I'm going to write my progress on how I attain dream recall and eventually LD's. My dream recall at the moment of writing this paragraph is ZERO. I haven't had a dream recall in roughly 11 month's and for a while I thought I didn't even dream at all.
I'm writing this because I want to let everyone know about my progress, I want to keep a journal on this, but most of all I want to let people that have the same problems as me know how I've handled it. (Because I will keep on trying until I'm capable of recalling AND going lucid)
Sleep feels like 10 minutes to me, I close my eyes, drowse a bit and then I need to get to my work.
Lately my life has been quite a mess, I've had 6 month's of exam and after that a very stressfull internship that's been really demanding, I got my evening job. I've got a nice share of emotional problems, I don't have any friends, It just turned out my mother never really cared about me, and there are other more personal things aswell. On top of that I'm having trouble falling asleep, I sometimes feel depressed and I feel more lonely then I should. I’m also on antibiotics for some infection on the bottom of my head hair, which also makes me feel miserable after taking the pills.
Since any of you don't really know me I don't mind sharing this. My reason for sharing all this is actually: To prove lucid dreaming can be attained even if life isn't really all flowers and sunshine for you.
All those things cause stress. Stress appears to be bad for dream recall.
On with my progress, I'll try to log on every day and write my experiences of the day before that, if I can’t log on I’ll write it as soon as I log on.
Day one. (26-3-2012)
Spoiler for Day one.:
This is the first time trying after nearly a year of not dreaming. Just before I fall asleep I meditated for about 10 minutes, just emptying my mind to relieve the stress of the day. I went to bed at 11:15pm, I had to get up at 6:30am. No dream recall at all this night. Not even a shred. I just fell asleep for something that felt 20 minutes and then I just get up.
Day two. (27-3-2012)
Spoiler for Day two.:
Second attempt, I went back to www.dreamviews.com for support and because I had some questions. I’ve chatted a bit on the IRC, asked some of my questions, got some tips and tricks and after getting the hint of eating banana’s and peanut butter I went back to bed with high hopes. I’ve also set my alarm to wake me at 4:00am, for dream recalling. I got to bed at 11:00pm and had to get up at 6:30am.
I didn’t hear my alarm at 4:00am and when I woke up I didn’t recall any dreams. I had some trouble getting asleep because of the peanut butter, I usually never eat before I sleep.
Day three (28-3-2012)
Spoiler for Day three:
Third attempt. I tried to relieve my stress as much as possible before going to sleep, I had a nice chat on the IRC. I’ve read a few guides about DEILD and went to bed at 11:00pm, I had to get up at 6:30am. I set my alarm to go off at 4:00am, for dream recall.
Succes! Sort off. I didn’t woke up at four, I woke up at 5:45am for some reason. Before I stood up I tried to remember my dream and I got something!
One single image, like a movie that crashed and only shows one frame. The image is that of a pitch black dog running on a sandy road. I can see grass and trees on the background. The weird thing is that there’s a face trough the entire picture. It’s not detailed at all and I don’t recognize who it is. The face looks a bit angry, with short brown hair, dark eyes and no facial hair. It’s obviously male.
Well, that’s it for today, I’ll keep editing this and adding to it. Let me hear any feedback or things that I should add!
Crossed fingers here. My recall is poor at the moment, aswell, so if you're going to be successful, you're going to give me some extra motivation.
Also, not sure if this isn't little offtopic, but isn't statement, that your mother never really cared about you, a bit harsh? Of course, there might have been some special circumstances, but she didn't give you to adoption. (I hope)
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