Thread: Sara's journey to lucidity

What more can I say?

Originally Posted by Sara

Dreams on 19 March 2008

What I night of lucids!

Originally Posted by Sara

Then I had the feeling something wasn't quite right about this situation. I plugged my nose and could breath. Instantly lucid again. I said "Moonbeam, look, this is a dream again! We can do whatever we want" and then I kissed her (don't ask why it was just a small kiss, no full blown lesbian acts, LOL).

Darn.
Heh.

Originally Posted by Sara

I wanted to fly away, but couldn't take off. So I pulled myself up via my pants and hovered just above the ground.

Lol. I love how you do that - fly around by pulling yourself up by your pants. I'd like to try that, some time, if I can ever think of it while dreaming.

Originally Posted by Sara

(lesson learned: never tell a guy he looks cute, it destroys their feeling of manliness )

That's a very important lesson, and I'm glad you learned it now. Lol.

Originally Posted by Sara

Shooting electricity from my hands

Awesome dream. Looks like you're getting pretty good at those superpowers of yours.

Originally Posted by Sara

Biggest WTF moment ever

LOL. Now THAT would have sucked. Haha. I can just imagine how you felt when he confirmed that he knew what you two were doing, the previous night. Lol. You should have kicked his as for being such a "minute-man" and having a wet dream before the two of you even got started.

Originally Posted by Sara

Thanks
But I'm still a bit bothered by doing only 'fun stuff' in my dreams, no meaningful things. Well, with more lucids, this will probably change.

But who says having fun isn't meaningful? You can learn a lot in the spirit of having fun.

Personaly for me, if it wasn't for the fun, I would never have the motivation to get Lucid at all. Everything else comes second.

Nice job on those last two Lucids, they were entertaining.

Originally Posted by raklet

What more can I say?

Ahhh, it's OK

Originally Posted by Oneironaut

Lol. I love how you do that - fly around by pulling yourself up by your pants. I'd like to try that, some time, if I can ever think of it while dreaming.

Hehe, it's not really effective, but quite funny if it works

That's a very important lesson, and I'm glad you learned it now. Lol.

Ah, so dreams do contain practical lessons, even when I just try to have fun

Awesome dream. Looks like you're getting pretty good at those superpowers of yours.

I'm trying
And your dreams are very inspirational for me!

LOL. Now THAT would have sucked. Haha. I can just imagine how you felt when he confirmed that he knew what you two were doing, the previous night. Lol. You should have kicked his as for being such a "minute-man" and having a wet dream before the two of you even got started.

You're right, I should have!
But in that dream, I was more afraid of him telling everyone what we did...

Originally Posted by Caradon

But who says having fun isn't meaningful? You can learn a lot in the spirit of having fun.

Personaly for me, if it wasn't for the fun, I would never have the motivation to get Lucid at all. Everything else comes second.

You're right, Caradon, there's nothing wrong with fun
And that IS the biggest motivation for me as well.

Nice job on those last two Lucids, they were entertaining.

Thanks

Dreams on 24 March 2008

Again no lucid (3 failed WILD attempts, I set the alarm for them, but I was too tired to focus on anything) but a bunch of very typical dreams.

Packing car for holiday
My parents are planning to go on holiday with me. As usual, I'm late with packing my stuff and forget a many things.
Then I'm in the car with my mum. She's tired and I bring her somewhere.

Horseplay in France
Yeah, finally my WHITE horse is in my dreams
We're in France in the indoor arena and are playing together. I have him run after me, but I can't run fast enough that he canters, so he keeps trotting. I reward him with cookies. The instructor walks in to see what we are doing. I want to try a special trick, but my horse is not paying too much attention. It's OK, I love him anyways and we continue with some easy games.

Half an hour on the toilet
I'm at my parents house, watching TV with my sister. I pay a visit to the toilet, but somehow 'it' does not want to come out. I sit on the toilet for what seems like half an hour. The door is open and I can hear the TV.
When I look to my left, there is an opening under the wall. IRL I'd expect my sisters room to be on the other side, but now there is a kind of 'secret room'. We've never noticed this cause it used to be dark, but now there's light in this room. It feels strange, to discover something in a house I've lived in for 18 years and never noticed...
I go back to my sister in the TV-room, but again I feel that I need to pee.

I wake up with the urgent need of going to the bathroom IRL

Secretly turning him on
I'm in a kind of reception hall, that is also like a shopping mall. There's not many people around. I stand next to a cough, my boyfriend is sitting in front of me. I slowly run my hand over his leg, teasing him with soft pressure of my fingertips. He whispers 'don't do that, that turns me on!'. We're in a public environment with some friends/family around us. I don't intend to quit, but keep touching him. I can feel his arousal in my own body and enjoy it. Then he gets up. I see my sister hugging her boyfriend. Well, now I've got permission to hug mine I put my hands under his shirt and enjoy the warm feeling, but he doesn't want to hug me back. Well, I didn't really care about that


Killing the guy and then have sex with him
In a room, there is an 'evil' guy who needs to be killed. He doesn't know what I intend to do. He looks a bit like sylar, but also like my nasty ex (both good reasons for killing, by the way). I approach him and act nice to him, then suddenly stab him with a wooden stake (no, he was no vampire). He reacts surprised and asks me why I did that. I come up with a stupid excuses, then stab him right through the heart. Only a little blood flows out.

He asks me if we can have sex. I know he's bleeding to death now, so I agree. It can never last that long and it's the least I can offer him. I was already sitting on the bed at this point, so I drop backwards on the bed. Within seconds (and without even undressing) he enters me and I'm surprised by how good this feels. I also think how strange it is that he can have an erection with blood flowing out of his heart. His blood pressure can never be high enough

Well, it only lasts a minute or so and when it starts feeling really good, I feel he's loosing consciousness.

*scene shift*
I got up and the guy has disappeared. Something tells me he didn't die at all. Maybe he had some superpower to heal himself, but then why didn't we finish the sex...

Ieeehhh, wasps!
I'm walking in an industrial zone, where part is still a building site. I climb over some fences and know this is the shortest way home. I'm pretty agile, so the climbing is easy. When I'm at the last fence, 5 wasps circle around me. I know it's 5, even though I only see 4 (numbers numbers...) I try to swoosh them away, by waving with a blue cap I just had on my head. They keep creeping up on me, landing on my arm. And I know they will sting me if I let them sit for too long. It feels really annoying and they won't go away.

I get to the house (my grandma's house) and close the door. Only 1 wasp has followed me inside. I look for a device to kill flies and know there should be one around. But I only see these wide, flat spoons used for cooking. Well, maybe that works too...

Some interpretation or notes of often occurring dream-events

Well, that last dream was probably induced by Cusp... I've had dreams about insects more often. Usually when there is some smaller or bigger real life tasks bothering me. Tasks I don't like to finish (like writing a report, calling the tax office for something, just annoying tasks).

My grandma's house is featured a lot in my dreams, as is my parents house. This is the second time my parents house has a secret room. I wonder what that means. Does it refer to discovering something about my parents? Yesterday I realised how well my mum and dad go together and that I was thankful they never had an argument in front of us (when we were kids).

Playing with my white horse was mostly PDP, plus some dreaming about this summer, when I'll be back in France.

Packing for holiday and forgetting stuff is also the second time this week. Hmm, maybe some PDP: I forgot my keys yesterday when I got back from the stable. That meant an extra HOUR on my motoped just to retrieve them (grrrr). But it happens TOO often lately. I'm wondering what it means...

Originally Posted by Sara

Packing car for holiday

he he I can just imagine that! such a panicking feeling lol

Originally Posted by Sara

Half an hour on the toilet

ha ha thats a funny one! interesting with the secret room wounder what it means, maybe it does have something to do with discovering something about your parents

Originally Posted by Sara

Secretly turning him on

Killing the guy and then have sex with him

ha ha so much for stopping the sex dreams eh

lol at the killing the guy one thats a funny one he he

Originally Posted by Sara

Originally Posted by Sara

Ieeehhh, wasps!

I dont like that!

I would have been freaking the hell out! I envy your bravery when it comes to wasps lol

Originally Posted by Sara

Half an hour on the toilet

I hate those "I gotta pee" dreams! I don't know about you but I'm always so afraid I'm going to pee the bed ones of these days, lol. Hasn't happened though, thank god!

Originally Posted by Sara

Killing the guy and then have sex with him

This gives a new meaning to having sex with your ex one last time... hehe

Originally Posted by Sara

Horseplay in France

Originally Posted by Sara

Half an hour on the toilet

Originally Posted by Sara

Secretly turning him on

Originally Posted by Sara

Killing the guy and then have sex with him

...

Originally Posted by Sara

Ieeehhh, wasps!

AHAA! So The Cusp's wasps have invaded your dreams as well! He must be stopped! lol.

Originally Posted by Sara

Killing the guy and then have sex with him
In a room, there is an 'evil' guy who needs to be killed. He doesn't know what I intend to do. He looks a bit like sylar, but also like my nasty ex [COLOR=Green](both good reasons for killing, by the way).[COLOR=Black] I approach him and act nice to him, then suddenly stab him with a wooden stake (no, he was no vampire). He reacts surprised and asks me why I did that. I come up with a stupid excuses, then stab him right through the heart. Only a little blood flows out.

He asks me if we can have sex. I know he's bleeding to death now, so I agree.

I like the way that man thinks. Heh. If you gotta go...go with a smile!

Originally Posted by Sara

*scene shift*
I got up and the guy has disappeared. Something tells me he didn't die at all.

Hehe. Owned.

Thanks for keeping my DJ alive, guys.

Haven't been much on DV the past days. Too busy with all kinds of stuff plus I was terribly tired.

Originally Posted by mark

ha ha thats a funny one! interesting with the secret room wounder what it means, maybe it does have something to do with discovering something about your parents

Yeah, that could be it

ha ha so much for stopping the sex dreams eh

yeah, I'm sorry, I can't resist them

lol at the killing the guy one thats a funny one he he

Hehe, it was so weird. I'm normally not that aggressive in dreams, but since visiting DV, I've killed more DCs than ever before

I dont like that!

I would have been freaking the hell out! I envy your bravery when it comes to wasps lol

Well, I was pretty afraid of them...
I'm really going to do RCs on small insects, I don't want these scary wasps again!

Originally Posted by Burns

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I hate those "I gotta pee" dreams! I don't know about you but I'm always so afraid I'm going to pee the bed ones of these days, lol. Hasn't happened though, thank god!

Hehe, I'm pretty certain these 2 are unrelated.
I peed in a lucid 3 times, last time consciously deciding that it was OK and turned out fine every time :-)

This gives a new meaning to having sex with your ex one last time... hehe

Hahaha, indeed. Very definite LAST time (I thought)

Originally Posted by Pancaka

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Originally Posted by Oneironaut

I like the way that man thinks. Heh. If you gotta go...go with a smile!

LOL, must be my narrow minded view on the mind of a man (or just plain reality )

Hehe. Owned.

indeed!

Dreams in the past days

OK, not much time (again) but some short notes before the dreams totally fade.


Discussion on lucidity in airplane

I was flying in a big airplane to the USA (I guess it was from Canada, which was on another continent). When we landed, I could see the plane flying almost into a large building. I enjoyed the feeling of descending and was not afraid we were going to crash. The plane landed under a big building (this is the second or third time I had a dream like this, of a plane landing in/near/under a building)

After this, I was discussing with someone that next time I should post a paper on the corridor of the plane that said 'get lucid', cause it would be so cool to be lucid on the plane when it was landing.

I see dead animals
At my parents house, my mum told me our cat was dead (she is, IRL, passed away 2 days ago ) I saw the cat walking around, looking a bit skinny and with a very human-like expression on her face. I saw bright golden light at her right hind leg and asked my mum 'did she have an injury on her right hind leg?' My mum agreed and asked me how I knew. Well, I can see her walking around just now. She didn't see the cat and thought I was talking nonsense.

Then I saw the cat getting a stroke, being paralised on the hind legs and she laid on the floor, fighting for her life. I knew that now I saw how she died and felt peaceful about this situation.

Friend making fun at watersports
My friend S had not only a meadow in her back yard, but also a large lake. I see 'video shots' of the past (dangerous) activities she played. Like being pulled by a motorboat on a tube. Most of the activities ended in her sliding over the field, against a fence pole, but without resulting injuries.

Sister is creative
My sis has a table on the market where she sells square buttons she made. There's one of her goat, that has a real olive on the button. She has a whole explanation about the olive and it consists of a series of buttons that fit together. There are zoomed-in pictures of grapes on the other buttons (lol, yesterday i removed some old pics from my laptop, 1 of them was a close up from a grape)

Business inspiration!!
In a hallway at my university, I see large close up pictures of the horse equipment I sell. I look at them and see this is equipment from another company, not from me. I get angry/jealous and then sad: why does MY university sell someone else's stuff???


The image of the close-up of the material was a very nice inspiration for me. I think I'm going to use this in my folders and on my website. It's a unique way of presenting the materials. Thank you, creative dream-mind

I think these dreams are quite common nowadays since I feel I'm not working up to my potential. There's so much more I want to achieve for my little business and am restricted because of various reasons. Plus, I get jealous quite easily when I see other horse equipment shops )

I am sorry about your cat sara I understand that things like this can be difficult.

On a positive note you had some cool dreams there. I laughed at the get lucid part on the plane its so frustrating when we wake from something like that.

lol its very honest that you say you get jealous about other horse stores which is a great thing Maybe it will inspire you to make the changes you want to make

Originally Posted by mark

I am sorry about your cat sara I understand that things like this can be difficult.

Ahhh, thanks mark.
To be honest, this wasn't my favo cat and I haven't seen her often in the past 5 years. But I think it's hard for my mum and dad, who've loved her for like 15 years.

On a positive note you had some cool dreams there. I laughed at the get lucid part on the plane its so frustrating when we wake from something like that.

Yeah, nothing more frustrating than the sooo obvious chance of a lucid.

lol its very honest that you say you get jealous about other horse stores which is a great thing Maybe it will inspire you to make the changes you want to make

Thanks Mark, I like what you say. it keeps me 'sharp' and also shows that I'm really passionate about my store. So yes, there could be a positive side on jealousy.

Dreams on 28 March 2008

Weird night!

Dive into the toilet (yuck!)
I'm in my corridor and sit on the toilet (a looong time). Strange, I have the door open and talk with my flatmates who are in the kitchen. First they are blaming me for not buying anything for the kitchen, then they show me a new kitchen machine. A very fancy machine, that can chop vegetables. They put in a broccoli, which they hold bare handed very close to the rotating knives. I can smell the broccoli when it's chopped to small pieces(also funny, not the best smell you can have in a dream)
I get up from the toilet, that is now the size of a bath tub. I see I dropped my pen and usb-stick in it My flatmate comes over and also drops 4 marbles into it. He wants to scoop them out using a newspaper, but this doesn't work. Since it is such a huge amount of water and only 1 piece of crap floating around, I take my luck an reach in with my arm. It is very deep! I manage to grasp the marbles, but not my own pen. They float near the exit and I'm pulled in with the current!

The water flows so fast, I can't hold on and am now in the sewer. I can't crawl back the way I came, so I decide to go with the flow, under the ground. There's only a shallow layer of water, but it takes me down. We pass several intersections, where I try to go up to the light. Finally, some woman is underground as well and she helps me out.

(damn, that was like that scene in Trainspotting Haven't seen that for a few years! LOL, I wonder if Irvine Welsh had a dream like that, when creating this part )

In Mark's house
I'm at Mark's house, sitting on his bed, but he's not at home. He wrote me a letter, in which he tells some random things. About that it's raining so much in England and that he had some allergic reaction and his face was covered with zits. I'm writing a letter back to him, saying that we also have a 'raining season' in Holland, that's what we call 'spring'. And then I think that's not very true, it CAN be good weather and we have rain in other seasons as well.

Then I say I also had some zits, so he shouldn't worry about that.
I'm looking through a small closet that is above his bed. It's filled with facial cleaning pads, lotion, shampoo and other stuff. Very accurate details, I read some of the packages (which are in English) and notice we have similar brands in Holland. I write to Mark that I hope he forgives me my impoliteness of looking through his stuff without permission.

Betraying my sister?
There is a HUGE ship in the river. It consists of 3 or 4 pieces and looks like a theme park attraction. Inside, it's quite empty, like they are still building on it. I remember a little while back there was a different ship, a man inside tells me they spent only 3 months building this one and there's going to be several attractions inside, including a roller coaster. I get into 1 attraction, which is more like a show about some fairy tale. Not really interesting.

A young girl walks around (she's as tall as I am, but only 5 or 6 years old), she wants something to eat, but the man doesn't allow her to eat snacks or cookies. I think 'that is easy: with a child you can just say 'don't eat this' and then they won't get fat or anything'. (I'm trying to eat healthier these days, so it must be some PDP)

Later, I'm in a different section of the theme park ship. Now I do see the roller coaster (called the gladiator?) but I don't get in. I'm writing in a book. Then my sister arrives and I put the book into my backpack. She isn't allowed to see the book. I want to sneak out and drop it in a mail box, so I can retrieve it later, but she's following me. I show her around the neighborhood, which is like Rotterdam. It looks familiar, like we've played there as kids.

I manage to sneak away, into the house of some guy. He's very nice to me and I fall in love with him. He looks like my ex (the nice one ) but with longer hair and different eyes. He speaks with a soft voice, telling me I shouldn't date my sister. He touches me, which gives me a slight shiver. We're standing close, I feel so in love, it makes me weak I take his hand and 'drag' him to another room, where I slowly kiss him. Damn good dream-kisses! I agree that I shouldn't have a relation with my sister and should be with him instead. But then he starts pushing me towards the door. For one last time, I pull him close to me and kiss him. I say to him 'you make me melt' and then I wake up.


Bwah, this is one of those strange 'love' dreams I haven't had in a long time. It's always with my 'nice' ex and I don't really know why. Yesterday I made a decision to move in with Tobby this summer and I'm so happy with him. Why these dreams??

An explanation could be that this 'nice' ex is the only one I broke up with while being in that first 'just in love' stage. And whenever my brain thinks of 'just in love' it comes up with his image? But damn, dream-kisses forever! (he kissed like Tobby when he's drunk; sweet, soft and slow hahaha)

I'm sorry your cat died, but I'm glad you were not too close to her, so I'm sorry for your parents.

That's cool that you got some inspiration for your business from the dream!

I wouldn't worry about the falling in love dreams. I do that all of the time; I don't think it reflects on my real life relationship at all. Who knows what it means anyway, it might mean something totally different than what it seems to mean. We just don't know enough about dreams to really know what is going on--maybe it represents something completely different than it seems to. So I say: don't worry, be happy!

Good to see you're back, Moonbeam!

And thanks, I won't worry, but be happy. I actually like this kind of dreams, dream-kisses and dream-love... it's not that I still feel in love with this person when I woke up, so I guess it's not the same chemicals involved. Dreams are weird, but can be very enjoyable.

Originally Posted by Sara

Then I saw the cat getting a stroke, being paralised on the hind legs and she laid on the floor, fighting for her life.

Wow, that's eerily similar to the phone call I got from my best friend, about 3 days ago, telling me that the same thing had happened to his cat that he'd had for like the past 8 years or so. They were able to get him to an emergency vet at like 5 in the morning, and he made it, but the doctor says he'll never be the same again. I can't remember exactly what the illness was, but I'm pretty sure it was a stroke.

Originally Posted by Sara

Dive into the toilet (yuck!)

lol what a great dream!!

It must have been so nasty when you got sucked down the toilet ha ha

Originally Posted by Sara

In Mark's house

woohooo you dreamed of my room lol at the zits thing he he but I like the other details and yeah I do have some similar stuff in my room ha ha

Originally Posted by Sara

Betraying my sister?

ahh sweet dream! I love that feeling in dreams there is nothing quite like it and I bet that kiss was great

GAH!! So...much...writing! I'm too lazy I gotta read later

Originally Posted by Oneironaut

Hehe. Owned.

That's hilarious. I didn't see that before .

Originally Posted by Sara

Thanks for keeping my DJ alive, guys.

Meh. Mines kinda just chillin n shit for the moment. People pop in and go "...ah yeah...nice...meh" and then go read O's journal .

Originally Posted by Sara

Since it is such a huge amount of water and only 1 piece of crap floating around, I take my luck an reach in with my arm.

I've had to do this IRL to many times to count. Kids are always throwing things in the toilet. It is gross enough sticking my hand in. I can't imagine being sucked down!

Originally Posted by Pancaka

Meh. Mines kinda just chillin n shit for the moment. People pop in and go "...ah yeah...nice...meh" and then go read O's journal .

Pssh. Nah. I hardly get any traffic going through my journal any more, like I used to.

Originally Posted by Pancaka

Meh. Mines kinda just chillin n shit for the moment. People pop in and go "...ah yeah...nice...meh" and then go read O's journal .

Originally Posted by Oneironaut

Pssh. Nah. I hardly get any traffic going through my journal any more, like I used to.

I think the traffic in all the journals has died down gradually since december. You both have my apologies. Normally I would have been visiting your journals every day but I have been really busy these past 2 days

Well, it's also that there are much more journals nowadays!
I try to read my favorite ones every day, but this last week was busy and I didn't have much time online.

Oh, and I had a great lucid last night, will post tonight, plus catch up with the DJs again

I have 17 subs (including my own)

Caradon
i_speel_good
mark
NeAvO
Moonbeam
raklet
Sara
Oneironaut
The Cusp
Clairity
Twoshadows
FrostyMan
maniakalBycikle
Xox
Abra
Mes Tarrant

Plenty of them aren't posted on as frequently, but I still get a lot to read. What about you guys. How many threads do you have subbed?