Okay, to start off when I listen to an audio track that guides you into becoming more conscious I have trouble visualizing.
For example:

''Visualize that you're in a field with a bright blue sky and three white clouds.''

I understand that you don’t directly see the visualization but it is present in your mind, when I'm going to sleep this happens automatic without any thoughts needed a scenario plays, though it is extremely difficult to do this on demand/someone tells me what I should see.

It makes me frustrated that it is so fake and it really takes away the relaxation where I'm left with a numb body and a bad mindset.

Tomorrow I'll do a wbtb + guided meditation.