Due to my having a mental illness, I sometimes hallucinate. Both audibly and visually. For audio, I hear what sounds like people murmuring a room or two away from me. For visual, I've seen parts of my room shift and change.




It's not really bad enough to be a significant problem in my life, and it doesn't really scare me though. It doesn't hold a candle to what I've hallucinated while in SP at least. I just want to be able to control it, so I don't end up a gibbering old man, in a mental ward, lost in his own world, talking to people that aren't there. It also kind of intrigues me, I mean, you can pretty much see or hear anything. I also want to be able to control it as a form of entertainment. You know, wave your hand, make someone you want to see appear. Wave your hand again, be someplace you want to be. Wave your hand again and make it all go away when you want. I figure if I'm completely terrified of it my whole life, my life will be 3x harder, so why not get some fun out of it?



I mean, I plan on talking to the people that appear, and seeing what kind of things they say. Will it be nonsense like the things most DC's say, or will they tell you something about yourself like dream guides are supposed to? Don't get me wrong, I also plan on being CONSCIOUS that I'm talking to a hallucination too. I don't plan on drifting off. It just seems interesting to me and since I'm stuck with it since my Mom has it, (and she has a severe case) I might as well prepare for the worst.



I can already make the voices dim in sound a little if I concentrate enough, so doing more shouldn't be that much harder I'd think.



So, does anyone have any shot in the dark tips or ideas? What do you guys think of this whole idea of controlling hallucinations too? Share your thoughts



(Also, I don't want anyone to say they're sorry about my illness, I'm well aware you're probably sorry, but I don't want sympathetic looks or actions given to me like I'm some kind of deluded mental patient who can't dress himself in the morning, as I've seen several of those people before and I want to not go down that route)