Hello again,

It's been a while since I've posted anything! But alas! I need help! I have always been a heavy dreamer, ever since was little. It was only up to a few years ago did I learn about lucid dreaming and was quite fascinated by it. I wanted to learn how naturally, and I did. Well I tried too! It seems that everything I do just ends up in some terrifying situation. I know everyone here says you should become use to sleep paralysis, but I am not. Whenever I try to lucid dream I become endorsed in sleep parylasis. Often it is painful and feels like a immense pressure is being forced upon me. I panic and wake up and only then do I come to my senses that I could have used it to become lucid. It happens everytime, or sometimes during SP I will stop panicking and just wait it out, but then I either fall into a sleep and forget what I'm doing, or it gets worse. While I'm on this rant, I might as well say that sometimes I do obtain lucidity! Though usually right when I realize that I have obtained it, I am transferred back into sleep paralysis and have TERRIFYING false-awakenings. Sometimes these thins happen when I am not even trying! Can anyone help? Am I just not a person that is able to lucid dream? Any files to overcoming the panic that shuts my brain down? Thank you so much or listening to my ramble

-Nudge^.^