I have been debating with myself for the past three days whether or not to post this question. I felt that maybe I was making too much out of this, but this has been really bugging me. Let start by saying that, though I've been primarily doing the DILD method, I have also been trying to MILD with no success. And yes, I do know techniques take time. I'm a very patient person so it doesn't get next to me.
The reason I brought up MILD is the concept of auto-suggestion and if it's possible to inadvertently do a MILD by daydreaming. Ever since I got into the concept of lucid, reading up on it and such, I have often daydreamed what my first LD would be like. That leads to what happened recently.
A couple days ago I daydreamed a dream scenario, which I won't go into much detail, in which I play a detective. I have a partner, who I based on the female cop from the movie 'Crash'. For those who haven't seen it, the name of actress is Jennifer Esposito.
The point of awareness in this fantasy is where she tells me I am dreaming. And of course I think of going through the process of becoming lucid. Now, I thought this daydreamed several times in a roll, re-editing it in my mind like a movie, within the span of twenty minutes.
Keep in mind, I only thought of this fantasy as an innocent, 'I wonder would it be like' scenario. This reason for explaining this is, the same night I had a dream in which I was lying in a bed, not mine, in a room that I didn't recognize. The room was kinda low lit, and I see myself in a third person. And sitting on the bed next to me was, you guessed it, Jennifer Esposito as the same character from 'Crash'.
As if that isn't weird enough, I get a sense that she is trying to do what I fantasized about. It seemed as though she was trying to tell me that I was dreaming. However, every word that came out of her mouth was garbled. I'm not trying to say that I almost had a LD, I'm just wondering if having that daydream somehow almost worked like an auto-suggestion or if it was purely coincidence. I'm actually leaning more to the latter. I'm just curious as what anyone thinks.
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