I am now getting to the point of concern. I have accidentally trigger lucid dreams for 3 people in total, and the 4th can do it, but didn't even realise it was a thing. lol. first i mentioned, was done during binaural beats of the theta brainwave. second was a guy in work i told him how to do self awareness and all day awareness. the last i took for a guided meditation. she was able to still kinda hear my voice but she was able to have a lucid dream at the same time. she was walking down a japanese garden. she said she saw the purest green trees. like no human colour she's ever seen before. so vibrant. she woke up abruptly when i finished the meditation. the lack of my voice woke her.

I am somewhat concerned however, because my mind's eye is hazy, at best. when i think of things, it seems to be through a kinda "fuzz" or haze. it's so frustrating. Like my dreams (non lucid) are barely 100% clear. usually around the 60%-70% mark of clear vision. So then i began to worry about my mind's eye being clear and tried what was classed as a simple exercise and i couldn't even do it!!!! it said try and visualise a red square being drawn out in your mind's eye.... am i broken or something that i can't do that?! is this the reason why i can't lucid dream? as i say, my dreams are very rarely in first person. last night's for example, i saw it from 3rd person view again. in fact, i have dreams where i'm not me, but i seem to be following a person in the dream and it seems that it has to be me in this body, as i am experiencing their thoughts and stuff. have i hit a serious brick wall that i can't overcome? i am feeling despair if i am completely honest. can anyone help? btw, still recording my dreams in my book. When i recall them, i can see them in my head and remember the whole dream, but they're as clear as they are when i remember back. my recall isn't the problem. the guy in work says i'm trying to hard, which made me wanna cry because if i try less i definitely won't get it, therefore feel stumped and nearly pissed off with it. but i am not giving up. i want this.

sorry, bitchy whining rant over. anybody able to help? :\

Thanks,

Dragon