Well, I believe you now, as you told your entire story. I've sorta had the same problems, but not in the same size however.
But dear Melinda, would you read through this entire thread http://www.dreamviews.com/forum/index.php?...pic=4067&hl
It has a lot of tips, to what you could do in a lucid-dream. So far, it sounds a lot like you don't use the actual potential of lucid-dreams, but instead look at all the "bad" stuff.
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wow I went to that post and you're right! I really am missing out on a lot. I'll have to try something like what has been suggested. I usually just go with the flow and "change" it as needed.
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