Okay so i was having a dream last night, which quickly became a night terror, It was a snowy tundra, completely bare except for snow and wind. I heard a voice in the air saying "Hello" i said "who is this" the voice replied "don't you know?" I respond by saying "no", the voice chuckles and says "look behind you" i do and nothing is there, the voice mocks me d\saying "no the other way" i look and then get a punch squarely in the jaw. Then a figure appeared, a carbon copy of me but with black eyes. I say "you're me" the figure replies "there you go, i am you, I am what you see, I am in control of this dream, and you can do nothing about it." I respond "you think i con't do anything?" I think in my head Wake up self, wake up" the figure, which i will now refer to as the dark, laughed saying "I know what your'e thinking, and it will not help you here. I am you, I know what you think, I know what you are, and I know what you desire." I reply "you know nothing about me and i can do anything i want this is my mind" to which it once again responds to with "but I am your mind, and i am in control here" after saying this he pulls out a Marionette of me and says "I want you to dance". He pulls on the strings and i start dancing. He then cuts a string and i fall to the floor. "ho..how can you do that?" "I can make you do anything I want, or rather what you want, you see that attractive woman over there?" I look and there is a very beautiful woman over there and a spark of lust enters my mind. "Ahh i felt that, that lust, you desire her" i say "no i don't" the dark says "oh yes you do, and i will also fulfill your desire for you" I reply "what? i thought you hated me? why would you do that? The dark replies "who said anything about me doing it? I am not just going to give her to you, I am gonna show what type of person you really are, a controlling, lustful man who will do anything to get what he wants, i'm gonna make you rape her, to fulfill your satisfaction" i stammer "wha..what I would never do that!" The dark responds "Oh yes you would, you want to do it, but you're afraid of getting caught, of being reprimanded, and that makes you weak." I then, having no control over my body, beat the woman and rape her, she is crying the entire time and i cannot do naything about it, i felt terrible. I said "this isn't me, this is not me!" the dark says "oh yes it is, this is you, you in your soul, your mind, I am just acting out what you desire so much" "No" i respond "this is not what i want!" to which the dark responds "Oh yes it is because this is what I want. Don't lie to me, anyways you have a big day today, i will leave you to ponder what i have told you. Time to wake up" I then woke up shaking, I am not a terrible person i want to help people in anyway i can, what does this mean? Also how could i loose control, of something i knew was a dream? |
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