Vivaldi, that is a scene from winter in your avatar, right? If not, it reminds me of it a lot. Excellent choice in music. I agree with the choices you've made in your life. I am actually working towards becoming progressively more sober and delving into the natural wonders that already exist on this earth, waiting to be studied and viewed from all different angles. I love to create, I am in the midst of making an indie game I call Wachtram, German for waking dream, in which the "protagonist" or antihero will visit memories, dreams, using imagery from past games (from content I have "stolen" but do not claim to own the intellectual property rights to or own in anyway whatsoever, the entire game is going to be as free as I can possibly make it), I like to write poetry, I am considering writing a novel, I want to become a scientist and a teacher, because I am already a believer and have faith in the goodness of mankind and the quality we are capable of producing. I have always been musically inclined and have picked up instruments and how to play them very naturally, I want to learn more languages, I already know a lot of Spanish from school, want to learn German, Japanese, and probably more. I have not finished my trials with drug taking, I have more to get from them, but the time is drawing closer and closer that I am ready to put the drugs down and leave them behind for good. I used to crave intensity, I wanted everything jam packed and fired through a cannon right at my face. Then I had a trip the other day that made me feel as though I were experiencing an entire life throughout the 8 to 12 hours it lasted. The peak was amazingly and tantalizingly intense, but as soon as it came, it went, and then I was in for the nice and comfortable slow ride of adulthood. Things had to be in my face as a child, they had to be intense and immediate, otherwise I wouldn't get it and I would soon forget or the meaning would be lost on me. As I have grown older, the more I have come to enjoy the slower more comfortable rides, because I used to live the life of intensity and now I am ready to experience something new. I want to be able to explore and to see things from a different perspective, and if I keep trying to relive the past, I am never going to actually step into the future.