Goals and motivations for Lucid Dreaming.

[LighrkVader]

Passion, talent and ability for Lucid Dreaming is truly a gift to be grateful for. But 5 years have passed since the illusion was revealed and the oscillations in and out off duality began... beliefs and narratives seemingly fading with every cycle. So what to do now with the gift of lucid dreaming? Statistically speaking this life should last another 50 years almost. Theres surely beauty, bliss and love waiting wherever the road may go. But sometimes I miss when the stories were real. When the stakes were high and the dance was a fight to protect the light, from the looming eternal night. There was truth to be found then... and beliefs to hold. I wanted to be a warrior once, an adventurer, an explorer, a spy, a rockstar, a ladies man... But most of all I wanted to know what caused the subtle underlying sensation of being trapped in a cage, or a dream... So I moved out from home, turned off my phone, and dedicated myself to solitude... I remind myself that behind the eyes of friends and family things are still that way. And I see that compassion is all the purpose I require. It even provides true immersion and motivation to part-take in their make belief situations. I am a lover... but nature is self-contradictory... and I wanted to be a warrior... Not a nurse... But a warrior needs a truth to believe in. Or he's just a killer. Sometimes I envy the believers. I used to struggle to answer the Gurus question: "WHAT, do you want?". These days I know. I want to deeply and whole heartedly desire something... something to believe in, to make me feel young again. 50 years left... And I already feel old.(forgive me boomers for pretending to know how you feel ) A part of me tells me there's something waiting for me in my dreams. Perhaps a hidden narrative waiting to be discovered. Immersive, refreshing, fascinating, challenging, mysterious and entertaining enough to let me feel it's real even if it's just as a game. Sounds like escapism I know. I have been wondering about this for quite some time. Not only in relation to dreams, but waking life as well. Can we talk about our goals and motivations for Lucid Dreaming?