Hello everyone,

Just kinda stumbled onto this site after having a crazy dream and doing some google searches. I read threw the whole main page on what lucid dreams are and how to have them. I KNOW A LOT OF PEOPLE CLAIM TO BE NATURALS AND ARE TROLLS. I want to start by saying I am no troll. I have been a part of a couple of message boards for a while and have a pretty good rep. on them.
So, after reading up on lucidity in dreams, I realized that I definatly have a higher than most dream recall. I am talking probably 2 dreams a night average that I can remember with great detail. I have been able to do this since I was very little. As far back as I can remember actually. I think part of the ability to remember my dreams is that I realy love dreaming and somtimes thats all I think about before sleeping. I have never kept a dream journal or anything but I am going to start.
After reading about DILD and what they are, I realized that I have had a couple sparaticly threw my years. Not every night as some seem to claim, but the ones that I have had are very vivid in my mind and I can remember them to this day even tho I havn't had one in probably a year, up until last night.
It happens when I am dreaming, for no reason at all I will suddenly realize that, I am dreaming! It's like it just hits me, I say to myself, I know I am dreaming, this isn't real. I know people use "reality checks" and such to remind themselves that they are dreaming but thats not how it happens to me. It's almost like I just KNOW that I am dreaming.
When this happens it's almost like I float backwards out of my body. Like I am watching myself act from about 5-10 feet, floating behind my body. I know that some of you won't belive me, but it realy happens and I am not sure what triggers it.

Is this what people call an "out of body expirience"?

I also have dreams were I am conciously aware that I am dreaming (there's no question in my mind it's a dream) But I don't have ANY control over whats happening around me or what I do and say, but I KNOW that I am dreaming. It's like I am watching T.V. and just kinda along for the ride.

Do you guys think that this is the begining of lucidity in my dreams?

I am definatly aware that I am dreaming, But have zero control.

What can be done to gain control over these dreams? I know it can be done because I have done it maybe a handfull of times in my life, But I am not sure what I did to gain control, and when I did, it didn't last for very long.

The reason that I am asking about all of this is because my whole life I have had dreams that realy bother me. They are not always nightmares (but when they are they are horrible and scare the HELL out of me until I wake up) but the dreams seem so real that when I wake up somtimes I have a hard time telling myself that it didn't realy happen. Or when I was little I would sometimes have a hard time telling the difference of a dream and somthing that realy happened. (I can remember telling mother one time about how me and a friend were fishing and I caught a turtle and now it was lunch time and I was hungry. Well it was 8:00AM and I had just woken up. I had to try realy hard to remember that it was a dream, not real and it was hard for me to grasp that.)
Also lately I have been having dreams about an ex-girlfriend. I havn't seen her for 4 years. When we broke up it was her choice and I found out she was cheating on me after we were engaged so it realy broke my heart. I don't want to see her ever and I want her out of my dreams so I think If I can control myself I can get some closure in my dreams and be done with this. Like I said, Sometimes it's hard to tell the difference between reality and dreams. I know we all have those moments when we think "did that really happen, or was I dreaming?" well that happens to me a lot recently.


Thanks for any help guys,
Jake