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    1. 2021-09-10 parking, SB, classroom, clothing failure; driving with mom & dad & RO, observatory, work

      by , 09-10-2021 at 04:02 PM
      bedtime ~ 22:30
      ~120ml red wine at about 21:45

      final waking ~06:00, quite drowsy still, bathroom, back to bed for WILD attempt, but no imagery, wake up too fast, relaxation not effective.

      Couple of longer, quite vivid dreams:

      + parking in traffic, make a u-turn through traffic to a side street, park on the right but the right wheels of the car run up on a large wooden wall on the curb, and then plops back down level to the ground. Get out of the car and am walking with a mini-version of ex-gf SB: she's really short, and half-naked (no bottoms), and I think people may get the wrong idea since she's so small. She stumbles/falls forwards and I notice that she is wearing something below, a sort of thong, so she's not completely 1/2 naked.

      Inside, I'm in a large classroom. to a building, attend a seminar in a large classroom where I proudly describe my start-up experiences ("yes, I was founding member number 10!")
      (about company R, not a founder, but early employee #10), to a crowd of kids at their desks. I wake up (in bed?) and there's a girl there, I don't want SB to get the wrong idea (?), some people are coming in and I'm still in my underwear, I quickly grab a pile of clothes and in a panic try to put them on. I hear outside in the corridor people talking, there is some sort of gather/exposition going on and people will be arriving to this room soon. The clothes are all wadded up in a tight pile and despite pushing and pulling I can't undo the knot. JL [manager company K] is standing nearby(?). Eventually I get the pants on(?)

      + riding [right rear seat] in car with dad [driving], mom [front passenger], RbOrs [bs trp5], we're driving through town. The conversation with RO (who may not be RO?) turns to work, someone says (me? him?) yeah, you don't want to go tor the "2" group, because RbOrs is the manager." I think that I may perhaps go then work for the "3" group, but I'm not sure my qualifications are good enough. I want to go to a store and get something to eat, and sort of want to get away from mom & dad. I mention I want to go to the store, but mom smiles and says something cheerful, and mentions a store different from the one I want to go to, and that (I'd get right back in the car?). I see the profile of her face, short hair, she looks very young, vibrant, and happy.

      We're driving through a treed area up hill (in Str Canyon in B?), and dad mentions taking us to the "Strawberry Cafe, where you can have some cold beers,". We enter a large open area, and my attention is riveted all of a sudden on a huge structure in the distance that fills my vision: it is a massive construct like an observatory. It is lit in the sun, and a bit out of focus, sort of white/orangish color. I see that about 20-30 feet away there are a series of steps and landings leading up to the observatory, and there is a long line of people waiting there winding up the stairs.

      Inside, I'm inside a new version of the old company "R". I hear different remembered voices/people (execs) in offices nearby. I'm thinking that my experience in company "N" will mean they'll certainly want me back here again. I see founder "J" [who sold all his shares], and think "oh, he's still here." I see a [T-shirt? some cloth] with a bunch of signatures written in colorful ink of the early employees/founders, and think I see my signature there.
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    2. 2021-09-09 baseball camp, work cafeteria

      by , 09-09-2021 at 02:03 PM
      + [DO] Outdoor, daytime. At a youth baseball training camp, observing the pitching practice mound, which is a large, tall, narrow volcano-like mound with an open bowl top, where players practicing pitching are throwing baseballs. The dirt bowl at the top of the mound absorbs the force of the throws, the balls go THUDD THUDD THUDD as they are thrown into the mound. Some pitches miss and are thrown far beyond the mound. They I'm observing fielding practice from the POV of the player: the balls are thrown up into the sky and the fielders run to catch the balls.

      + lunch at work cafeteria [DS]: large indoor area with long serving tables and picnic-style seating tables. On the main long serving table (traditional with slanted glass to covers and heating trays, there are large chunks of meat like beef. I look at these and they are very unappetizing, looking very red and hardly cooked at all. There are stations along the serving table where people are grilling/cooking their chopped meat further. The contents look very blackened, mixed with something lighter which might be bread or pita-like bread. Further away I see a table/cashier stand where people are buying alternative lunches that look like burgers.

      I serve myself a plate, it's very gloppy and seems to be made mostly of rice. It does not look appetizing. I take this to a seating area picnic-style table and sit down at the right corner of the table. In front of me is a steaming container like is used in Dim Sum restaurants. I think this belongs to ChrCh (company 3, B, N, S) who's sitting at a nearby table. I peek under the lid of the steamer basked and see what look like very tasty looking dumplings. ChrCh says I can have them(?).

      Leave and come back to the table, which is now populated by a bunch of young workers. I sit down at my spot and the guy across from me says "you can't sit here, we're having a meeting." He looks very stern. I say "I was here first," but decide to heck with it, and get up and go look for another table, leaving in a huff.

      + competition for youth orchestra spots (all string players?), the management says "you'll know when you're accepted"

      WILD attempt after final waking but too awake, can't even get to imagery
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    3. 2021-09-06 mall detective, soccer in park

      by , 09-06-2021 at 03:12 PM
      "trust" method

      + talking with a (detective)? at a kiosk at a mall, get on the down escalator, and the detective is talking about some investigator, a young man whom I briefly visualize

      + I'm standing outside in a very large park with open fields and mature trees, the place looks abandoned and the bushes/trees look like they need watering. I'm remembering earlier times there, this is a place I used to come to a lot. I'm pointing out former athletic fields at various locations around the park as we walk around. Then I'm playing in a game of soccer, my feet are clumsy and I play poorly, I keep trying to kick in a direction perpendicular to the right with my right leg, but I can't generate any strength in that configuration. After several fumbling attempt to manage the ball, finally I get in a skillful quick assist to my teammate in front of me and he quickly kicks the ball into the goal.

      [more dreams later, forgotten]
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    4. 2021-09-05 LUCIDD 262 beautiful woman,

      by , 09-06-2021 at 03:08 PM
      "trust" method

      + I'm in some sort of a restaurant or similar kind of place, sitting on a bench/couch. A very beautiful waitress with a plunging neckline
      Spoiler for 18+:
      is smiling at me and offering me something. Then she leads forwards, pursing her lovely red lips for a kiss. I turn my head and offer her my left cheek, because I know I am engaged and I do not want to be unfaithful. Then she comes and sits closely next to me, I can sense she is really into me and very interested. She puts her arm around mine, and I take her hand. Then some really huge fat guy comes and lies on top of me, he gets up and does a European "3-cheek" welcome kiss. I get up and leave the area. There is a bar area with a barman's liftable counter section, I look down a see a pile of things on the ground. People are singing in another room. I go outside, and see the place from the outside. I re-enter, I decide I want to find that young woman, but she has since left. I find what I think is a note for me along with a gift basket, and I see handwriting in red ink on a small white piece of paper, I think I see my name there. I come closer but then I can't find the note. I'm picking up the gift for me and turning it all around, I see digits, and think maybe it's her phone number, but the closer I look, things are unclear and there is no note and no phone number. I go up to a young woman hostess at a counter, I want to get the contact information of the beautiful woman, I say "just so that I can say thank you for her kindness," but they don't believe me. Later there is a pile of hostesses slumped down lying on top of each other, lounging behind the counter, and they say they're not interested in answering me.

      + DILD #262 in bumper to bumper traffic, I'm behind a [VW bus?] and use the brakes to avoid rear-ending it, the brakes seem not to work very well. My car starts and stops several times. Then I'm on a bus, and a man is outside waving for the bus to stop, (I tell the driver to stop, not at a stop, to let him on?). The man gets on and the bus drives on further. I'm now sitting on the side-ways seats behind the driver, looking towards the back, the man who just got on and another (man?) are talking about how they saw each other in their dreams, and I get lucid and tell them that they are all now inside MY dream! I look at the man some more, closely, the visuals have become very vivid.
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    5. 2021-09-04 short dreams, catching up on sleep

      by , 09-04-2021 at 03:22 PM
      bedtime: 00:00
      final waking: 09:23

      pretty good sleep. Recall enhanced with the "trust/give up" mindset, and eased back to sleep with some pre-WILD sensations.


      + sitting around the table with people in white tuxedos

      + winding through multi-line tight traffic with other cars to the right pushing in front of me, make a right turn and then a quick u-turn to the curb because the light had turned red

      + I see miniature hedgehog-like creatures through the glass door out on the deck, then Chewbacca comes from the right and enters the house, I'm worried he might step on the little guys

      + [vague, fragmented] I'm with my late wife, and she's accusing me of wanting to <foreign slang word for sex> somebody, which I deny
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    6. 2021-08-30

      by , 09-03-2021 at 09:30 AM
      early forgotten, pretty good mid/later longer vivid-ish dream

      [early]
      + some long sequence about a school?

      [mid/later] work job, single day contract, I've been here before, "recognize" former coworkers in the large kitchen/lounge, a number of scenes

      + I'm arriving in a car-pool to a work location: somewhere fairly remote, the employer provided the vehicle. As I move from the car to the building entrance, (bright daylight, blue sky?), I think these building are (or are just like) the round-domed movie theaters of the Century 21, 22, 23 complex in San Jose. Entering the building, I'm in a kitchen/break room, very large, with couches and vending machines, and people spread around the room, the focus of attention is on me/our group entering. I look around the room and think that I recognize a lot of these people, both men and women, and I have a thought that they are still working here after all this time. I may have had a relationship with a young woman standing with her back to the vending machine on the other side of the room

      At a desk, trying to figure out if it will be a good work place for me, if the height will be appropriate. Two other guys need it for a meeting so I need to find another place.

      Sitting at a workplace in front of a glass wall [DS], a colleague/woman


      + The Queen of England does not let me interrupt her conversation with a man I want to speak with (I didn't realize she was the Queen until she tapped me on the shoulder to get me to back off and I got a better look at her and realize she's the queen).
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    7. 2021-09-03 insomnia, brief Tribes & Lion dream

      by , 09-03-2021 at 09:27 AM
      Late bedtime, champagne and wayyyy too much ice cream before bed -- insomnia from 4am on. Finally nodded off around 7am briefly:

      Falling asleep veeeeryyy slowly I saw a lot of hypnagogic imagery, including a short dreamlet of the face of my fiance seen from above in bed, who in my vision opened her eyes, looked at me, then closed her eyes.

      + playing Tribes, initially, I'm DO and preparing to play another human player on some server. Play begins and I'm hovering in the air, lobbing grenades ("r" key) to clear out a base with an inventory station. There are a lot of damaged turrets around. I get in to use the inventory station, use my hotkey to select Engineer load-out with a deployable inventory station, anticipating all the time that my opponent will blast me, but I finish at the station without issues , jet-packing around ("right clicking the mouse"), planning play against human player, then attacking robot defenders of the enemy base. Hovering with the jet-pack above the enemy base, I see enemy turrets that start to activate as I approach lower.
      There are many gray, person-shaped robots standing idle, and some of these also start to move as I get closer.

      I have a close-up view of chopped/rolled (like sushi?) food/meat, and I have a tiny light-saber and I'm waving it at the food, chopping it. I see to my right that there is a calm tiger, and I do not want to provoke it. I'm eating this miscellaneous food in front of me, which becomes mostly meat, like chicken meat, then the tiger to my right is more in the scene, it is resting, with its very large paws out in front of it, it looks more like a mountain lion or now. I very carefully (thinking this is perhaps foolish) reach between the pawns of the lion and pull out a piece of meat that it was holding there, and eat it.
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    8. 2021-09-02 weak-ish recall, a lot forgotten

      by , 09-02-2021 at 07:04 AM
      Bedtime too late + too much arguing on FB right before bed + too late dinner = weak recall

      conclusion: GET TO BED BEFORE MIDNIGHT. 22:30-23:00 preferable.
      GET OFF OF THE COMPUTER SEVERAL HOURS BEFORE BED
      Stop arguing on Facebook. It's like teaching a pig to sing: it just wastes your time, and annoys the pig (Mark Twain).
      Take time to calm the mind.

      At least I slept a pretty solid almost 8 hours.

      Bedtime: 00:20
      final Wake: 08:00

      + earlier very active dreams, lots of people [DS] busily doing various tasks, details forgotten

      + in a large, rectangular exercise room, I'm at the entrance on a long wall, my son and a woman on the opposite wall right corner from me, on their stomachs, doing very high back bends. Their upper torsos and arms are raised high in the air, they're amazed themselves, and say that there is (some force?) aiding their ability to do this high back bends so easily. I try myself, I enter the room, turn to face where I entered, and showed that I was able to also do very high back bend, without the aid of this force. I tell them to come over to me and the other corner and to try there (they do?). I go to the corner where they were and do another high back bend, I do not see the difference and think there is probably no force.

      A woman clerk comes up to me and is perplexed about the backbend force, and then the topic becomes something about cosmetic products on a shelf (?)
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    9. 2021-09-01 failed WILD, handful of short fragments

      by , 09-01-2021 at 10:35 AM
      bedtime ~ 00:15 (too late!)
      final waking: ~08:20

      Failed WILD from 4 to ~6 hours after bedtime disrupted REM and sleep rhythm, resulting in low awareness, fragmented, short dreams when I finally did manage to get back to sleep (approx ~6 to 8 hours)

      Felt sufficiently drowsy, but spent too long thinking about overly-stimulating thoughts/dream goals.
      Once or twice got to hypnagogic imagery (a bright orange fire in the distance).
      Had to focus 100% on prolonged total mind and body relaxation in order to sleep, had to turn over several times because of arms going a bit numb

      + Playing indoor soccer with another woman against the Queen of England, using a transparent beach ball containing some papers, the other woman is hogging the ball, I get a couple of kicks and finally score a goal

      + My fiance and I are eating some baked goods in the kitchen, I see some more on the counter and reach for it, but she doesn't want me to eat it

      + My cousins are holding a crafts workshop, it's a sort of race building things out of large-sized double-tipped cotton ear swabs on a mini-loom-contraption, I have to use it right-handed so will probably lose

      + [f] I kick a soccer ball, it goes straight, I think about kicking technique and ball angle, I think I made a pretty good shot

      + observing a football play, the offensive quarterback is fumbling/juggling the football, then heads backwards into tall grass to hide [goes into hospital beyond grass?]

      + friend is selling time-limited internet access coupons on the side of the road, there are several foreign customers paying foreign currency, one buys one coupon, another buys a handful, I think this is a surprisingly profitable business

      + inside a room, there is a row of work booths with lower and upper levels, I think there is not much room inside, you can't stand up in them
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    10. 2021-08-31 Epic! Neighbor woman saga, firepit outside CH window, hamsters, coal train car, concert

      by , 08-31-2021 at 08:51 AM
      One of those fabulous "overflow" dreaming nights -- hard to remember it all, including a long, vivid, epic non-lucid! My first since my return to full-on practice, and a really big motivation boost!

      ~100ml champagne brut before bed
      2 ice cream bars (1 of them an it's-it style cookie ice cream sandwich)
      No supplements, sniffed some lavender essential oil

      bedtime ~23:00
      final waking: 09:23


      [early]
      + giving a shot to my (fiance?)

      [mid ]
      + in my bedroom in CH at night, standing at the windows, there is a fire burning in a "fire pit" placed outside the windows on the side of the house, I see the flames, the smoke is entering the room though cracks in the old wooden window frames. My mother is lying on the bed closer to the door, I ask her about the cost of installing the fire pit, she answers "1 12." I say that "I don't know what that means, does that mean 1/12th the cost of a 'normal installation?' Did it cost $100,000? $50,000? $20,000?"

      + [epic, long, vivid] Saga of the neighbor woman:
      I'm lying on (my?) lawn outdoors on a suburban street with my head facing the sidewalk which runs left to right (with a friend to the left?). Daytime (not very bright but not night). A woman with a small child/boy walk from left to right by us. Then (I think) the same woman with the boy walks from right to left heading in front of us again, and I mention to my friend, "Oh, there's that boy again." Right away, the woman gets down right in front of my face and asks very aggressively, "What do you mean, 'there's that boy...again'!?!?" I'm a bit flustered by her aggression and try to explain I just meant that I recognized the boy from earlier.

      We're walking with this woman to her house which is up the street a little ways. As we approach the entrance, I study the architecture of the house, note the dark stained wooden shingles lining the walls, and recognize this as a feature of many houses in B, and mention this. I'm describing all the feature of the house as we enter. There seems to be a party going on, the house is full of people. I say that this is another typical feature, that these houses are full of hippies smoking marijuana. The guys look very hippy-ish with long bushy beards, they're all young, in their early 20's. I see the guy who I think is the husband of the woman.

      We're in a room with the husband, his friends, and we're playing music. I'm thinking about singing something [details forgotten].

      Wandering around the house, I notice a guy entering a room from a small courtyard, and I think this is a bathroom and the house has the bathroom entrance from the outside.

      Inside a large living room of the house, it's night, and everyone is preparing to go to sleep. The room is fully of the young hippy people, men and women. There are no real beds, but everybody is gathering blankets (plaid?) and pillows and settling down on the ground and on couches for the night. The woman is one of the people on the bed, and (the protagonist, who is no longer me?) is shuffling the people trying to get in to position to lie next to her. Everybody on that long couch is lying parallel to each other, packed really tightly.

      I'm up on the roof of the house. All the roofs of neighboring houses are all located back to back next to each other, heading off into the horizon. They are colored light pastels: pinks, blues. People are in hot tubs on the top of the house, and they're talking very aggressively towards me [DS, I guess!]. I threaten them that I will pour the hot tub water down into their houses if they don't back off. This doesn't work and the kids from the hot tubs pursue me. I get back to the ground level and the kids are ganging up on me, throwing what looks like large Pop-Tarts at me. I am wondering if I should pick these things up and eat them!

      I'm on the street corner down at the end of the street. I'm doing tricks on a long skateboard with multiple trucks on it. It's raining. There's another guy on the other corner also doing tricks, and he sort of gets in my way.

      In a courtyard amongst buildings outside the woman's house, there is a big show, a young man is unveiling a massive (cubic meter sized) drone/robot/missile/thing made out of legos. He takes the thing take off and it looks like a missile, but it rapidly is transforming its shape as it swoops up and down and flies all around us at high speed, it is very impressive. Then the guy, since he's "against me" [DS], as a grand finale, flies the drone right at me and it hits me square in the face, since it's made of lego it doesn't hurt, it all falls to the ground in pieces around me. To show my disdain for this attack, I stomp on the pieces of the drone, completely breaking it so it can never fly again.

      In a pool outside the house, like a community pool. It is packed with people, and it is night/dark outside. In the distance, up a hill, I see the neighbor woman sitting on a chair. I sense and see that there are some guards (female) who are looking at me suspiciously from around a corner. I'm trying to avoid them seeing me [DS], I think they know that I'm not allowed to be here since I'm not a resident. There is a small boy pressing closely up against me from the right. His face is right up against mine, the view of his face is a bit out of focus, he's saying something (which I didn't understand?) and I detect the strong smell of alcohol coming from his mouth. The pool if very shallow (like a wading pool) and I'm moving about trying to stay out of view of the guards.

      Back in the hippy/woman house, the woman is there, me, and a few guys. I'm looking intently at the walls and ceiling of the house, which in almost every room has been stripped to the wall boards. I think that this is a tradition in this house: since the levels between the floors are so thick with so much material, the residents periodically strip down the walls /ceilings to the boards then add their decorations. In this case, the protagonist (not me, not here with us now) is planning to make a massive mural of the Great Wall of China all throughout the house (as a tribute to the woman?). I'm wondering and say, this will probably take many years, and you guys here with me, and the woman, may have already long graduated and left by the time the mural is finished. I can see the details of the wall boards and ceiling, and am studying these intently from room to room.

      [after recalling for about 10-15 minutes, time is 05:23]

      [later]

      + Standing with others (late wife? PaZi?) observing the hamsters (guinea pigs?) in their cage. The animals themselves are not seen. I notice the galvanized colored wire fencing that runs floor to ceiling around the cage. The openings in the fencing are about 1/2-inch squares. I notice the grey concrete floor of the cage, and notice that the poops have been neatly swept to one corner. The owner goes to throw in the food to feed the animals, using a long pole. I'm disappointed because I was hoping she'd open the fencing and we'd be able to interact with the animals. But I see they're very aggressive, they are a dark blur as they vigorously attack the pile of food.

      I notice that I've feeling something in my pants. I realized I've pooped in my pants, and I'm in a panic about this. I don't understand how this could have happened without me knowing. I wonder if the others can smell it (I don't)? I quickly move down the hallways on my way to the bathroom. I'm going to have to strip and wash everything and put it back on.

      I'm turning corners at right angles, always turning left. I enter a large-ish room there there is an Audi car parked. The driver is in the car and is moving to exit the room out of the entrance from which I entered. There is a wall/divider in the middle of the room, and I am moving to keep myself on the other side of the divider from the car and the driver, so he does not see me [DS]. As the car moves forwards, I change my position to remain unseen across the divider. I enter a long corridor on the way to the bathroom, and encounter a lot of (my? ours) clothes strewn about the floor very messily. I'm picking up pants, shirts, etc. as I go. I think about the notion of always wanting your kids to return home at any time to do laundry, etc. even when they're grown up.

      [waking]

      + Outside, near a train, out group is getting ready for a trip. I move to the back of the train but the way is blocked because the train is backed up completely against (a car?) behind it. I push the train, hoping to get it to move enough to let me get past, and am a bit surprised that it moves, I think there must have been some "slack" between the cars of the train or I never would have been able to move it. I open the high back window of the end of the train car to check the coal levels -- I discover that the coal compartment is not fully loaded up to the ceiling, like it should be. A group gathers to discuss this situation. I'm wondering how we're going to get this compartment filled -- will we have to order a coal cart to some here and shovel it in ourselves? I reach in and pick up a piece of the hard, black, rough-edged coal, about the size of a BBQ charcoal briquette, and put it back in.

      [waking]

      + arrive to pick up my instrument from the storage locker while the concert is beginning, the storage area has a clear door [DS](?). I think I've picked up a delivery just previously to this one from a storage container. I reach in and pick up my instrument case, and take it out, showing it to the people around. I look down and see a red-colored case through the case cover, and then I see that the case is opened and what I'm seeing is the red wood coloring of my instrument. I put the case carefully down on the ground and make sure that all the pieces are there and not falling out. I wonder if I am going to need to grab a fold-up music stand as well to use for the concert. The orchestra is already playing while I'm still setting up.

      I move to a closet (with white pillows/linens?) with a percussionist. He's talking about how he's going to know where his entrances are. I try repeatedly to say "you just need to learn the *context* of your entrances from the rehearsals", but every time I try to say something he keeps butting in and interrupting me. He eventually says what I wanted to say all along.

      Back in the chamber (darkened) with the musicians, they're announcing recognition awards. They announce my name, badly mispronouncing the final syllable of my last name. I say "What!?" and think the conductor very well knows the proper pronunciation of my name. I go to sit among the musicians, and sit there a while where more musicians are recognized. The ones called move through a curtain behind the orchestra. I'm sitting there a while then someone says I should go there, too, to be with the other recognized musicians. I move through the curtain. A group of the young musicians are mulling around, I'm wondering what we're supposed to do next. Some of them are lying on the ground at my feet to my right. A young lying (woman?) reaches up and takes my right hand in hers. I keep the contact, holding her hand, and looking down at her as I move a few steps forwards.
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    11. 2021-08-26 work, gym, wrench duel, snickers store, tennis

      by , 08-26-2021 at 01:54 PM
      [earlier]
      + driving in to work, on a wide open flat area, the road leading uphill to the work parking lot is up ahead. There's another car heading towards the road, I want to get there first, we start racing a bit to get first to the hill. Get out, meet ShCl (former boss at company N), we talk about work

      [early/mid]
      + downtown B (C & S), enter gym building, this is the gym of tech companies like Google, there are tons of young Google employees there. In the reception area there are many turnstiles. I'm trying to get in, my name's not on the list, I'm explaining that I'm not a full time employee yet. Inside is a work area, large open area, lots of tall counters with stools , there are many groups of young engineers all seated together discussing their projects. Working in groups like this is a requirement for working here. I'm observing the groups and think I would not like to work like that.

      [later]
      + I get off the (bus?) too early, I'm far from my destination, I'm trying to think how I can get to where I'm going. I may have to the bus. I start walking down a very long street with a broad sidewalk. At some point I see a technical entrance to the (subway)? with stairs leading down, and some employees are entering these stairways. I'm walking along this sidewalk, and getting nervous, because this is a bad part of town. I'm looking suspiciously at the groups of youths walking by. I have a long shiny two-sided fixed wrench (about 1.5 feet long) in my hand. A guy I'm walking next to has one, too, I see. We have a brief duel with these, swinging them like swords.

      I enter a convenience store and am looking closer at the counter. I want to buy some chocolate bars, I think if I feed those aggressive hoods some Snickers, they'll leave me alone. I think I see the Snickers down towards the far end, I get there and don't see the familiar Snickers logo, but there are a lot of other generic chocolate bars. I take some, including an individually wrapped single "mini" bar with a clear top, up to the register to pay for them. A group of people start crowding me [DS] and pushing me from behind, first a young kid, then an adult man (his father?), I'm quite concerned about getting pickpocketed. Then the father is doing some lengthy transaction at the cashier and I have to wait. His family is having some sort of problem on a trip and he is doing some lengthy transaction. I get very impatient and just want to buy my candy bars.

      I go to the bathroom in the back of the store and enter. It's a large room like a living room/office, with couches and desks and furniture, the toilet I think is at the back of the room and I head there. One one bed/couch there is a long row of stacked papers. As I get the toilet, someone else enters the room. I think "GREAT, I forgot to lock the room," and start heading out. A mid-teens girl, dark-ish complexion and long dark hair, is heading in to use the toilet. I'm frustrated that I've lost my chance because I forgot to lock the door, and just head out of the room back into the convenience store.

      There is a dinner buffet for friends and family going on. I'm serving up a plate for my and my young son S2. The A's (kids family friends, Ar. [boy] and An [girl older]) are there and commenting. I put a group of carrot-looking vegetables in sauce on my plate, they have a lot of little branches connecting them altogether (sort of like moss), and I'm dividing the portion between my plate and my son's.

      + at a nice building complex/park with a lot of really beautiful tennis courts [DS]. Some of them have a lot of netting separating the courts. Some of the houses are up on a hill. I come to an area which is good for practicing serves (someone says?), it's just a flat area in front of a fence/ tall netting to catch the balls. I imagine that practicing serves would probably be better on a real court. I imagine the movements for performing a tennis serve.
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    12. 2021-08-22, 23, 24, 25

      by , 08-25-2021 at 03:09 PM
      early:
      + [something about N&A]
      + comparing my very deeply tanned (nearly black) arm vs. my friends, to see who has the darkest tan, 3-4 arms all put side-by-side, at first I think mine's darker but then think grade-school friend EB's is darker
      + [doing something with some guy]

      mid/final [early waking]
      + I'm hosting an outside party where the guests are all seated in an outdoor amphitheater [DS], A (of N&A [DS]) asks for a Coke, go to get it from the cooler, I can't find it but see A's retainer in the cooler bottom
      + Looking up at a snowy hill through a chain-link fence, tell guy there that "well this year the snow didn't make it through the fence at least," at that moment some snow breaks off and rolls down to the fence, "spoke too soon!" I say
      + In a crowded (school?) corridor with people, looking at brightly colored small plastic packages (like individual tea packs) in a display case, turn to "friend" near me to say something and realize it's some random girl I don't know, continue observing the contents of the display case

      2021-08-23

      Late bedtime always wreaks havoc on recall, as does watching videos before bed. Almost not recall at all, but managed to dig up a couple fragments:

      + On top of some tall moving platform, I'm intercepting footballs tossed by the opposing team players who are playing on the ground below me

      + In the back seat of a car going somewhere juggling some items, the people in the front are talking to me about something


      2021-08-24

      Weak recall phase...hoping for more upticks soon!

      + Tossing an Aerobie indoors then outdoors with some guy
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      2021-08-25

      Scotch-fueled dreaming night, pretty good in fact:

      [early]

      + [people in places -- forgotten]

      + racquetball/squash: playing 2-on-1 2 young woman against me, I can't make shots, I call interference several times, one of them disagrees and cites the rule

      + playing a hand of poker: I'm dealt a full house (A-A-10-10-10, plus some other cards), I bet too aggressively too soon and everybody folds, I gather the cards to avoid showing my hand and shuffle

      [mid]
      + in a small "dune-bug" like vehicle with a really long gear shift handle, I'm showing that it's hard to stall this thing

      + [late fragment] working out in a gym [DS]?

      + outside in a flea market, I see lots of garbage/litter on the ground in my area, I think about cleaning it; I'm arranging my passports and documents on a table, I'm concerned it's open and accessible to all, so I try to move a small portable table between the walkway and my documents, I think (somebody says?) it won't be enough to protect them

      [late]
      + in a low small boat with a black dangerous animal (cougar/puma?) sitting right behind my, nuzzles my head from behind, I'm leery of it, deja vu, scene repeats

      + enter and move through a cluttered shop, narrow aisles, follow a girl(?) she's trying to sell something(?), I give the proprietor a handful of papers to sell he looks at them and says they're "Honda parts," and I see he has a large Honda-branded section against one wall; he opens a small box full of papers and puts my papers into the box
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    13. 2021-08-21 LUCIDD 261 crazy clock, harem, female killers, hell, goddess, taxi scene

      by , 08-25-2021 at 02:14 PM
      2 large glasses of wine in the evening before bed

      [earlier]
      + in some sort of an office setting trying to get something done from the girls there they're hiding in an office from me

      + Place like a locker room where women are paired up and they are killing each other the pairs are much stronger and they have kind of dead weird eyes (large whites tiny pupils), at some point I'm given a popcorn machine so that I can use this to attract a partner so that I can be safe, I'm walking around the room, an inspection is announced and I have a shopping cart with me, I think I can stand here it won't bother anyone, but I need to move because one group there doesn't want me there

      + [DO] A woman is being let down to hell on a staircase, it is getting progressively hotter and she is starting to sob and moan about the heat, and the demon leading her says "haha this is not even hot yet it's just the introductory area"

      + tall sort of demon god woman (30+ feet tall) very bright weird clothing ribbon on her nose approaches us we can't avoid her I seem to be her major first disciple there's a group of us she hands me a ribbon to put on one of the second or third disciple girl's nose.

      [later]
      + LD #261 DILD LUCIDD
      find myself in a room looking at a clock on the wall, the hands of the clock are spinning super fast forwards several hours for a second, then backwards several hours for a second, it is fairly dark but illuminated with a directionless blue fluorescent light (like a 70's black light). I RC and can breathe, feel that I'm probably dreaming but test further: I'm standing on a low table and lean forwards to see if I'll fall or glide/fly, I move forwards and seem to be gliding so I conclude I'm dreaming. The room is L-shaped and I'm at the corner between the two longer parts and turn to the right and am facing a wall, which I fly through. Now I'm in a long narrow corridor (also colored blue) and fly a bit down, then see (a door?) to my left, turn, and fly through it into a bedroom. I fly forwards into the room and do a U-turn to the right and am facing a woman standing at a bathroom counter, she is facing me. STM. I feel a tingle in my body and the scene fades.

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      + Harem. Start STM outside, we move to a staircase where people are sitting, the girl's "manager" (?) comes by and says something I'm not a fan of (some sort of rules?) I take her down the staircase (CH basement?). The area is packed with girls. Back to back STMs.

      + after the lucid and the harem scene I'm checking my watch and I can't determine if it's 10:20 or almost 4 p.m. (hands are at the 10 and the 4, can't tell which hands, though)

      + I got a call from someone maybe it was AG (mom of kids friends with autistic girl) or someone who needs help in a state far away they're going to fly in and give me their documents and I have to somehow help them resolve the issue but I'm concerned about my schedule I don't think I can do it in time

      + a taxi stands on a street outside, vivid, and some people are walking by they splash dirty like asphalt mix up from the street on to some people who are standing there in one of the door man comes out and scolds them runs away I see that people a couple there who is waiting for a taxi have been covered by this black goo from the street walking down the road I want to get a taxi but I see there's a long line of people and they are holding tokens the taxi driver start at the bottom and go up the hill get a token they handle token to the person who wants to wait for them and they have to wait in line for the taxi driver with the matching token to return these tokens look like small 1kg dumbbell weights one of these I think it's thrown at my head and hits me
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    14. 2021-08-20 increased recall over multiple wakings: stop light, night jogging, hotel fiasco

      by , 08-20-2021 at 09:50 AM
      3 distinct recall periods, and one long vivid/present dream to finish things off, a good night and welcome improvement!

      Bedtime 22:30
      3mg melatonin about 22:00

      Final waking 09:23

      Still moving immediately after waking, but thinking of recall very soon after waking

      Nothing written until morning.

      04:00
      [early]
      + [something with people in places -- forgotten]
      + I'm driving a car at night I'm stopped at a stop light at a T intersection (on the vertical leg of the "T" facing the top bar on the right hand side of the street. I'm waiting for the green light. I notice that the light has turned "grey", the lower circle that is normally green has turned grey. I'm anticipating the green, I'm preparing to turn right. The light turns green, and the guy behind me honks as I'm beginning to move, I think he's really impatient. I make the right turn but something's off: on top of the road is a huge, tall pile of loose dirt, the entire roadway has been covered with it going on in that directly. I'm a bit concerned about being stuck, I realize this is a construction zone and I need to get out of here. I turn around and head back to the intersection, driving in the tamped-down area of the dirt in the middle. The car drifts a bit to the right and I'm a bit concerned but it holds straight enough and I enter the intersection, now preparing to turn left at the light, which is still green for me, there are a lot of cars in the oncoming direction. The light is turning red but I decide to complete the turn regardless.


      MILD, SSILD, recall, relaxation just couldn't grasp one of the earlier scene sequences
      Visualization, some dream arm floating started, some dreamlets

      06:30 Still awake, but getting drowsy
      Go for full relaxation, "give up," "let it happen," "stop trying"

      [mid]
      + FA, check clock, it's 11:23, boy it's late, time to get up
      + Outside jogging, I decide to get some exercise, I'll probably sweat, but I feel light on my feet, I'm wearing sweat pants. It's early morning, buildings/shops are not open yet, see women in headcoverings outside [Muslim?], I'm thinking about location and directions, the place I need to get to is ahead and to the right. I run up to some buildings, I think it's a bank, there's a man standing there. I turn right run past closed bank, into a still-closed suburban business district

      09:23
      [late]
      + [dreamlet] Looking at a rectangular sign with red LEDs forming words, on top of garage roof
      + ... standing inside some area with some people (not seen) looking out into a terrace. There is an oversized grey couch there. I am really liking the look of this thing: it is very long, very wide, with ample room to sleep on. I think you could sleep with your SO there very comfortably. I'm going on and on about how attractive and comfortable that couch looks.

      I'm outside (on that couch) lying down to sleep. I wake up, and there is a deja-vu sequence about waking up and reaching for my retainer, which I'd put aside on a side table when lying down to sleep, this repeats at least once.

      There is now the issue of paying the hotel bill. There is a group of who slept on that terrace (it's a hotel apparently), had coffee and breakfast (which I didn't remember), and now we are being charged as a group for it, despite us not being "together" in any way. There is one young man who cannot pay his bill, "I'm trying to get home" he says. I'm grumpy that we have to pay the way of this young freeloader who can't pay his bill. I'm closely examining a pile of receipts detailing the costs and who they're for, but can't make much sense out of them. Still grumbling about paying, our group gets on a bus. There is a woman in our group who decides to foot the bill for the young man. She takes out a large wad of cash in order to do so. I think that I should show some Christian charity and pay for his bill as well. On the bus I take out my wallet and want to pay the woman, I take out my wallet and my cash is strange looking, like colored paper and receipts. I want to give her half of what she paid for the young man.

      Our group is waking up and gathering, we've stayed somewhere in separate hotels. "Did you like the facilities of your place?" the woman asks me. We're walking towards a place with shops/restaurants and entertainment. We pick up one of our group, also a woman, she was staying in a place with a storefront with the large word SNAKES written on it. I smirk to myself what she was probably doing with the snakes. Ahead is the entertainment area, and I notice some midgets there who are probably providing a show.

      + I'm with a guitar, I'm trying to turn it over (it's back is facing me) but its strings are caught on something. Especially the string with the thin line of red coloring running through it. I successfully unsnag it and get it turned over so the strings are facing upwards. I'm now planning on playing what I know of Clapton's "Tears in Heaven," and perhaps the few bars I know of "More Than Words." It will really impress them, I think. I think I need to broaden my repertoire of pieces so that I can put on a pleasing performance without repeating myself too much.
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    15. 2020-08-19 blue coastal elephants, ski corner

      by , 08-19-2021 at 09:45 AM
      bedtime ~23:00-23:30

      wake 06:00

      + I'm standing on the ocean coast in a fairly large city, it's built up with walkways, water on my left. A large single-file procession of blue Indian elephants is emerging from the water and heading up on to land. I think they've sum a very far way, only to arrive for a live of slavery. I'm climbing up over green metal railings to move higher up away from the water. At the top there is a mailbox which I open, and it's full of letters and colorful postcards from well-wishes and people offering advice.

      + Standing on a snow hill, at a corner where very skilled skiiers (racing?) are "parallel sliding" down a very narrow and steep portion of hill (only about one ski-length wide), then zooming around the corner and proceeding down the hill. I'm looking closely at how they are holding their feet. It's just just a simple parallel "hockey-style" slide, they actually have one foot out of their boot and that ski is upside down, and they have a complicated stance with the free foot on top of the skis and their legs really held tightly together. I imagine it's quite a trick to get their feet out at the hill and put them back later. One of the skiiers is (I think, doesn't really look like him) my late Scoutmaster NB (with a beard).

      I move higher up the hill and enter a sort of gift shop where the floor is covered in ice and people are skating (?). I notice a lot of little trinkets spread around (on foldable music stands?). Someone is with me and they are saying something like "this is what you get with local delivery"

      Standing on the ski hill in the snow, at the bottom of a run, moving up the hill, I'm thinking about the inflatable, 2-man canoe-style sleds that are racing, and that a winning team (mine?) had the strategy of just not breaking at all until they were close to the bottom. I'm saying "so, they probably had to start breaking about a kilometer from the bottom?" I'm imagining they're breaking with their hands and feet.
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