I know you're a totally different person from me, but if I had something like this happen to me, I'd be wondering why it didn't happen more often. It sounds like it left some profound effect on you, particularly due to the reappearance. My understanding is that if something is on your mind, it has a high likelihood it'll work its way into a dream. (Smoking cigarettes with a band I really like was a recent dream that reinforces that idea, lol. ) While not everything works that way when I'm dreaming, something like this seems like it would happen more often than what you've suggested has already happened - and by that I mean if it's on your mind this much, I expect it'll return in the next few nights for another visit.
I wish I could give further insights, but I don't see anything else I can make a statement on beyond that I expect it may return again, and it won't take a year for it to come around again. I'll read through your logs and see what else I can come up with.
EDIT: I was about to ask why you didn't take more control of your situations, particularly during the pre-maze part of it (example: when you knew you were in the first nightmare, why didn't you take control of the situation instead of running from it?). Then I read more into the maze portion where you were calling Nomad and Raven for help, but that's where I figured there wasn't much point in the control part, because you seem to have lost your head while in a maze with a tickling poltergeist after you. That does sound like it would be terrifying in a dream, but so long as you were lucid, I can't imagine it being completely impossible to calm yourself down at least a little bit to work up the courage to take control of the situation - conjure a potion between your feet that'll remove that tickling torture, then do a little parkour to get on top of the fences to get a better scope on the entire area. In third-person retrospect it sounds like it was doable, and I'm sure it was, but in first-person retrospect you're probably saying "no way no how". But, that's what I gathered from the log. Crisis induces a lack of control over yourself, leading to a state of panic. How often do you have bad chains of FAs? I never get chains of them....
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