Thread: a very disgusting side of humans.

Originally Posted by Maeni

Well I'll disappoint you I think.

It starts out with a bit of sexual shit fuck. (Won't go into details, then it would be like an ero story, which I don't think we want here - "We" as in everyone else.)
Then it's just imaginations and drama-bullshit of me regretting and feeling all guilty-like and shit. And her being all confused and crying about her parents and shit.
And I'm all like "omg I shouldn't have done that, omg can't stop myselffarrehrgwergahhweghh"

When I'm not actually completely horny, the thoughts aren't actually too sexual. Except for just the beginning. Then it's just imagining the consequences and shit.
The thing is just that sometimes they get so real that it feels like I might do that if the situation was real.
But then when I take a few steps back, I can see that that is just completely and utterly batshit bullshit.

I think I just need somebody IRL to tell me to calm the fuck down and make me realize that I won't do these things. Because no matter what I do myself, it feels like there's this little black dot of doubt - Even though I know imagining me doing those things looks completely insane.

Actually, it's really damn silly.

Then I repeat it all over with some changes.
That was actually a bit embarrasing to write. ô_o
Fight da powah.

I know you're just messing with me right now, but I feel like sharing >.<´´

Maeni... Calm the fuck down. You wont do those things. You're going to remember who you are, and you are a strong person inside. You have self control, and you have a clear mind. Remember... who you are. Tell yourself that. Realize it.

Originally Posted by invader_tech

Maeni... Calm the fuck down. You wont do those things. You're going to remember who you are, and you are a strong person inside. You have self control, and you have a clear mind. Remember... who you are. Tell yourself that. Realize it.

Aaahhhh, well, thanks.
It didn't feel like that big of a change, though :/

Hard to 'realize it'... For some reason. And somehow.