ok, totally opposite from my other post, i'm sorry, i didn't really take into account how scared you felt bout it, just tackle this when it feels right for you, do it in your own time, take your time, ironically i am a hippocrit from my previous post, don't do it suddenly, take it in steps, try SP again, see how you feel, just take it easy and don't rush things, i know i was saying to rush it before but ignore that post, it was stupid and thoughtless, don't worry about it, recall the memory of it and know that you are safe now and know what to expect in future, good luck