Am i normal or crazy??

[Clidu]

My first 10 lucid dreams made me feel weird about myself as i was trying things that in real life i would go to jail for such as knowing what it feels like to stab someone and killing people.Lucids now are different and i like to be sensible and experience the realms of lucidity....talk to people and manipulate objects etc.....but back to my first 10 lucids....is it natural to want to experience things like killing people.....on one hand i suppose i try it because of curiousity reasons as i know itll never happen in real life cuz im not a horrible person but on the othrr hand why would i.try.something.so horrible and brutal? Its asif i have a hidden bad side that only comes out when im lucid

[Habba]

My first 10 lucid dreams made me feel weird about myself as i was trying things that in real life i would go to jail for such as knowing what it feels like to stab someone and killing people.Lucids now are different and i like to be sensible and experience the realms of lucidity....talk to people and manipulate objects etc.....but back to my first 10 lucids....is it natural to want to experience things like killing people.....on one hand i suppose i try it because of curiousity reasons as i know itll never happen in real life cuz im not a horrible person but on the othrr hand why would i.try.something.so horrible and brutal? Its asif i have a hidden bad side that only comes out when im lucid I wouldn't take it to heart. I think the majority of people on the planet have wanted to stab someone, including me!! I'm curois though, if you was lucid why was you carrying out such actions when you was the one in control?

[spellbee2]

My first 10 lucid dreams made me feel weird about myself as i was trying things that in real life i would go to jail for such as knowing what it feels like to stab someone and killing people.Lucids now are different and i like to be sensible and experience the realms of lucidity....talk to people and manipulate objects etc.....but back to my first 10 lucids....is it natural to want to experience things like killing people.....on one hand i suppose i try it because of curiousity reasons as i know itll never happen in real life cuz im not a horrible person but on the othrr hand why would i.try.something.so horrible and brutal? Its asif i have a hidden bad side that only comes out when im lucid I really wouldn't worry about it. I still to this day have some lucids where I do crazy stuff that I would never do in real life. It's a totally normal thing, and it isn't a sign that that kind of behavior's going to bleed over into real life. I'd say you should be more worried if you weren't disturbed by the killing. I'm curois though, if you was lucid why was you carrying out such actions when you was the one in control? Lucidity doesn't always mean awareness that you are in control. There's a kind of midway point, like a layer 0 lucid, where you realize that you are dreaming, but that doesn't translate into knowledge that you have control over the dream environment. It's like nothing really changes from the non-lucid portion (aside from possibly enhanced dream clarity), since you just kinda go with the flow of the dream plot. This can happen kinda frequently in your first few lucids, but once you have more experience, this becomes less common.

[Clidu]

I really wouldn't worry about it. I still to this day have some lucids where I do crazy stuff that I would never do in real life. It's a totally normal thing, and it isn't a sign that that kind of behavior's going to bleed over into real life. I'd say you should be more worried if you weren't disturbed by the killing. Lucidity doesn't always mean awareness that you are in control. There's a kind of midway point, like a layer 0 lucid, where you realize that you are dreaming, but that doesn't translate into knowledge that you have control over the dream environment. It's like nothing really changes from the non-lucid portion (aside from possibly enhanced dream clarity), since you just kinda go with the flow of the dream plot. This can happen kinda frequently in your first few lucids, but once you have more experience, this becomes less common. Thanks for the responses they have helped =)...it wasnt like a battle or anything....i became lucid and found myself at work....i saw a lady which i know in real life that works at my place and its not that i dislike her i just thought hmmm if i get a knife out this draw andd stab her in the back i wonder what it will feel like.....turns out very realistic lol but yeah i suppose waking up i didnt want to tell my.girlfriend what happened in my lucid orelse she would get worried lol