Hi there world!

A couple of months ago i slowly lost interest in lucid dreaming and quit , but now i am getting back on the LD train again. Since then i have had exactly one lucid dream, and in this dream i got reminded why i quit in the first place (this demotivated me too much); In every single dream i have, even lucid ones, i cannot see things clear. It is like i cannot focus on anything. In normal dreams i cannot do anything about it, but in lucid dreams i can atleast try. What happens then is that i get a great headache and i quickly lose my lucidity. Staying lucid is like a button i have to constantly press in, if i try to focus on something i lighten the pressure. Rubbing my hands does not work and if i spin around i also lose my lucidity.

It is really weird because when i cannot see things, my dreams are dominated by feelings and "just knowing" what and where things are. Of course, feelings are enjoyable, but when i read about people seeing things as clear as they would on a sunny day in real life, i get jealous.

Does anyone else experience this or something similar, and do you know how to fix it?

Thanks for reading!