I believe sleep paralysis is an interesting subject to talk about. Many say its a sleeping disorder while other believe its something spiritual. I guess depending on the person having the experience can decide. As for me, I believe this is something spiritual. Why? Well, when I was pregnant from my first child 1993-15 years ago, it would happen to me EVERY morning around 5:30am after my husband would leave to work, it never happed when he was off. I would get up every morning to make him breakfast and lunch and when he would leave, I would go to bed. Being that I was pregnant, sleeping on my side was the most comfortable position. I would lay down, then I would say as I lay there just thinking for about 10 maybe 15 min it would happen. I felt someone behind me. As I tried to turn, I realized I could not move, open my eyes, nor even yell. The felling was very terrifying. I had never felt FEAR as I did when this would happen. I didn't hear anything. And I don't think it was just because I could not move, but mainly cause I felt someone behind me. This was happening to me every morning in this house, expect for the days my husband was off. Never happened when my husband was there. Always happened in the early morning. It got to the point to when it would happen, I would just repeat prayers in my head and tell myself this will pass..until I fell asleep. Then when I would wake up, it felt like nothing ever happen. Some days I would just stay up watching TV so it wouldn't happen. When we moved to an apartment, it didn't happen anymore. Until 2004, we had moved into a house where the kids and I would notice the cat staring at the walls and move her head as if she was following the sight of something. At this time it only happen two times about a week apart from each other. My husband was working nights and I would stay up late watching TV. Around 3am I had just turn the TV off and turned to my side to go to sleep. As I laid there for a few min with my eyes closed, I heard the the door nob to my door moving really fast, as though someone was trying to come in my room. It scared me, I thought it was one of my kids. (I have two kids). So I was going to get up to see what was happening, when I realized my body was not cooperating with me. Then the fear kicked in, I could not yell, move, nor open my eyes. I could only hear the door knob moving fast, I didn't hear no screaming or yelling just the door knob. I began to pray in my head. I also kept thinking oh no not again.....then after about 5 long min. the noise stopped and I was able to move. I sat up on my bed and looked around. My bedroom door was open. (I had left it open, it was never closed) I was very puzzled and scared. I spoke about it for the first time to a friend I had met at work, Genna. She told me that if it happens again to say in my mind "if you don't come in the name of God, you must leave". So about a week after this happen, I had stayed up late watching a late show when I decides to go to bed. I laid on my back/side and closed my eyes. I laid there for maybe 3 min when I heard a squeaky sounds coming from my desk. I had a wooden chair at my desk that would squeak when someone would sit on it. I thought "what in the world are my kids doing on the computer at this time?" When I tried to sit up, I realized it was happening again. I could feel myself barely moving as I tried to sit up. This time I managed to open my eyes just a little. I could see my desk across the room, I could see the back rest of the chair but as I looked towards the seat all I could see was like a gray smoke that covered everything from the seat down from one side of the room to the other side. There was no odor, just the gray site. When I saw this I was really scared and though in head...If you don't come in the name of God, you must leave. I said that several times. Then I when I was able to move, I got up and turned the light on to my bathroom. I looked around and nothing. The presence feeling was gone. I slept with the light on that night. And it has not happened again since then. So if this was a sleeping disorder why didn't it continue after we moved from the first house. And why after I told it to leave, when it happed 4yrs ago, it didn't happened again during the 7 months we stayed in that house. Nor has it happed again ever since. There was no pattern to diagnose it as a sleeping disorder. One thing happen in April of 2004, 3 months before the door knob and the squeaking chair. I was laying on my stomach, leaning my head on my left hand, on my bed watching the news. Had a clear mind at the time, when in my right ear clear as day I heard the voice of what sounded like a young white woman. She said "You're crazy", in a happy tone. I sat up really quick and thought I KNOW I HEARD THAT. I didn't scare me it just really freaked me out. Later I created my yahoo account with krazyraquel. |
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