Hello,

I donīt know if I am posting this thread in the correct sub-forum, but it is related to achieving lucidity through certain techniques, so I quess it is.

After 3 months of practicing techniques for attaining lucidity, I had about 5 dreams in which I became aware of the fact that I am dreaming, yet they lasted for about 5 seconds each. But that is not what I want to talk about right now.

What I want to talk about are my normal dreams. Now that I am able to recall 2-5 dreams every night, I notice that huge majority of my dreams have one similar attribute. When I found out what it is, I was quite shocked.

It is that I do not exist as a person in those dreams. In some cases I just donīt seem to have a physical body, and I exist only as an idea, or as some invisible ghost talking to someone, or as narrator of the story. In some other cases, I completely disappear, the whole dream is about someone else, somewhere, doing something, and I am only a spectator, although I sometimes control some of the characters, like if I was a wandering ghost able to possess a body of my liking.

It was not always like this. Dreams without me started occuring in the last month. And I know that you have already understood why am I making an issue out of this; without "being" in my dream, how can I possibly comprehend that it is a dream? I canīt do RC, the dreamworld seems copletely normal, because why it shouldnīt be? I am not the one in it, so who am I to judge. I just canīt do anything that i wanted to do (like recognizing that it is a dream), because itīs not the "whole me".

And yes, I double checked, even triple checked the situation. Itīs not like aI have a bad dream recall so I donīt even remember existing.

It is a problem that needs solving, I think. Itīs not that I hate these dreams. They can be quite entertaining without me participating in the action. But I want to have lucid dreams, I want to be able to do what I wish, and mainly, I want to be the one that is living the dream. Because it is my head, and i donīt know what bussiness might anyone else have in it.


So I am asking you for help; what should I do to change this? And is this a normal condition?