To start, a few months back I experienced my 1st Sleep Paralysis. At the time I was in a deep sleep, lost in a a strong dream. It wasn't anything bad, just very descriptive and high in emotion. However towards the end I gained full ludicity, awareness if you will and by instinct just had to wake up. So I collapsed the dream focusing on waking up to find myself stuck in a brief moment of Sleep Paralysis. I was turned on my left side on the edge of my bed with one eye opened. I didn't panic too much, and I eventually managed to move by blinking my eyes repeatably. While straining to move before that though, it almost felt as though I was still dreaming as whenever I moved it felt sort of like my dream body was moving away, but I was still constrained to the bed. Still had that dreamy feeling. No hallucinations otherwise.
Now just recently I had another similar scenario, only this time was even stranger. I was sleeping late since I stayed up a while the night before, and I was lying in bed just thinking. That eventually led me to have sort of a half asleep/awake nightmares. Nothing mind boggingly frightening, just a bit of a startle is all. After that I dreamed I was still awake lying there, and while still under the impression of being awake I decided I would lucid dream. I managed to do so briefly back in 2009 or so when I was younger. Last time I just had this inner instinct that I could induce a lucid state, even though I was already in one without realizing it. Lol. I have the best luck of succeeding when I'm still partially awake in the morning after waking from a nightmare. So while I was asleep thinking I was awake, I focused real hard on a landscape to go to. Eventually I just ended up in this weird place, kind of like my room. I could almost feel myself in bed still, but I like stepped away and was walking beside it in circles. I can recall saying to myself something like "yeah I did it". It was a very uncomfortable feeling though and I didn't like it. It was lucid, but I really didn't have full control over surroundings. Was just in a dream version of my dark bedroom, and it didn't even really feel real at all. Just like an odd, unrealistic dream state. (No I don't think it was anything spiritual or OBE, just one of those weird floaty dreams you get in the morning) So I quickly managed to wake up, and I ended up in Sleep Paralysis again! No disturbing hallucinations as usual, and I quickly broke from it blinking my eyes. What made this so ironical too was I was again on my left side waking up. So there's almost a pattern with this all. At the same time I've also been having strange dreams lately too. Just random stuff, nothing horrible. It just seems like anytime I wake from a lucid dream, I find myself paralyzed. Also I don't practice lucid dreaming, just happens sometimes.
Not scared to sleep, or having bad night terrors. But I would like to know what I've experienced, and if anyone has had similar events before. Oh and I was lying on my back, which I don't normally do.
Thanks!
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