A bit of an issue :)

[MrLewful]

Ok so I had four lucid dreams until now. First 3 of them were frustrating as I woke up immediately after attaining lucidity (meh, maybe not lucidity, but I was well-aware of the fact that I'm dreaming). Yesterday, I took a nap and dreamt of an impossible social situation. Won't get into personal details, just I realized it is a dream ''what the hell is this? this can't be happening...ah...aha I'm DREAMING?!'' I controlled my enthusiam, I looked at my hands which were somewhat distorted (fingers were longer than normal and they were extending further). My line of sight was very limited so my first thought was to make it clearer as it looked like I was just closing my eyes. So I said, in my dream, ''I want to see everything clearer, my environment is well-lit''. My environment changed, it became luminous and I was happy with the result. HOWEVER, I could not notice details, it was still painfully obvious that it is one of my dreams. I continued to walk in an arrogant manner and none of the dream characters interacted with me anymore. I kept my calm and repeated to myself ''I'm dreaming''. I had a feeling of power and arrogance as I never felt in my life. Met some dream monster and immediately lunged at him in order to destroy it (I'm not an agressive person, maybe my subconscious is...)but my limited level of dream control was fading. I woke up with thoughts like ''COME AT ME, YOU COWARD'' as I could not catch my dream monster. Ok so after I explained the details, I have some questions. 1. First of all, I do not usually notice details in my environment, as part of my personality, character, education. I just see the bigger picture. For some time I have been training myself to be aware of more from my environment, not just my introspective thoughts. Can this affect my dream vividness? even lucid dream vividness? Lucid dreams should be life-like in detail, even better. Mine's are foggy random scenes. 2. Can my negative intentions have altered the dream-state making it just a normal one? Arrogance doesn't seem right to me at all, in real life, but in dreams it seems to be something normal, beyond my conscious control 3. Achieving that level of self-awareness as when you know you're dreaming does not trigger a lucid dream? Do I need more experience to make my lucid dreams seem life-like? There are so many questions...I hope somebody will read what I said. Either way, I appreciate your help guys. I'll keep on with all day awareness technique and reality checking and dream journaling.

[Burke]

1) Yes, how you view waking life can affect how they look in dreams. Dreams are based off of your waking life anyway. Also not all dreams are very vivid and not all lucids are very vivid either. I remember a few LDs of mine that were so faded and poor quality I could barely make out my door. All I did after that was yell, "Clarity!" and the dream became clearer. That's the beauty of lucid dreams, you can make them more clear via dream control whereas normal dreams are random, sometimes very clear and other times hazy and foggy. 2) As long as you were repeating to yourself that you were lucid it probably wouldn't change back into a normal dream. Your arrogance in the dream is understandable, you are essentially god and can do whatever you want so you're bound to have some arrogance in it. However you can keep this in check with good self-control. 3) A lucid dream, by definition, is a dream in which you are aware that you a dreaming. If you consciously acknowledge the fact that you are in a dream then it is a lucid dream. However, you can subconsciously say, "I'm dreaming," or, "this is a dream," and not realize it, like when you're rambling on about something and not realizing what you're saying. This is combated by making sure you truly question reality during RCs and ADA, otherwise the half-assed attitude you give them in waking life will transfer over into your dreams and you won't get lucid. Hope this helps and if you think I mis-read or mis-understood any of the questions just say so .

[MrLewful]

I understand. You did not misinterpret my questions. I really appreciate your help especially because my questions were answered quickly. Thank you, Burke. I'm learning a lot from reading other people's posts too, everyone has his/her own problems, regardless of age, it's cool that people who have learned this skill already can help solve those issues.