I've made a post or two before about this 'condition' I have... but they've gone nowhere. Recently, however, I've made a sort of breakthrough in my 'diagnosis'. Since I was very young I've been addicted to or... obsessed with gore. Almost everyday of my life since I was young I've been watching videos of extremely graphic things. I've never been able to explain, even to myself, why I always watch these videos. I can't tell if I enjoy them, or and fascinated. All I know is I feel like I have to watch them. Well, apparently I'm a perfect example of obsessive compulsive disorder. I am obsessed with both gore, and the idea of inflicting pain on myself and others. I have intrusive thoughts where I'll look at someone, on a bus or on the street, and think how easy it would be for me to break there arm, or strangle them, or push them infront of a bus etc etc. Now of course I would never EVER do it... but the fact that the thoughts are there worries me.

Just today I contacted the Psychology department of a local university and I'm hoping they can offer help. The purpose of this thread however is to hear from YOU to see if anyone else 'suffers' from similar disorders or if you have any friends/family that do or if you simply want to ask me something.