I've lurked on/off DV for years and have yet to have my first lucid. When I was really obsessed and fascinated with the idea, I did about 100 reality checks a day for a week or two, which brought a couple false lucids, but not conscious awareness. My dream recall is typically pretty good.

Anyway, I can't do that again as it's just exhausting. I always feel like 10-20 RCs a day would never carry over into the dream state.

The point of the thread is that lucidity sounds amazing, but I can't shake the feeling that I don't deserve it. It may have to do with my constant low self esteem and that's hard to change. As if being lucid is something that's too good for me.

If anyone has an opinion, feel free.