Hi Frenchie,
This looks very familiar to experiences you can get when practising WILD, where you try to enter a lucid dream from waking state. There is nothing to worry about, it is just very normal, although very scary, but you get used to, after some time you are very glad if you start to feel the vibrations and the energy pulling you out of your body (this is only mental, it is a feeling you get when your awareness detaches from your body to the non-material dream-scene). It's called the separation from your waking body, so you are only left with your dream body. This happens to everybody, every night, but we are almost never concious about it, unless we practise WILD. Maybe you are not practising wild, but meditating and maybe praying like this, and even the fear that something is going to hapen, can make your mind so alert that you stay aware when your body falls asleep, and that's when these experiences occur.
You probably read already alot about it, I just want to confirm that it really is SP and the separaration you are feeling. First of all, when your body falls asleep and a dream is going to start, to protect yourself from accidently moving along with your dreambody, your real body turns in a paralized state. When you experience this consciously, this can be very frightening in the beginning (but again, when you get used to it, you are very happy to experience this, because this gives you a chance to enter a dream staying lucid), you can't move, you can't scream, don't worry, nothing can happen to you, stay calm, you can hear strange voices, very real like, feel like somebody is sitting on top of you and you can even see with your (real) eyes closed, at this stage you are already dreaming, so that is very cool, all kind of strange and (in the beginning) scary things can happen, like that glass falling. The energy you feel that pulls you is the separation taking place, your conciousness looses awareness of your real body and tries to grasp on something familiar, a feeling of a body, a dreambody, but in the transition this can be very chaotic, understand it like your conciousness is loosing the ground under itself and desperately is searching something to hold on to, that's why you feel like being pulled, lifted, I always have a feeling of spinning around my body very vigorously, for me it is not scary, I am very, very happy when I feel it, because it means my conciousness is shifting focus from my sleeping body (as long as i can feel my sleeping body, i can't enter the dream state) to my dreambody. It is a very strange thing for your conciousness you know, so it feels very dramatic, just try to stay calm, it is actually wonderful, you are entering the non-material, you are leaving all your material limits behind and gaining freedom in the non-material: the dream. If you manage to stay calm, it is much less dramatic, even very enjoyable, it is your fear that is making the seperation so difficult, your fear tends to hold you on to your sleeping body, thats why it is so dramatic and scary, you keep your conciousness in the in between state, you don't let it go, that's why you experience so strong energy pulls, because without knowing you pull back, your fear holds you on to your body, while you are in the process of detaching from your body. Imagine that you are trapped in a swamp, somebody tries to rescue you, tries to pull you out of it, but you resist, what will this person do? Pull harder, more force, more vigorously, pulling you in many different directions, almost tearing you apart, but, when you let go, the person just can smootly pull you out of there. It is the same, do not resist and it will go smoothly. Don't be afraid, trust me, nothing can go wrong, your fear can make it not pleasurable, but even then nothing can go wrong, so better let go of the fear, jump in the unknown, let the energy pull you to the dreambody (it is process of stabilising your awareness around a imagined dreambody, that's all), let it happen, you will be rewarded if you do, because if you do, because once your awareness gets stabilized around your dream-body, you get perfect freedom, you can do whatever you like with this dreambody in the dream, you can fly, you can swim under water without needing to breath, you can explore your dream, create other dreamscenes, then you are in control (you can speak, move like you want) and that is a wonderful feeling.
Let go! Try to control your fear!
Good luck, "bonne chance", and see you in Lucid Dream space soon :-)
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