This isn't OCD... and I don't think ED is the forum for this. |
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I've made a post or two before about this 'condition' I have... but they've gone nowhere. Recently, however, I've made a sort of breakthrough in my 'diagnosis'. Since I was very young I've been addicted to or... obsessed with gore. Almost everyday of my life since I was young I've been watching videos of extremely graphic things. I've never been able to explain, even to myself, why I always watch these videos. I can't tell if I enjoy them, or and fascinated. All I know is I feel like I have to watch them. Well, apparently I'm a perfect example of obsessive compulsive disorder. I am obsessed with both gore, and the idea of inflicting pain on myself and others. I have intrusive thoughts where I'll look at someone, on a bus or on the street, and think how easy it would be for me to break there arm, or strangle them, or push them infront of a bus etc etc. Now of course I would never EVER do it... but the fact that the thoughts are there worries me. |
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This isn't OCD... and I don't think ED is the forum for this. |
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We all live in a kind of continuous dream. When we wake, it is because something,
some event, some pinprick even, disturbs the edges of what we have taken as reality.
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This does not sound like obsessive compulsive disorder. Obsessive compulsive disorder deals with strange and irrational actions meant to relieve anxiety, not just strange thoughts that enter your head. That sounds like an entirely different kind of psychological illness, possibly a dangerous one. OCD people have to do certain rituals a certain amount of times and in a certain way or they feel anxious. If you had OCD you would develop certain rituals, so if you don't do that then this is probably something different. |
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Last edited by Caprisun; 09-12-2010 at 08:48 PM.
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We all live in a kind of continuous dream. When we wake, it is because something,
some event, some pinprick even, disturbs the edges of what we have taken as reality.
Vandermeer
SAT (Sporadic Awareness Technique) Guide
Have questions about lucid dreaming? DM me.
Are you aroused by gore or take pleasure in watching it? People with OCD don't get any pleasure from their compulsions, they just relieve anxiety as Caprisun mentioned. |
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It IS a form of OCD |
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As Zhaylin said, intrusive thoughts are a characteristic feature of obsessive-compulsive disorder. The reason the condition is named obsessive-compulsive disorder is because it consists of two components: perhaps unsurprisingly, obsessions (i.e., intrusive thoughts) and compulsions (i.e., the "rituals" that others mentioned). It is in fact intrusive thoughts, and not the presence of compulsions/rituals, which is considered to be the defining feature of OCD. Although it sounds a bit like you're getting nontrivial compulsions as well (you mentioned inflicting pain on yourself) which you simply aren't indulging, thankfully. |
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That is true, there are actually two parts of it. I have OCD though its a very mild case, in which doesn't have any serious impact on my life. The little things I feel compelled to do, are normally very minor, in which I just do them and continue on with no disruption to my life. For the most part I just ignore that I have it, and I am fine. |
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Thanks to the few of you that actually know that this is OCD. To the others... look it up. I'm currently speaking to the Local University, and they said I'd be better of talking to their Neuroscience Prof so I'm waiting for a reply from him. I'll update the situation whenever anything of significance happens. I frankly have no idea how they'll go about this... but I guess I'll find out soon enough. |
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Last edited by mindwanderer; 09-14-2010 at 11:23 PM.
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