape. I can't get a hold of the grass, so he lifts me up before saving his own ass. How romantic, he's so sweet :-)
When I reach the top (by pulling myself up holding only to blades of grass) I look back and see the crocodile stays there, pfew! Now other little crocodiles are crawling on the field, but they are very small and I step on their mouth, so they can't bite us. There's other people walking around and my boyfriend shows up too. I don't feel embarrassed, I just continue my holiday with him, while my new blind-date goes with us on the trip.

We're travelling through Romania by train which costs only a few euro. Then we want to go back, but this costs 5000 Kuna (Croatian money, so we're probably in Zagreb now) and this is calculated as 120 euro. Way to expensive, cause we only paid a few euro to get there. We decide to get into the train without a ticket, but I don't know if we made it back, because my dream ends here.

I wake up, feeling very happy (but also disappointed because of the short kissing) and decide to screw my polyphasic schedule and fall back asleep, hopefully to see my blind-date again, so I can ask for his name.

A less congruent story, but with some nice details

Revealing of the blind-date

I'm at home, standing behind my computer (I have to leave soon, so I don't take the time to sit down). An MSN conversation screen pops up, it's Mark. He asks me about 'yesterday' and would like to meet me again. Ah, so it was him. I'm not surprised by this (although I didn't know who it was till I saw his name on the screen) Then a lot of pink pop-ups appear in the screen, which hinder me in answering Mark. Instead of the regular x in the top-right corner, there are strange symbols and I don't dare to click, since it might install a virus... He says these are his sisters fault, that's why they are all pink yeah, there is some real-life-logic in my dreams
I don't need to answer him, all I do is think about him and suddenly I'm on the back seat of a car (probably a taxi) sitting next to him. He's the same guy, but now he has light brown eyes instead of blue. I don't care, I like him either way

I would like to kiss him again, but he's a bit shy and refuses, saying we can't do this in a car where other people can see us (sounds more like what I would say IRL) and before I can convince him the cab-driver really doesn't care, my dream ends again

Wow, what a great dream to start the day
It took some time before I wrote it all down, but this is a dream I won't forget soon! Now, take some courage and press the submit button...

he he yep what can I say I still have it ha ha

Cool dream its funny how you describe me I actually do have light brown hair and blue eyes lol

dam crocodiles ha ha spoiling the fun lol

ha ha more obsticles in your second dream lol I wonder what that means?

im very very flaterred by this dream lol made my day

Originally Posted by mark

he he yep what can I say I still have it ha ha

Cool dream its funny how you describe me I actually do have light brown hair and blue eyes lol

No, really?
IRL I thought you would have dark hair and brown eyes...

dam crocodiles ha ha spoiling the fun lol

ha ha more obsticles in your second dream lol I wonder what that means?

Maybe that I wasn't supposed to have this fun with you, since I already have a boyfriend?

im very very flaterred by this dream lol made my day

I'm glad you liked it so much

From last night (plus naps) only some flashes. Forgot to put a second alarm, so I have to jump out of bed every time the alarm goes.

#1
I'm having a conversation with my mother about the birthday presents I gave to my sister and father. She feels disappointed that I spent way more money on them than on her [which is the case IRL, I still need to give her a present for her birthday last month ]

#2
I have the weird ability of enlarging items when I focus on them and use my eyes to make them grow. I show it in front of some people with a bunch of grapes, yelling 'hey, look, it's getting HUGE'.

I was suddenly feeling very tired. It would have been another 2 hours till my core sleep, but I thought 'why not take a 20min nap and try to have some nice dream'.
For the dream part, scroll down to the blue text

I laid down on the couch, imagined a nice dream scene (Mark can guess what it was about )

First the usual 'sinking' occurred, falling into SP within 2 minutes.
Then the terrible noise/pressure started again. This time it was mainly noise, like you are in a low-budget air plane next to where the engine is or you are driving a car at high speed with the windows open.

I tried to see how much I could stand, pretending that I really was in a plane and that noise had a cause. Well, not too lucky, at a certain point it got too much to handle and I forced myself to wake up by concentrating on breathing and/or moving my hands. Pfew, that worked, but I really wanted to try again. So I went through the same process several times (falling, noise, forcing myself to wake up).

One of the moments was VERY odd: I saw images that could have been from when I was a little baby. I heard my mother talking to me in a sweet voice and saw flashes of images that I didn't recognise, but somehow reminded me of things when I was very young. As this crossed my mind, somewhere between waking and sleeping, the whole pressure/noise and muscle twitching experience started to feel like I was being born, but then backwards. That scared me enough to try and wake up! I don't know if these were real memories or something my brain came up with because I just read burned up's journal about his childhood dreams...

Then I remembered the FILD technique and since I managed to wake up by moving my hands, maybe I would be able to pass through SP by focussing on this movement. Great Idea!

I really focussed on moving my hands, suddenly they were moving a lot while the rest of me was paralysed and I didn't wake up from it. Strange! I thought, lets try to get down from the couch. It worked! I was struggling to pull myself out of my paralised body and onto the floor.
As in my previous WILD, I was crawling/floating around on the floor, very unstable and with a short sight. I could see my carpet and some pieces of furniture on the floor. Small chairs and tables which I tried to grab, throw or whatever. All with minimal result, cause I was very weak. I continuously bumped into things and could FEEL the pinching in my leg. Especially the feel was very realistic.
As I crawled around quite helpless, I called for clarity, stabilisation etc, but didn't work. Then I called for strength and I managed to float a little higher. I saw my window and thought that would be a good way to escape. I live on the 11th floor and my dream view was just as IRL. Nighty skyline, lots of little white and orange lights.

I floated through the window, reminding myself: you can fly, you won't fall down.
Still having little control over my movement, I started flying backwards, facing the ground, as if I was pulled by my legs. I was flying very fast, away from earth. This was getting too scary and woke myself up (took quite some effort) [I have 'space dreams' sometimes, in which I see the earth from the sky, or see the sky from 'the edge of the earth', but those dreams are both interesting as well as scary, seeing things so BIG you realise how small you actually are]

Total time guess would be 2 mins for the dream. Total 'sleeping' time was less than 15 mins.

It's interesting, how little control I have over my body when dreaming and how this relates to real life. IRL I can feel clumsy sometimes, I think I need to increase my balance in waking life. The crawling around could also be symbolic: I just started LD-ing and need to learn it like a baby learns how to walk...
I was talking in English in my dream. That's funny, because it's not my main language and at the moment, I only read/write English on this forum.

Damn, this is so addictive!

Wow, I seem to be very lucky this night
Went to bed, tried for a WILD a second time, but now I was too tired I guess and fell asleep before SP. Well, or not... it's only 20 mins after going to bed.

False awakening:
Next thing I remember, I'm sleeping on the couch, the cat is running around and messing up my room. I find the sheet that I used as a pillow, is now lying on a different place. Several things are messed up, but I blame the cat, rearrange my things and lay down again, trying for some WILD, but the cat is still disturbing me.

As I peek though my eyes, I see the cat running by, again and again. Hmm, how strange. He doesn't go in circles, he just appears from behind me every time (reminds me of that 'deja vu' scene in the Matrix). HEY, and what about the stuff lying around just then, maybe this IS a dream already! OK, I can get up. This goes very easy. My vision is a bit blurred, so I take some time to increase clarity by looking at a shelf with hundreds of small objects on them. It looks like a collection of McDonalds surprises, but than an adult version of them (mainly black/blue things with stones and feathers )

I take 1 in my hand and I'm amazed at the detail of it. I spin it around, throw it in the air from hand to hand. It floats slowly while spinning around, changing shape. I'm amaze my mind can make this all up! Unfortunately, the 'thing' changes shape so often I can't really describe what it is.
My clarity increases, till much higher than IRL.

Then I feel a strong urge to pee. I hope I'm not going to wet myself while sleeping, but someone wrote about this earlier in a dream and didn't cause him to wet his bed, so I'm really interested how it would be to dream-pee
Floating around my room, I pull my pants down. Just when I'm floating upside down, I produce a small 'fountain' . There is no gravity, so everything stays floating in the air. Dammit, I didn't think about that! I'm floating through my own urine, it wets my Tshirt and this feels unexpectedly warm and wet (errr, just like real though). Now I'm really afraid that I'm wetting my own pants while sleeping...

I decided my room is not interesting anymore and want to fly out of the window. First time I fly past, it's daylight and I live on 2nd floor. I float another round in my room (don't have too much control about my movement, but a lot more than ehhh, 2 hours ago). Next time I come past the window, I live on 7th floor or so and outside it's getting a bit darker. There are lots of swimming pools, GREAT! I pass through the window and slowly float down. As I'm approaching the pool, my control is diminishing and I'm going to crash... I remind myself: it's not going to hurt and even though I crash half on the edge of the pool, I don't feel any pain. There are some old ladies in the pool, they are not surprised at all about me falling out of the sky.

Somehow I decide that this dream has taken long enough and I force myself to wake up before I drift of into a normal dream. Ahhhh, the cat is lying next to me :-) Maybe he helped me to become lucid by pushing/touching me when he was going to lay there.

Next time I'll try to remember about the task of the month! It's a shame that I just decided my dream was long enough, I could have done so much more!
It felt like a good 5 minutes of dreaming, although everything still feels like it's passing rather fast, I got some interesting things done in this dream
Oh, and I didn't wet my pants IRL

It must have been a DILD, my vision/clarity was much higher than from last WILD and I had much less feel of my own body.
I really love the way I'm floating around in my room, like an astronaut in the space shuttle.
Control of movement is still difficult. It's like there is a pattern of movement that I have to follow. I can choose not to something, but then I'm just stuck into a circular pattern and come by the same spot to make my choice again.


So, off to bed again! (it's 4am now, I'm not tired after waking up, but fall asleep within 3 mins)

wow sara! Congrats on the wild that is totally great! Wild is a hard one to do and I also get that strange thing when its hard to see and walk, its very annoying.

Your other lucid was great lol it was very funny I like the lack of gravity and I laughed so hard when you talked about the wee LOL very funny

wow sara! Congrats on the wild that is totally great! Wild is a hard one to do and I also get that strange thing when its hard to see and walk, its very annoying.

Thanks Mark!
It's also nice to know that you have this same problems with seeing and walking. Do you have a strategy to improve this?

Your other lucid was great lol it was very funny I like the lack of gravity and I laughed so hard when you talked about the wee LOL very funny

hehe, good to know it made you laugh. I almost left it out, because it is a bit embarrassing but now I'm glad that I wrote it down

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From yesterday and today only short fragments of dreams. It's strange that I do know I had a very long dream, but can't recall the story even though I know some fragments of it.

yesterday:
I'm leaving a house with some people that are dressed very stylish. We're going to a dinner or party and I feel uncomfortable that I'm not wearing appropriate clothes for this. It also seems that I'm switching clothes without redressing.

today:

I tried the same method as yesterday, hoping for another LD, but I think I was too tired and forgot to focus while falling asleep.

- I wake up lying next to my boyfriend. It's like we have both fallen asleep while having sex I try to 'finish the business' but he stays asleep.

- I'm in a horse stable, one of the horses was ridden by a prince and I have to find out which horse that was and take care of him

- I'm in the horse stable, where I bring my clothes to the dry-cleaner. They say something about my clothes not being OK and I try to explain that they are by showing my socks belong together

- I'm in a horse-box, which is flooding with water. The water gets higher and higher till I can go over the door.
This fragment happens twice, the second time I think 'huh, this was a fragment of the dreaming part in 'vanilla sky' so it's not dangerous'. It doesn't trigger lucidity, but I wake up seconds after.

Somehow all these fragments were linked (all take place in a horse stable) but the links are missing...

- I'm driving my own car, together with some teacher. We're going into a cave/tunnel and I'm afraid my car will be too high (see picture of my car on 1st page) but we just make it. There is a small room in the wall of this tunnel/cave with 2 people. One is a teacher from Hogwarts (think it was Snape, but in a friendlier version). They explain me something about an evil person and then they leave me alone.

Well, that's about all I can remember for now.

Wow, you are improving your dreams in leaps and bounds. I'm jealous at how fast LDs are coming to you. But I still have my head up and am enjoying the journey.

I just read through some of your first posts. Your English is fantastic even though it is not your native language. It is so good I would never have guessed it is a second language except for the fact you mentioned it.

Originally Posted by raklet

Wow, you are improving your dreams in leaps and bounds. I'm jealous at how fast LDs are coming to you.

Don't be! You are improving greatly and I'm impressed with the amount of detail in your dreams.

But I still have my head up and am enjoying the journey.

And that's the right attitude, I think!
Keep focussed, read a lot of DJ's and think about LD as much as you can during the day.
But I have to admit, if I wouldn't have had any LD's by now, I would probably have quit...

I just read through some of your first posts. Your English is fantastic even though it is not your native language. It is so good I would never have guessed it is a second language except for the fact you mentioned it.

Thanks, that's a really nice compliment. I do my best (just as with LD's ) and I've noticed that writing in English gets easier with every new post.

Too bad these are the only 2 things that I'm really learning the past weeks... I wished my studies were more interesting so it wouldn't be as hard to focus on passing my exams and receiving my MSc...

Niiiice job on the lucid, Sara!

And the pee fountain was hilarious, even more-so because you were just floating aimlessly and ended up swimming in it. Hehe.

And English isn't your native language?? I never would have guessed. You're doing great!

Keep up the good work!

yeah your grasp of English is great Im from England and your write it better then me

those fragments were good, I have nights when I just remember small sections of dreams to

I concur, Sara--you are doing really well! Flying's great, isn't it!

Originally Posted by Oneironaut

Niiiice job on the lucid, Sara!

And the pee fountain was hilarious, even more-so because you were just floating aimlessly and ended up swimming in it. Hehe.

Thanks, Oneironaut!
Good to hear that I made you laugh about my lucid-stupidity

Originally Posted by mark

yeah your grasp of English is great Im from England and your write it better then me

those fragments were good, I have nights when I just remember small sections of dreams to

Yeah, well, fragments is better than nothing at all
When I kept an off-line journal I didn't write them down, but now it feels 'empty' when I have a day without an entry in my journal, which motivates to write also fragments. Do you feel the same about this?

And about my writing: maybe it's because I'm very focussed on hiding my "non-nativeness" in English, that I check all sentences twice (plus spell check from firefox underlines my mistakes like allways and defenitly right when I'm typing them).

Originally Posted by Moonbeam

I concur, Sara--you are doing really well! Flying's great, isn't it!

Yeah, flying is the best! I've always wanted to be able to fly!
I've hardly ever flown in normal dreams, but since I'm practising on LD's and reading a lot of flying dreams, I'm in the air more and more often!

Hey, congratulations on the Lucids. It's a great feeling isn't it. I didn't have time to read much because it's getting late and I need to get off the computer. I'll try to read more when I get the chance.

Originally Posted by Caradon

Hey, congratulations on the Lucids. It's a great feeling isn't it.

Thanks Caradon!
Yes, it's a great feeling and really addictive too

Wednesday 20 november (3:30 - 8:30)

Last night I planned a 3,5 hours core sleep, but when I woke up at 7, I KNEW I had been dreaming, but no recall. Not even a nice fragment, only the feeling that I had been dreaming about LD's, but no lucidity.
Since I didn't have to get up early, I decided to snooze till I had at least 1 dream. A bit crazy maybe, but finally at 8:30 I had a short but dream, which had some very explicit dreamsigns, but alas, none of them triggered lucidity.

Lazy dad

I'm in a small, empty room with white walls. My dad is the electrician and he has to install some electrical wires. He is very lazy, doesn't want to work and just hangs around waiting for the break. I was annoyed by his lazy attitude, but was not motivating him to work harder either. (IRL my dad has a more 'intelligent' job and is everything BUT lazy, work is his hobby)

It's early in the afternoon, we leave the room and head for the lunch room. When we're in the lunch room, I see the signs for toilet and decide I need to go there. Not that I feel an urge to pee, just want to go in there. The lunch room is very quiet, but the bathroom is crowded with chattering women.
There are 3 toilets, all occupied, 1 is standing in the corner of the room, 1 has walls besides it but no door and the third one has a door, pfew. The walls and doors are light blue and of very thick, but soft looking wood.

I used to have many toilet-dreams with toilets without doors or really dirty toilets so I'm very happy there is at least one with a door and the place looks clean. Normally I'm ashamed to go to a toilet without doors, but now I pull my pants down before I even enter the toilet cabin. And then I'm ashamed again for walking though the area with my naked bottom How strange is that!

Explanations/Questions:
This is the 3rd time I pull my pants down in a dream in 1 week I really wonder what that means... (BU, please help me on that...)

Have to look up what the toilet stands for. I've read about it before, but I forgot.

What part of myself does my dad stand for? The 'be serious, mind your future' part? (cause that would explain him being lazy, since I'm not focussing enough on my studies)

Great dream. I tried sleeping in as well to see if I could get a decent dream, but I can't sleep in. My body rejects it.

Nice introspections on the meanings of your dream. I'm curious to see was BU has to say as well. Pulling your pants down is quite strange. Are you sure you are not some kind of closet voyeurist / exhibitionist?

Originally Posted by Sara

Explanations/Questions:
This is the 3rd time I pull my pants down in a dream in 1 week I really wonder what that means... (BU, please help me on that...)

Hey I just had this feeling of being summoned.

I've had a quick look but will look again tomorrow - have other commitments now. Back soon....

Originally Posted by Sara

Dream 1:

When we were up the hill, it was day again, we were riding bikes instead of cars. And the people changed from my horseriding-friends, to my ex-flatmates. (I live in a student-housing with 7 other people in my corridor) There were 3 of them, but I only recognised 2 by name. Following part is really groce, I'm still questioning how my mind made this up... I'm a bit ashamed for this weird part in my dream, but since others are brave enough to tell We took a break and one of the guys was going to take a pee. I was standing near, so he wet MY pants. I was standing in a corner, so I couldn't run away. I started scolding at him, but instead of peeing the otherway, the other guy forced me down so the first one was peeing all over me. I was crying, yelling at them to let me go, but they didn't
Then the third person came to them, he had a large banana in his hand. I was afraid what they would do with it, so I grabbed it out of his hand and squeezed it saying 'now it's no longer usefull'. To my relief there was a shower in the corner. I took a nice, warm shower and felt really clean afterwards, ready to continue our cycling tour (wonder why I still wanted to be with those guys) but then this dream ended. Pfew.

Dream 2:

/snip/

Then I feel a strong urge to pee. I hope I'm not going to wet myself while sleeping, but someone wrote about this earlier in a dream and didn't cause him to wet his bed, so I'm really interested how it would be to dream-pee
Floating around my room, I pull my pants down. Just when I'm floating upside down, I produce a small 'fountain' . There is no gravity, so everything stays floating in the air. Dammit, I didn't think about that! I'm floating through my own urine, it wets my Tshirt and this feels unexpectedly warm and wet (errr, just like real though). Now I'm really afraid that I'm wetting my own pants while sleeping...

Dream 3:

It's early in the afternoon, we leave the room and head for the lunch room. When we're in the lunch room, I see the signs for toilet and decide I need to go there. Not that I feel an urge to pee, just want to go in there. The lunch room is very quiet, but the bathroom is crowded with chattering women.
There are 3 toilets, all occupied, 1 is standing in the corner of the room, 1 has walls besides it but no door and the third one has a door, pfew. The walls and doors are light blue and of very thick, but soft looking wood.

I used to have many toilet-dreams with toilets without doors or really dirty toilets so I'm very happy there is at least one with a door and the place looks clean. Normally I'm ashamed to go to a toilet without doors, but now I pull my pants down before I even enter the toilet cabin. And then I'm ashamed again for walking though the area with my naked bottom How strange is that!

Explanations/Questions:
This is the 3rd time I pull my pants down in a dream in 1 week I really wonder what that means... (BU, please help me on that...)

Have to look up what the toilet stands for. I've read about it before, but I forgot.

What part of myself does my dad stand for? The 'be serious, mind your future' part? (cause that would explain him being lazy, since I'm not focussing enough on my studies)

Easy bit first - your Dad is probably your sense of authority. You will have learned your values, morals etc from your parents and it is often one or the other's voice in your head when you feel that you're doing something wrong or are contemplating it. If he's being lazy then it sounds like your morals - or at least the ones you internalised from childhood - are slipping. (Which isn't necessarily a bad thing).

Dream 1 is a brave one to put in. Well done. The banana is surely a penis and your destroying it is your way of saying you don't intend to be penetrated. This is a metaphoric meaning of penetration and refers to internalising some aspect of another that you don't want. As this was an abusive scene in your dream it sounds like the "men" can be both friendly and abusive towards you, or that's your unconscious fear anyway. I wonder what the pee signifies? Definitely a feeling of being unclean as a result of being with the men but also a feeling that you want to be with the for friendship. Sounds like your unconscious is feeding you conflicting messages either from your (probably childhood) experiences with a significant male or from two separate experiences. The abusive experience does not have to be sexual, by the way.

Dream 2: This is more like one of my dreams. It's quite different from Dream 1 although the common theme is that you got wet. I would suggest that whatever it is that was so disgusting about getting wet in Dream 1, this is you getting rid of it from your own body. Again, what does the pee represent? You want to cleanse yourself of it anyway.

Dream 3: This is like one of mine too. I had one almost the same as this not long ago. I recognised a need to expose myself and perhaps you have that need too. But you also mention shame (the word came up in Dream 1 also but in a different context). Are you holding something shameful in that you want to get out into the open? Something about you that you find embarrassing? Noted that it's all women in Dream 3 and you're ashamed of your nudity. Does that give any clues?

OK, I've left you with more questions than answers. But we are each our own expert dream interpreter and the "helper" can do no more than make suggestions. Please throw my suggestions around, play with them etc and find out what works and what doesn't. My starting point would probably be the shame, and that could relate both to the dream of sexual abuse (Dream 1) and the feeling in Dream 3. Or they could be two separate shames. As it were.

Let us know how you get on. There's so much in your dreams that can be teased out, I think. Great recall.