In fact I did, and I decided it's not enough.
I feel like you read our words but you saw it in an entirely different way. I think that is because you don't know what we have experienced in life that led us to our own conclusions. So you see it as something simple minded or ignorant. Perhaps if we could write the many things we went through and learned than you would understand. However, It is good that you came closer to an answer. You will gradually begin to understand.
I have great friends but they just seem to be too busy. So yeah...
I think it is great that you have friends. I haven't had a friend who i could hang out with or invite to my house for years. Honestly, I don't think its worth it having friends who say their too busy. I had a cousin like that and felt like she wasn't even worth talking too. Eventually she stopped trying.Also, there are certain things about people I can't stand. But i try to see the good things about them if it is something understandable. I wish I could have a friend who wouldn't take me for granted though. But searching for that friend is still, at this moment, far from my reach. Honestly, another reason I'm saying this is because of what you said below.
but I can't bring myself to bet on it.
It sort of made me feel sad when you said this.I encourage you not to take so lightly the gift of company though. Physics may bring you knowledge and the violin is indeed beautiful but sharing those things you love/enjoy with someone is so much better. Even if they aren't perfect. Its not like we are either.
I want to say so much more things but I won't because I think only a bit is enough for now.