Thread: Raven Knight's Dream Travels

Note: I fell asleep with several plans for the night. I used my light / sound machine, and for the first time in about a week, maybe a bit more, I successfully slipped into a WILD! Yay! I missed my WILDs!

My first goal was to heal a woman who has had some psychological issues. For the purposes of privacy I will refer to this woman only as Sandra. I found myself in the biodome, near the koi pond. That is where I usually appear when doing a WILD, or at least a lot of the time I do. My first goal was to find Sandra. I focused on that and opened a portal. I went through the portal…

On the other side of the portal I was in a forest of some kind. I looked around. It was a strange place. It was a beautiful place, but there was also something off about it. Seemed like a strange air of creepiness around. It was quiet and peaceful… almost too quiet. I began looking around for Sandra. I found her in a field with a lot of flowers. There were many colors in the flowers, it was quite beautiful. Somehow the flowers looked fake… I bent over to smell one. It wasn't real. It was made of paper. All of the flowers were made of colorful tissue paper. I thought that was very strange. I decided not to focus on the flowers. I headed over to Sandra. She was wearing a flowing white dress, she had dark hair that was somewhat curly and was blowing in the wind. It looked to be about shoulder length, but I couldn't be sure. She was staring off into space. I thought I should appear familiar to her… and I am familiar with her son, so I took his form and approached Sandra. She hadn't really responded to me, but I used the following song spell on her.

Hold on to me love, you know i can't stay long, all I wanted to say was, "I love you and I'm not afraid"
Can you hear me? Can you feel me in your arms?
Holding my last breath, safe inside myself, are all my thoughts of you…
sweet rapture of light it ends here tonight.

Amidst the winter, a world of precious things, look for me in the white forest hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
I know you hear me, I can taste it in your tears...
Holding my last breath, safe inside myself, are all my thoughts of you…
sweet rapture of light it ends here tonight.

Closing your eyes to disappear, You pray your dreams won't leave you here;
But still you wake and know the truth, no one is there...

Say goodnight, don't be afraid, call me, please call me we can face the night.

(Say goodnight) Holding my last breath (Don't be afraid) Safe inside myself
(Call me, please call me) Are all my thoughts of you… Sweet rapture of light, it ends here tonight.

I repeated the spell three times. Somehow that number seemed right. It felt right. I focused all the energy I could into making it work, I really wanted it to work. It just had to work. There could be no doubt, it would work this time. I felt rather tired after the last playing of the song. I sat down amongst the flowers to rest. Sandra asked who I was. I felt really upset until I realized I had let my form slip back to my normal form. So now Sandra was looking at a female Assassin in the flower field with her… which must have seemed odd. The only answer I gave Sandra was that I was a friend, and I wished her only to be well. I lied back in the paper flowers to rest for a minute and I momentarily woke… but I slipped right back into a dream… continued in the next post, since it is the start of a new dream.

I rolled over from my previous dream and somehow slipped back into the dream without losing any of my lucidity. What I noticed first was that I was no longer in the field of flowers with the woman. I was in MoSh's inner world. And that was a good thing. My second goal had been to meet up with MoSh. MoSh had a goal… to meet and talk to someone. I was having a little problem remembering the goals… yeah. MoSh wanted a dream where he could talk to don Juan Matus. I went over to MoSh. I commented to him that if he wanted to speak with don Juan, he would have to get us there. MoSh said that was fine. I opened a portal, focusing on letting MoSh guide it. A portal opened and we went through it…

On the other side we were in a desert. It looked like somewhere in Arizona. I looked around. The surrounding area was not very clear. It seemed to fade a short distance away. I walked towards that place where the surrounds seemed to start fading. As I approached it I started feeling disoriented. I turned around and returned to MoSh. MoSh was looking in the opposite direction. I looked where he was looking. I saw a man over there. It looked like an Native American, maybe a shaman. MoSh headed over towards the man. The man was sitting near a campfire. I wondered why we were here. Was that don Juan? I asked MoSh if that was don Juan. He said it was. He went over to the man and sat down by the fire. I followed MoSh over closer to the fire, but I felt distinctly unwelcome. Ok… maybe I wasn't supposed to be there… but I wondered if MoSh would remember what was said if I didn't recall it. I stayed as far back as I could and still be able to hear what was said…

Note: I don't remember the exact words of what was said between don Juan and MoSh. I had to into a dream, then use a computer in the dream to log onto Dreamviews and read about the dream with don Juan… (thanks for the idea, Walms) and even then all I got were general ideas, which I will summarize here:

To put it plainly, MoSh is somewhere in the process of cracking up… literally. It looks like there is a very good chance that MoSh could become a nagual. Going from what I heard, each individual exists inside an energy 'cocoon' around them. Then, inside that round cocoon, there are three energy fields around each person, shaped like a merkabah. One for the physical body (stationary), one for the emotional energy (spins clockwise), one for mental energy (spins counter-clockwise). Cracks happen when there is a stressor that causes the emotional and mental energy fields to spin at different rates, or even in opposite directions, and they form a crack in the person's energy 'cocoon' that goes part way through, not all the way. If it was to go all the way through it would cause death.

Three and four pronged naguals… when the cocoon forms three distinct cracks, it is a three pronged nagual. When two cracks form and they cross each other, then it is a four pronged nagual. It looks like MoSh would most likely be the latter… which means he has a female counterpart. The four pronged naguals are usually in pairs, one male and one female. The female will receive feelings and visions from the other planes, then passes it on to the male to interpret. Sometimes the entire message will not come across the first time or there will be questions… the male will tell the female the questions, she will send the questions and receive the answers, then give the answers to the male to interpret. They need each other, and can only find the knowledge they seek by working together. The three pronged nagual receives and interprets the data alone, and can be a man or a woman.

MoSh will know when his cocoon may crack, because it is preceded by a period of intense instability, emotional instability, energy instability… and the new nagual's instability should pass as their energy fields find a new balance point within the cracked cocoon. For the male, this instability usually comes in the form of emotional turmoil that is strong enough to make the emotional energy field spin differently, and the force involved cracks the cocoon. For the female, it usually comes in the form of a mental instability that is usually an obsession of some kind that changes the spin of the mental energy field and causes a crack. Usually the three pronged nagual will experience both, although this is not carved in stone. One thing that is absolute is that there are no absolutes. The part that is almost certain, however, is that the person will go through a period of intense instability which is the cause of the cracks in the cocoon.

Asuka: What role does Asuka play in this? It is not possible to know the future for sure, and to know for sure would risk changing it unintentionally. But it is possible that Asuka could be MoSh's partner, the female four pronged nagual to match him as the male part of the pair. Since it looks like MoSh is most likely to become a four pronged nagual, it would be a good idea for him to pay attention to women he associates with that also seem to be going through a similar instability, because that is a good sign that the woman is going through becoming a nagual herself. Could his match be Asuka? That is possible. It isn't as likely since she exists only on a separate plane, but it is entirely possible. MoSh should watch her for signs of mental or emotional instability that might be strong enough to crack her cocoon. The female match for the male isn't always the most obvious choice, though… so look around for signs of a woman possibly going through enough turmoil and instability to create the cracks in the energy cocoon.

This is all the information I was able to recall, so I will end the dream here. I think it was somewhere while MoSh was still talking to don Juan that I woke up.

I was in my car driving down town. I was on the freeway. I was in a place that was very familiar to me, it is a place I have dreamed in many times before. It does not look like the city I live in IWL, but I think it is a city that exists inside my inner world. Regardless, I didn't realize I was dreaming and I was heading to work. I had a new job to go to, and this was my first day. It was evening and it was getting dark out, it was twilight. My shift was at night again. I got off the freeway. By the time I got off the freeway it was completely dark. Now I just had to find the place…

I looked around as I drove down one of the streets. How could I be getting lost? I worked in this place before, after all. It was the same hospital where I used to work. I pulled over to the side and got out of the car, looking up into the sky. I was looking at the surrounding buildings, trying to get my bearings. There were people around me staring at me like I was nuts. I didn't pay them any attention. I could feel their eyes on me. It almost seemed like a draining sensation. I wondered why it seemed so odd to them. Hadn't they ever been lost? I wanted to ask them that, but I didn't want to let them know I had noticed them staring at me.

I looked at one of the taller buildings near me… and I did recognize it. I knew exactly where I needed to know. Ok, so now there wouldn't be anyone staring at me because I knew where I needed to go. I turned back towards my car. There was no one there. I could have sworn that I was being stared at… I got in my car and continued driving to work. It was completely dark out now. I was hoping I wouldn't be late for my first day. I found the parking garage and pulled inside, parking on the third floor of the parking garage. I went into the hospital. Now I was not sure what floor I needed to go to for the computer room. I went to the elevator and selected the fourth floor. I was sure it was either the third or fourth floor. The doors opened onto the fourth floor.

I got out on the fourth floor and looked around. I was on the wrong floor. Crap. I walked by a room where the last remnants of a bake sale was going on. There weren't any people there, just a few remaining treats. There were some cupcakes. Chocolate ones with white frosting. Yum! I went in and took one. I didn't think anyone would notice it missing. I left quickly and returned to the elevator. This time it took me to the third floor…

When I got out on the third floor I was convinced that I was yet again on the wrong floor… but how could I be? It had to be the third or fourth… I looked a bit closer and saw that it was the right place, they had just added new areas onto it. There was a nurse's station and a single nurse sitting there drinking a soda. There was a cooler with ice and a bunch more Cokes. I was looking to see what was in there and the nurse told me to take one if I wanted. She said it was for the nursing team, but she was the only one on duty and there was no way she would drink them all before they spoiled. The idea of Cokes spoiling sounded weird to me, but I took one and thanked her.

I went to where the computer room was. I was sure they had changed the access code, but they had been nice enough to leave the door cracked open so I could get in. I went inside the computer room. It looked pretty much the same as it had when I worked there before. There was one man there. He looked like an Arab, he had a curly black beard and black hair, he had a friendly smile. He introduced himself (I don't remember his name) and said it was nice to meet me. He said since I had worked there before, I already knew what to do. I tried to tell him it had been years, and I didn't remember what I needed to do. But he wasn't listening. He said he was off, and turned to leave. I nervously nibbled on my cupcake. It was yummy, but I wasn't really enjoying it. The man said I would know what to do and he left the room. I didn't even have the code for the office door… and I didn't have the code for the computer room door! What was I supposed to do? I was still trying to figure that out when everything faded and I woke.

During this dream there was nothing remarkable happening. I woke up in bed and did an RC to become lucid, then I opened a portal to go see MoSh. I knew MoSh and I had plans to go heal S and L, as they still seemed to have problems with dark or negative energy. MoSh told me yesterday that Walms had encountered one (or both?) of them last night and he had absorbed a considerable portion of dark energy from them, so they should be more cooperative with the healing tonight. The one sure thing I remembered was that Walms had been absorbing dark energy from S when she had actually puked up a demon of some kind that had been putting dark energy into her. Walms took care of the demon as he had been absorbing dark energy from her.

So after I picked up MoSh I opened a portal to find S. Both of us went through into her inner world, which was once again that area around the church. It didn't look as dark or creepy as I remembered it. There was a priest in the church, and I remember briefly wondering if he was her guardian… but I never asked. I thought he might be, and the demon had just been too powerful for him? But that would make him kind of pathetic as a guardian… But then Hetfield has said some of the guardians in this plane are pretty pathetic since there are not usually many attacks here.

I used the song Touch My Heart directly on S, and MoSh was playing his guitar. The two songs harmonized perfectly, forming a new song that sounded great. I was wishing I could duplicate the song IWL. I thought maybe I could… if I could just remember MoSh's part, and reproduce it on my keyboard… and play it along with Touch My Heart I might be able to get the new song… After doing that I used Full Moonlight to clean up the inner world some more. MoSh was playing a different song. That would be another one to try to remember… The place looked a lot nicer after the second song was done.

The next stop was in L's inner world. L was there, and it was a somewhat dark forest that was my perception of his inner world. He looked over at MoSh and me and smiled, although the smile looked rather fake. He came over towards us. He seemed focused on me. He seemed to be ignoring MoSh entirely. He started talking to me about naguals… He said it seemed I was upset that I didn't have potential to be a nagual. I said not really. He said anyone can do it. I wasn't there to hear his view on being a nagual, so I just ignored him and focused on the song Touch My Heart. MoSh played the same song along with that. Golden energy flowed through L. I followed it up with Full Moonlight to clear out the inner world, and MoSh played the same song along with it. That would give me a better chance to remember the song MoSh played along with mine. I focused, hoping I would remember it. After the song was done, the area of the forest looked a lot better. There were animals in it now. I saw a wolf moving swiftly through the forest. That seemed like a plus. I was thinking it looked pretty effective as everything faded and I woke.

Note: I didn't remember the exact sound of MoSh's part of the songs Touch My Heart and Full Moonlight when I woke. I am hoping that when I have time to sit down with my keyboard, however, the song might be in my subconscious and it might come back as I start to play. That and I might hear it again and have another chance to remember.

Note: I fell asleep tonight with a couple of goals. One goal is I said I would do a healing on a pain Walms had that was interfering with his sleep, the other thing was that Nomad texted me this afternoon and said the city on the moon was under attack by some kind of demons. I fell asleep with these things in mind, but I was not successful in initiating my usual WILD… which definitely hasn't been all that usual lately…

I don't really remember much about the healing I said I would do for Walms, just a vague memory of giving someone a foot massage and including healing energy. I also remember thinking the healing energy would have to adapt so it didn't interfere with the dark energy present, but I wasn't worried about that… it always adapts properly to the energy of the person being healed. (Note: I found out the next day from Walms that the healing did not work. D'Oh!)

I was in a city. I looked around and I didn't recognize the place. It was a very nice place. There was a long street with plants and flowers growing on the sides of the road. I was walking along the street, on the sidewalk. I was looking for something. I had a sword with me, a katana. There was a strange green blood on the sword. I saw movement inside the shadows, a pair of glowing eyes. That was one of what I was after. I took my sword and stabbed it directly between the two glowing eyes. There was an inhuman screech, and the eyes were gone. The light in them flickered out. I pulled my sword out and found it was dripping with the disgusting green blood that looked more like sap or pus than blood.

I continued walking down the street. I headed down a side path that had lots of plants growing around it. I thought there were probably quite a few places for the little monsters to hide down there… and they were surely waiting to jump out and attack without warning. I already had a clear image in my mind of several of the things jumping out of an alley onto a person and tearing him apart in mere seconds, barely allowing time for one horrible scream before the man died.

The scene looked so peaceful, I didn't see how there could be any of those things there. It seemed like nothing was wrong with the world. I was constantly vigilant for any sign of movement. I saw something moving in the plants. I looked carefully in immediately relaxed, lowering my sword. It was a cat!

There was an adorable little kitty hidden in the plants, no doubt trying to stay away from the creatures. I reached in and petted the cat, hoping none of the creatures went in and found the little cutie. I continued heading down the path, peering into all of the nooks and crannies to see if I could find any trace of the creatures. I still hadn't gotten a good look at them, but I had the feeling they were just about all teeth.

I saw movement in another cluster of bushes. I approached it and peered carefully inside. What I saw in there this time was no cat. The closest thing I can come up with to describe it is off of an old movie called Critters, one of the creatures they called krites.

Small creatures with glowing red eyes and large mouths filled with more teeth than should be possible. The creature hidden in the plants immediately jumped out and attacked me, aiming to remove a large chunk of my arm. I used the sword and cut it cleanly in half instead… although I couldn't really say cleanly… green pus blood splattered everywhere. That first attack, however, was the signal for more attacks. There were two more coming from behind. I intercepted those, then I realized there was a krite gnawing on my leg. I just stood there and stared at it. It wasn't getting anywhere! It was gnawing enthusiastically, but all I felt was a scratching sensation. Now that seemed really strange… shouldn't I feel more if I was being gnawed on? Especially by something with so many sharp teeth? I shook the thing off of my leg, and it flew into the wall. It immediately charged again, latching onto my arm. A bunch more of them were crowding around me. Even though their attacks weren't very effective, this was still very annoying. I shook them off and cut them in half.

I saw the cat I had seen earlier running up the path being chased by a krite. I cut that krite down as it was chasing the kitty. No weird creatures were going to be killing cats in my dream! (Note: even though I thought that to myself, the idea that I was dreaming never entered my mind! D'Oh! ) The cat jumped up on a couple of stone structures and disappeared onto the roofs of the buildings. I continued hunting down and eliminating the little pests until everything faded and I woke.

That was an intense dream! Good job saving the cats!!

(Set to the tune of Holding Out for a Hero) I need a WILD! I'm holding out for a WILD until the end of the night! It's gotta be now, and it's gotta be lucid, and I want it more vivid that life! *sigh* Another night with no WILD. But at least it seems my subconscious knows what I had planned to do…

I was in the biodome. I didn't realize where I was at the time. I looked around to see where I was. I was confused. How had I gotten here? It was beautiful. Trees, a pond with fish in it. I saw movement in the plants. I looked closer and saw a cute fox! I was surprised I was able to get that close to him. I sat down where I was and watched the fox. I was wishing I had a camera. But if I left to get it, and I wasn't sure where to go since I wasn't sure where I was, the fox would surely leave. I would just enjoy watching the fox. I was talking to the fox, although I knew I would look silly to anyone who happened to see me and I wouldn't get a response.

I told the fox he was cute. Making small talk with the fox, I commented that it would be wonderful if I could stroke his fur… he looked so soft. Right, like that was going to happen. But to my surprise, the fox seemed to respond to me. He came trotting right over to me, laid down in my lap, and looked at me expectantly as if to say, "Well, what are you waiting for?" I began stroking the fox. His fur was every bit as soft as it looked, softer even. I stroked the fox, and the fox just lied there with his eyes closed and what looked like a contented smile on his face. Such a friendly fox! I would have to remember how to get here when I found my way home.

I told the fox I had to find out where I was and get home. The fox gave me a puzzled look. I told him I would have to remember how to get here so I could visit him again. I set the fox down and walked a bit along a path. I realized I was hungry. (I fell asleep hungry.) I wondered if any of the trees were fruit trees. I wandered around a little and looked at the trees and plants for some kind of berries or other fruits. I found a plant with food on it, alright, but not fruit… and not vegetables… It was sprouting loaves of bread. For some reason that only briefly seemed odd to me. I looked it over and picked a warm loaf of French bread and started eating it. It was very good. I ate some more of it.

I spotted there was someone there with me. A guy with dark hair, and I would have sworn I saw vampire teeth… He was giving me a dirty look. He said I had stolen his bread. I apologized and handed the bread to him. He took it and looked at it strangely. He said yuck, he wasn't going to eat it now that I had already eaten off of it. He threw it on the ground. I told him to suit himself. I picked the bread up, dusted a bit of dirt off of it, and continued eating. The guy said that was disgusting. What if there were bugs on it? I said there were no bugs, just a bit of dirt. And my friend's mom always says you are going to eat a peck of dirt sometime in your life, so you might… I looked back at the bread and saw three cockroaches on it. I dropped the bread in surprise. They hadn't been there before! The guy went to step on them, but I stopped him. I said there was no need to kill them… I pushed them towards a large rock and they scampered underneath it. I looked at the bread one more time, but I wasn't hungry any more. Not after those roaches had appeared out of nowhere…

A glowing portal opened and a man stepped through. He looked familiar… Nomad? Coming through a portal? How was that possible unless I was currently… I did an RC, and sure enough, I was dreaming! Nomad said hello to me and Loaf. I looked at the guy with me. Loaf? Yeah, he did look familiar… I just hadn't noticed before, I hadn't really paid that much attention. Nomad asked where everyone else was. Who else? I thought for a minute and I finally remembered we were going to do a healing here. I saw the fox I had been petting had followed me. Another portal opened, MoSh came through with Asuka. Asuka didn't look pleased. She saw Nomad and went over to him. She grabbed him and tried to kiss him. He pushed her away and told her she had the wrong guy. She looked over at Loaf, who disappeared. She looked at Pablo… the fox had turned into Pablo… and went over to kiss him. He said no, she's not his type. She said she didn't care about type. She looked at me and tried to plant one on my lips. Her eyes looked dark and empty. I held her away and said if I was going to kiss a girl, I didn't want it to be like that! If she is so set on kissing, go kiss MoSh! She said yuck, she'd sooner kiss that cockroach. She pointed at one of the cockroaches that had been on my bread.

I told Asuka she clearly needed healing, so just sit down somewhere. We needed to form a circle. She sat down in the grass, MoSh sat next to her. She immediately moved to the opposite side of the circle. I rolled my eyes and sat down next to MoSh, giving him a hug which I hoped was comforting. I whispered to him that she would be ok. He said he didn't care. He put his arm around me and pulled me really close. He planted a kiss on my left cheek, a big one. He held me close and yelled over at Asuka that she isn't the only one who can grab a random airhead. I pushed MoSh away and gave him a dirty look which I think was more comical than anything and said a mock offended, "Excuse you?" I wasn't really offended, people here needed healing after all. Basara came over and kind of pushed his way in between MoSh and me, putting his arm around me. I heard Basara telling MoSh that if he was interested in Raven, and Raven was interested in him, he wouldn't get in the way, but don't use Raven to make Asuka jealous. He added that MoSh had dark energy. I looked over at Asuka, she was looking away from MoSh in an exaggerated manner.

Finally we got past all the drama and on to the healing spells. I repeated the song Touch My Heart three times. In perfect harmony with my song was Basara's guitar and singing, MoSh's guitar, Nomad's didgeridoo… Even though I think they were playing different songs… Except Basara, who was playing Touch My Heart. The song sounded wonderful. Golden energy filled the area, flowing around and through everyone there. After the healing I was watching MoSh and Asuka. MoSh was watching Asuka, Asuka was still sitting down and weeping softly. Basara said it looked like MoSh didn't want to kiss me any more. MoSh confirmed that and headed for Asuka. Basara said that was good, because he DID want to kiss me. Basara kissed me full on the lips. Basara looked into my eyes and smiled. I saw Asuka was now in MoSh's arms, still weeping. They both disappeared. As if that was my cue to wake up, everything faded and I woke.

Thanks for the healing Raven.

No problem!

I was driving in my car. Allison was in the passenger seat. We were going to class. It was our evening class, so the light outside clearly indicated twilight was approaching. We pulled into the parking lot. It didn't look like my normal school. It looked like Pima Community College instead. The parking lot was much larger than I am used to. We drove into the side of the parking lot and parked. I noticed there were strange clouds of red dust in the air. I asked Allison what was with the dust. She said it was to kill the virus, of course. She said the dust is harmless, but the virus is deadly. We got out of the car. Allison's little chihuahua Chewy jumped out of the car, too. I hadn't noticed him in the car with us. He ran towards the fence, chasing some small animal. Allison ran after him. I followed Allison, passing through one of the red clouds. I coughed on the dust, but that seemed to be the extent of its effect.

I got over to the fence where Allison was looking through. I saw Chewy running in the desert beyond. She was calling him, but he wasn't coming back. He seemed to have lost whatever he was chasing, however, as he was running randomly around now. Not going any farther, not coming any closer. I saw there was a hole in the fence. I told Allison she could go through and catch Chewy. She said she wasn't going out there… I wondered why. I crawled through the hole in the fence and went after Chewy. I saw a small dog, and picked it up… it wasn't Chewy, so I released the dog. I continued wandering into the desert, looking for Chewy.

"Raven!" came a man's voice from behind me, "What is it that you seek?"

"A dog," I said without noticing that he knew my name, "A little chihuahua. His name is Chewy. He ran off. Have you seen him maybe?"

"You're not here to find a dog," the man said, "You seek much more than that."

I looked up at the man. I wondered what he wanted. What was he doing out here? What was he after? Mugging? Rape? Murder? Well, whatever it was he wanted, I wasn't going to make it easy. The man was all dressed in black. He was actually rather hard to see in the darkness of the desert. He wasn't moving towards me as I had thought he might be. He was standing in the same place, just watching me. A weapon… did I have a weapon in case he attacked me? I groped around and found I had my hidden blade on… why did I have my hidden blade? No matter. I triggered it… it was automatic. Cool! My modifications had worked! And it was sharp. I retracted it, noticing it was moving much more quietly than it had been. I was ready if this guy attacked me. Of course if he didn't want to attack me, there would be no need to use the blade. "I am looking for a dog," I told him, "And I would appreciate it if you would either help me look or leave me alone."

"I have what you are looking for," the man said with a chuckle.

Eeewww... "Whatever it is that you have," I said, "I don't want it."

"You seek the nagual," the man said, which totally took me by surprise since I had identified him as a pervert. I wasn't sure what to say to that comment… When I didn't respond the man chuckled again. He continued talking. Now he was talking about naguals… He said that MoSh was lying to me. He said MoSh doesn't have what it takes to tell me whether or not I am a nagual… he said yes, the nagual I seek is within me. He said MoSh had lied, because he doesn't want me to be one. He said MoSh wants to be the only one, but that is not…

"Ok," I interrupted him, "I don't know who you think you are, but I'm not going to stand here while you do nothing other than talk shit about MoSh. Now just get the fuck out of my face!"

"MoSh is just using you, you know," the man said, "MoSh knows nothing about you, either. So there's nothing he could do to help you even if he wanted to, which he doesn't."

"Let me guess…" I said, "You're going to say you know all about me? I'll save you the trouble by answering now. Bullshit! Now get out of…"

"I know he thinks of you as nothing more than some random airhead," the man said, "He admitted such just earlier…"

"Excuse you?" I said to the man as memories came back to me, "You've been following me? You've been spying on me?"

"I'm the one who cares about you, I seek to show you the…" he started…

"That's not caring!" I interrupted, "It's creepy! I want you to stay the fuck out of my dreams! Got it? You are not permitted to dream with me! I don't want to see you anywhere in my dream, or MoSh's dream! Now get out before I show you the way to ride the lightning by shoving a lightning bolt up your ass!" That statement got me thinking about dreams… was this a dream? I should do a reality check… I was about to do that when everything faded and I woke.

Note: I had a couple of goals to fulfill tonight. I used my light / sound machine, but I don't think I slipped into a WILD… what happened seemed more like astral projection than a successful WILD…

I sat up in bed. My light / sound machine was no longer on me. I got out of bed without giving that much thought. I headed over to my bedroom door. I looked back towards my bed when I noticed flashing lights. I saw myself lying in the bed with the light / sound machine on. I was staring into the lights with earphones in my ears. That meant I was already in the dream state… or at least in an astral projection state… I left my room and went through the living room. I could see a lot of details. I was thinking I could practice this. Use some random cards with symbols on them, place a random card in the living room without looking at it, and then astral project to see it. Note to self: pick up some index cards or just cut up some papers to do this with.

I kept going into my mom's room. She was sitting in the chair sleeping with her book on her chest. Shyanne, our border collie mix, looked up in my direction. She didn't pay any more attention than that. I wondered if she sensed me or if it was coincidence. I left the room and went into the living room again. I went to the front door and put my hand through it. I couldn't affect the physical mass of it. I phased through the door. I went to the edge of the deck and looked at our small pond in the yard below. I saw something strange. Three glowing figures. Two cats and a dog. I remembered scattering the ashes of our dearly departed two cats and a dog. They were still here! I phased through the railing and floated to the ground below. The spirits vanished as I got there. Awww…

I floated up into the air and looked around. I could see our house from above. The white roof, the tops of the awnings, and the desert surrounding the house. I could fly! I was going to explore the area and see if I was seeing things as they really are IWL. I was wanting some kind of information as to whether this was a dream or an astral projection. I floated over the desert a bit, looking at the houses surrounding my house. It all looked accurate to waking life. But that wasn't any good… I have lived there long enough to have an idea of what things look like, enough of an idea to dream about it just fine. I was thinking about trying to open a portal or fly to the moon but I found myself back in my body instead.

Note: I got back to my body before my light / sound machine even finished playing its sequence. I managed to use what was left of it to slip into a WILD… Yay! A WILD!

I was in MoSh's inner world. I was lucid since this was a WILD. I looked around and recalled my purpose for being there. I was there to help MoSh check out what might be going on in the attic. He said there had been things coming from up there or something like that. I couldn't remember exactly what he'd said, but I knew that was what we were going to do. I asked MoSh if there was anyone else there with us. He said he hadn't seen anyone… I asked if he was aware this was a dream. He said he hadn't really thought about it. I said he should do that now, then, and do a reality check. MoSh did a quick reality check, he stared at his hands for a bit. I wasn't sure what that was supposed to accomplish. I looked at my hands and made a few finger puppets… got bored… looked back at MoSh. He said he knew now that he was dreaming. Excellent!

I told MoSh we could go upstairs and check out the attic. MoSh looked at me strangely. I reminded him that he'd wanted to check to see about some things that had come from up there. I was remembering a bit more, and I said he'd said something about a moron showing up there and making threats and stuff. MoSh said yeah, he remembered that guy. MoSh led the way up to his attic. I looked around the attic. It was kind of dark and dreary, but it looked like a typical attic. I looked around the room. Aside from dust bunnies, I didn't see anything. I looked a bit closer, then I looked back at MoSh. MoSh was also looking around.

MoSh and I went to the opposite side of the attic. I looked into the dust on the floor. A puff of dust was kicked up by my feet and I sneezed. The light in the attic had seemed dim before, and now it seemed to get even dimmer. The temperature got notably colder, too. That was when I noticed something black and disgusting oozing up from the floor. The black sludge smelled like a sewer leak… The ooze took the form of a bug… a big, black bug… looked kind of like a giant cockroach, but it had way too many legs. The thing was between us and the stairs to go back down. Well, no matter, we weren't here to run away from it. We were here to get rid of it. Witchblade formed armor around me and I formed the sword. The bug thing was attacking us with tendrils of the black disgusting stuff. I cut through the tendrils as they tried to wrap around MoSh and me.

From down below I heard the sound of a woman screaming. MoSh got a strange look on his face, one that seemed both worried and angry at the same time. Before I could even make a direct attack on the enemy, MoSh had transformed into a large snake. He blasted the black thing with green flames and then just charged his way right through it, splitting it into multiple pieces as he passed through. The snake disappeared down the stairs in a near instant. The blob thing started reforming, but the snake head appeared one more time and bathed it in green flames before leaving. There was nothing left of the thing now. I was just standing there wondering what had just happened. I looked at the ground where the thing had oozed up from. There looked like a black vortex there. I used Through the Never, the song I use to open portals, to force that one closed before following MoSh downstairs.

When I got to the bottom of the stairs I saw the large snake that was MoSh right in front of Data, who had his arm around Asuka. MoSh changed back to his normal form. I heard Data explaining that someone had come in here looking to take Asuka. Data continued to explain that the fool had taken the bait, he had grabbed and left with the Asuka android he had created in an earlier dream. Asuka was giggling at that fact that the enemy had been fooled. MoSh went over to Asuka and put his arms around her, clearly glad she was safe.

"Eeewww…" Asuka said briefly before using a white light to burn off a bit of the black slime that was still on MoSh. After that was gone she returned MoSh's hug. I woke up while they were still embracing.

Note: The rest of the night of dreams were mostly fragments, as I woke up quite frequently. This made for good recall, not so good on the sleep…

*Cave In*
I was in an underground laboratory. Our job was to analyze the structure and content of the rock around us, as it seemed to have some unusual qualities to it. It seemed partially like a crystal, and radioactive in a way… but what it radiated wasn't dangerous. I was in the lab as the scientists maneuvered a laser cutting device to the wall of the cave outside. The scientist fired the laser and cut a large chunk out of the wall, pulling it in with a giant claw. Another laser beam shrunk the sample to a size small enough to bring inside. I noticed the problem then. There was a hairline crack forming above the hole made by the laser cutter. The crack was getting bigger. I pointed that out to the scientists in the room. Shit, they said, the whole segment over the lab is going to collapse! Evacuate! Everyone ran from the cavern with the lab in it just before a huge chunk of the strange crystalline rock dropped and crushed the lab flat.

*School Project*
I was at a Wal-Mart with my mother. We were shopping for something I needed for school. For a school project. I was looking for 3d relief maps. I wanted to find 3d relief maps for the different areas of the game I was making for school so I could have something to base my models on. My mom was around as I browsed their relief maps. The selection sucked. All they had was full globe relief maps, and those were really crappy. They didn't even have the countries labeled properly! I realized they didn't have what I need. I went over and browsed video games. They had some cool ones that were priced way too high for me, and some crappy ones being sold dirt cheap. Disappointed again. I went to the food aisle. I wanted something. I grabbed some chocolate and started eating it right there in the aisle. Yum. But not what I wanted. I went to the fruit aisle. I grabbed a few cans of fruit. One was pineapple rings. One was cherries. One was peaches. I would make mixed fruit! I grabbed some bananas and headed for the checkout. That stuff shouldn't come to too much money… I met Allison at the checkout. I have no clue where my mom went, but Allison said fruit is free so we just walked out with it.

*To the Center of the Earth*
I was in a building. It was only one story tall. I was thinking it was supposed to be one of the tallest buildings in the world. Bullshit. It was squat. I found an elevator. Why was there an elevator in a one story building? I got in the elevator. There was a huge list of floors to select. And they were all basements. So the building was big, it was just underground. I selected the lowest floor. The elevator plunged. I was floating in the air, that's how fast it was plunging. Free fall. The elevator slammed to a stop at the bottom. I slammed against the roof and then to the floor. Ow… I got up and checked for broken bones. None. The door opened. There was a room full of clowns.

The clowns looked over at me and began licking their lips. One of them said dinner was served. Aaahhh!!! Cannibal clowns! I pushed the up button on the elevator and was whisked away from the clowns to the next level up. The doors opened again. The room was filled with kitties. So many cats! All kinds of kitties.

Tabbies, calicos, torties, white ones, black ones, long haired ones, short haired ones, persians, siamese… Now this was where I wanted to be! Yay! I left the elevator and went into the room full of cats. Cats swarmed around me, all wanting affection. So much purring! I had just found my way into heaven! Unfortunately this is where I woke.

OMG
Raven. Last night on youtube I was watching Clips from Stephen Kings, IT. That movie has a very similar looking cannabalistic clown.

Pennywise the Clown... now THAT is a creepy clown!

You went to Hell, then Heaven. Your versions of Hell and Heaven. Heh heh. The past two days, I threw roaches out of Angel's apartment. She got mad at me for not killing them.

Originally Posted by WakingNomad

She got mad at me for not killing them.

Some people have yet to learn that all life has value. Every living entity will learn in time, though. I think I just learned that even a bug's life has value in this lifetime. When I was younger I used to kill them without a thought.

Haha, great! I love that tallest building dream.

Note: Most of what I remembered tonight were fragments, so I am putting it all here. I fell asleep with my light / sound machine and started off with an attempted astral projection. I have a new plan for an experiment I will be doing over the next couple weeks. I took five slips of paper, drew five symbols on them. I then selected a random one and left it in a different room, face up. My goal was to then use astral projection to see what the shape is. There is a 20% chance I can get it right by chance. An 80% chance that I discovered the symbol via either astral projection or psychic abilities, either of which I would be very happy with!

*Day 1 Psychic AP Experiment*
I used my light / sound machine and slipped into what I feel was a state of astral projection… or I guess it could've been a dream state, I can't be sure which. I was in my own room, I got out of bed and walked over to the door. I could see the lights from my light / sound machine flashing on the walls. I looked around a bit, noting the different details of my room. It all looked accurate, but that could easily be a memory. The test was to discover the symbol on the paper I left in the living room. I left my room and went into the living room, which was where I left the paper. I left it on the couch. I looked over at the couch, focusing on where I knew the paper was. It was there. I looked closer and found the symbol on it was a star. Got it. I focused on remembering that the symbol was a star, keeping the image in my mind until I came back to my body and woke.
Note: When I got up in the morning, I found the symbol was, indeed, a star. I have been right on 1 of 1 attempt.

*Concert on the Moon!*
I had gone to MoSh's inner world to pick him up and take him to a concert on the moon. Through all this I never became lucid, as if picking MoSh up and taking him to the moon is the most normal thing in the world for me to do. We got to the moon by teleportation, which also seemed like the most normal thing. I arrived on the moon with MoSh, Asuka, and Shawna. Asuka commented she had left the baby with Serena. There was a crowd gathering around a large stage. I wondered where the crowd came from on the moon. MoSh and I went to the stage. Other people I recognized were there. Nomad was talking to Pablo. Basara was strumming on and tuning his guitar. MoSh materialized a guitar and started playing with it. I looked back at Nomad and Pablo. Nomad handed Pablo an instrument, it looked like a violin. Nomad came over to me after that and gave me a hug. I hugged him back. He said Pablo was going to be playing violin with us. I looked around the stage again. Bach was sitting at a really fancy piano. And to his left was a synthesizer keyboard. Interesting combination of a classical instrument and a technological instrument.

(Viffidas is the tall woman in the back with the green hair...)
Viffidas was playing drums, the drummer from Fire Bomber. They finally finished tuning and everyone started playing. I just stood there listening to the songs for a while until I woke.

*That Cat's Dirty!*
I was in my living room looking through the window into the desert. Princess was out there! What was the cat doing outside? She is an indoor cat! (We have coyotes in the area, and don't want her to get eaten!) I went outside and over to the kitty. To my relief, she didn't run. I scooped her up and took her inside. She was filthy! I started brushing dirt out of her fur. Her fur started coming out in clumps. She was bald in some places! Was she sick? I took her in to my mother and pointed at the hair falling out. My mom said she was just losing fur for the summer months. She said if I didn't like it, I should glue the fur back on. Glue? In the dream, it seemed like a completely feasible idea. I was thinking Elmer's glue would be best, since it is non-toxic. Super glue would hold the fur a lot longer, but could irritate her skin. I went for the Elmer's glue.

*Fire Engine Red*
I was in my bathroom looking at my reflection in the mirror. I had light blonde hair. I wanted it to be red. I found a hair color kit that was several years old. The liquid that is supposed to color the hair had turned to a powder over the years. I dumped it out, anyway. I put it on my hair. My hair turned a bright fire engine red. I started brushing the excess hair color out of my hair and into the sink. I did that until I was satisfied with the color. I cleaned the sink and went into the living room. My mom glared at me and got mad. She said the next time I get the urge to paint the entire house bright red, do her a favor and decide not to. I looked back behind me. Everything in my path was colored bright red. Princess was there, as were four other bright red cats. All of the bright red cats were giving me dirty looks.

*Fishies*
I was at the pet store. I was looking at some really colorful fish in a tank of water. I wanted that fish. I thought it would be sooooo cool to have. It was a beautiful fish.

I looked at the price. It was very expensive. Hmmm… I would still have the fish. I looked around and saw there was no one around. I reached into the tank to grab the fish. It bit my finger. That hurt a bit, but it made pulling the fish out easy. I slipped the fish into a plastic bag of water in my pocket. I headed for the door. One of the employees stopped me. He asked what I had in my pocket. I took my hands from my pocket. I felt the water spill… shit! The colorful fish swam out of my pocket and into the air as if it was in water. The employee looked at the fish. Three more of the fish came from my pocket… but I had only stolen one! Five more fish swam from my pocket. The employee said he knew if someone stole that damn fish that it would multiply until it became a plague. Seven more of the fish came from my pocket. There was a school of the fish now, and more fish continued coming from my pocket.

Great, now I'm scared of clowns.

What a bunch of funny dreams!

So we had a shared dream where you were non-lucid! For some reason, that usually only happens with MoSh and I. In my dream, I was a snow leopard cub with tar on me, and you dunked me in a plastic basin full of soapy water, like cleaning a duck.

I was in a forest. I looked around to see where I was. I could not tell. It looked like an ordinary forest to me. I walked down a path for a while. I was totally lost, as I had no memory of how I had gotten there nor of what I was doing there. I thought that might mean I was dreaming.

I continued walking for a while. I entered a clearing where there were two people fighting. I thought that might have something to do with why I was there. I recognized one of the people as Vegeta. He was flying around and attacking the other man, who I did not recognize. The fight was not at all even. Vegeta stopped firing and threatened that if the man interfered with his search again, he would dust the entire planet. Vegeta flew off over the forest.

I went to check on the man to see if he was okay. He was injured, but not in danger of dying. He said Vegeta could not be allowed to get hold of the Antoran amulet. He said he was sure Vegeta would level the entire forest to find it, but the disaster would be much worse if he did. I started to go after Vegeta, but the man stopped me. He said there was another after the amulet, and that one was much more evil than even Vegeta. He said if I could influence the outcome, it would be better for Vegeta to get the amulet than for it to fall into the hands of the Shadow Lord. He said that with the powerful forces after the amulet, it might be best for me to escape while I still lived. I told him that nobody was going to die except maybe the Shadow Lord. I healed him, then I went after Vegeta.

I found Vegeta in the air, looking down into the forest. I flew over beside him. He looked at me and told me I had better not get in his way. I told him I was not going to. He continued looking. I focused on the song Frozen for Vegeta. The song played through and the golden energy flowed into Vegeta.

I did not even have a chance to see if he had changed before there was a big explosion. I headed in that direction, Vegeta followed me. I landed near a flat area of forest which had been leveled by the explosion. I noticed some animals running from the scene, I also noticed a small yellow animal which looked suspiciously like Pikachu. I only caught a glimpse and I dismissed it.

I looked to see what had created the explosion. There was a dark form in the air, It was a man in a cloak of some kind, though his body looked midnight black inside the cloak. All I could see was glowing red eyes, a black cloak, black gloves. He was looking in the cleared area. He came down lower and looked closer, then blasted another area of forest. Vegeta asked what that was. He said its power was amazing. I figured he may think differently after seeing me. I headed out to stop the man.

As I was approaching him, I saw a small yellow animal jump from a tree and throw an electrical attack at the man. It hit the target, and the animal landed safely on the ground. I saw it did look like a Pikachu. The lightning had not done much to the man, however, except piss him off. He glared down at the animal. The animal let off a small scared "Pika...." The man cussed out the Pikachu, then aimed one of his blasts directly at the animal. I wanted to save the animal. I moved fast and got between the Pikachu and the man, using Whiplash to return the blast. The Pikachu took the chance to run and hide. I told the man that if he wanted to pick on someone, try me instead of small animals.

Scans showed he was a dark energy form. I figured white would do well. He got pissed at me, he seemed eternally pissed. He threw one of his blasts at me, higher power than at the Pikachu. I used Light Comes Out of Black and Whiplash to convert the energy to white and then send it back. There was an explosion as it hit him. He said he would level this entire planet if he had to to kill me. I focused on Battery and Damage, Inc. with white energy. The attacks centered in on the enemy and there was a large explosion. When the explosion cleared, the enemy was gone. I wondered if he had been dusted. I looked around, scanning. My Pentacle warned me to avoid an attack from behind. I avoided the attack as the enemy tried to run me through on a sword made of dark energy. I used three attacks - Battery, Damage, Inc., and Phantom Lord. All of the attacks centered in on the enemy, there was a large explosion. This one was bigger than the last one. I thought I had better not make it any larger or it might destroy the forest. I watched to see that it did not get out of hand, and the explosion died down. I looked around for the enemy, I did not see him.

I finally spotted him. There was not much left of him, he was collapsed against a tree. He grabbed the Pikachu from behind the tree. He said if I made one wrong move, the animal would die. He said now that I had wasted his energy, I would find his goal for him. He said if I did not, the animal would die. I did a Pentacle scan for the item, I thought it would be best if it was safely stored. The Pikachu was struggling and sending electrical bolts through the man, no effect. I went to the location of the item, it was not far. It was burried in a small chest. I took it out. The man liked what he saw. He said hand it over, or the animal gets it. I figured I would comply. Scans showed it could be charged with energy. I charged it with brown (neutralizes other energy forms). I then told him we would make a simultaneous trade. We swapped, I released the Pikachu to go hide again. The brown energy activated. It neutralized a large quantity of dark energy - the rest of his dark energy. The robes collapsed to the ground, empty. The amulet laid on top. I picked up the amulet and put it in an interdimensional pocket.

The Pikachu came running to me and jumped into my arms, began letting out purr-like Pikas. I pet him for a moment, then put him down as a vortex portal opened and pulled me home (with a Pikachu hanging from my leg) where I woke.

Note: The first thing I did tonight was continue with my astral projection experiment. I went into what I felt was an astral projection and went to view the card. I saw that the card was a circle. I woke enough to jot that in my dream journal and then, with the rest of my light / sound program, I slipped into a WILD.

I was in MoSh's inner world. I looked around, remembering that I had planned on going there to pick up MoSh. I looked around for MoSh. I spotted him. He was in the middle of some… um… private business with Asuka… they were kissing, and boy were they kissing. I was thinking maybe I should come back at another time. I looked around a bit more, and then MoSh was right beside me. I was surprised to see him there. He said he was ready to go. I asked if he was lucid. He said sure, though he seemed to be kind of brushing me off. He said we should go, Lonewolf was waiting… he said we were supposed to meet Lonewolf, so let's go. I opened a portal.

MoSh and I were now in a forest. It was a beautiful jungle. We were wandering in the forest, and it was rather dark. It was night time. MoSh and I wandered a bit farther. There was a woman there, I didn't recognize her. She was examining a wall, or the ruins of a wall. It looked like the wall used to be quite impressive, but now it was collapsing in many places and covered with vines, cracking in many places. MoSh went over to the woman. I followed him, but I wasn't sure if I should. I stayed a bit farther back while MoSh started talking to the woman. I don't remember what they said to each other, I wasn't able to hear all of it.

I looked around the forest for a bit. I saw movement to the side. I followed the movement and saw a wolf moving through the trees. The wolf looked over at me and then headed in my direction. It was a large and beautiful wolf. I froze right there. I knew it was a dream, but I wanted to be able to watch this beautiful animal.

I didn't want to do anything that might make this wolf either attack me or run away. I looked at the wolf for a couple minutes. The wolf was coming closer, out of the cover of the trees. He was getting quite close to me. Was there a chance I could pet him? His fur looked so soft… I stayed where I was and looked at the wolf's beautiful eyes… but I was no longer looking at a wolf… what the…

The wolf had transformed into a man. Damn… so disappointing… I looked at the man that was now in front of me. Wait a minute… He wasn't just some random man, I recognized him. I had found Lonewolf. Yay! MoSh had said he wanted to find Lonewolf, so now I just had to get MoSh over here. Lonewolf was saying something to me. It sounded to me like he had just told me not to roll with the pigs unless I want to get muddy… wtf? I had been about to call MoSh, but I stopped. Rolling with pigs? Had I heard that right? I asked what he had just said, saying I hadn't heard him clearly. He said I knew exactly what he was talking about. Um… no, I didn't. I tried to tell him I had no clue what he was referring to when everything faded and I woke.

Darn... how come I can never remember you or the good times with Asuka?