Seeking advice - something is actively preventing me from gaining control of my dreams!

[DreamBliss]

I've been hesitant about starting this thread. Unsure exactly why. But I decided tonight to bite the bullet here. Background on me... Well read dreamer, faithfully recording dreams in my Dream Journal, have not been lucid since my last lucid dream when a vine tried to attack me through a window. It was worse than it sounds, trust me. I have an astigmatism (one eyeball is slightly squished) in one of my eyes and this had a strange effect on my dreams. During lucidity they became super detailed, as if I put glasses on, normal dreams looked like real life does to me without glasses. Not horribly bad or anything, just slightly blurred and not very detailed. Something changed and all my dreams have, since the change, been as detailed as my lucid dreams. There is now little or no change in detail when I am lucid. I meditate most every day, two times a day usually. I used to exercise 2 or 3 times a week but due to circumstances in my life I have not been doing that as much. Been working outside though and riding my bike a few times a week. No major changes in diet, I don't smoke, not a drinker, no drugs - nothing like that. No computer/TV stimulus before bed. I have set intentions for knowing when I am dreaming and controlling my dreams, and have been dealing with any Aspects of Self harboring any interfering belief, setting intentions for this as well. Recently I have successfully projected out of my body and have done so a few other times since. Going to start meditating before bed per a suggestion from a user and friend here. For some time now I have been experiencing deja-vu in my dreams. I have also successful re-entered one dream with some shamanic drumming, and have been training myself to look at my hands in my dreams. I have signs up I look at which, wherever I see them, I look at my hands and ask myself, "Is this a dream? Am I dreaming?" In fact my last periods of lucidity were gained by looking at my hands. There are other strange factors in my dreaming. I rarely, if ever, see any kind of clock or timepiece. I think I saw in a dream not long ago a digital clock. That is the only time I can recall. To begin lucid dreaming I used Dream Signs. For me these were common places I went to in my dreams, where I used to live as a child. Something changed, and all of a sudden I was not seeing anything familiar or repetitive I could use to gain lucidity. Then I could use looking at my hands, but something changed yet again and I could no longer use this. I got a glimpse of the active interference when I saw my hands once in a dream a month or so ago. They were holding something, I only glimpsed them for a moment, not enough to register. So something is actively blocking me from gaining lucidity, disguising the things I have trained myself to use, altering the nature of my dreams beyond how they are supposed to run just so I can't become lucid. The most obvious answer, and to my belief the most obvious red herring, is simple fear from when the vine attacked. But recall I was getting interference before that happened. To my mind that was just another facet of my attacker. Your next guess is that it's me. That on some deep level I am harboring some sort of interfering belief or fear, based in childhood more than likely, that is causing this. I doubt this is true because it would also block my ability to astral project. I am more inclined to believe that there is some outside force blocking me. As to why I do not know. I do know it took me a long time before I could astral project, and I had some bad experiences, more than likely on the lower astral planes, as a child. So I'm just looking for advice here. If perhaps there is some entity blocking me, how do I counter it? If it is a hidden fear or interfering belief, how do I expose it? What can I do to gain full and complete control of my dreams? Your advice and help is very much appreciated! - DreamBliss

[DreamBliss]

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[angie746]

Hi dream, I also have astigmatism in both eyes and I get where your coming from with how it's real clear in lucids to how it's slightly blurry in RL, but that blurry ness isn't a lot is it, not enough so you can't see good. Anyway to the point lol...sounds to me that the fear is stopping you, but on th other hand I myself believe OBE are lucid dreams, so when you have an OBE again believe that you can change it, believe that behind a door etc will be a beautiful beach or wherever you want to go, you don't have to be stuck in your room when your in your dream body please get it out of your head that it's something evil stopping you as his will hinder your progress, if you need to, imagine yourself being covered from head to toe in a beautiful bubble of light as you lie down to go to sleep, and say "only my guides can help me and connect with me" this will help a lot. Hope this helps, let me know how you get on please

[DreamBliss]

Thanks for the encouragement (and the reply. I was starting to feel like one hand clapping here!) I've been reading the, "Afterlife Knowledge Guidebook" by Bruce Moen and have just come to the section on love. I have decided to protect myself with a shield of love when projecting or dreaming. Anything touching it, more than likely a manifestation of fear, will be transformed if they contact it. A non-violent, positive way to defend one's self! So that's my brilliant (at least I think so) solution for now - - DreamBliss

[DreamBliss]

I'm beginning to think that there is not some entity attempting to stop me. There are some strange things going on, but I have a hunch that it's something to do with me. Growth and change or maybe remnants of interfering beliefs harboring fears. Obviously with the deja-vu and recent strange experiences with my dreaming something is going on. But I guess all I can do is be a good surfer. Ride this wave and stop worrying about the sea around me. Afterall in this particular sea I'm beginning to think there are no sharks. Or rather that we manifest them, otherwise they do not exist. - DreamBliss