Hi there, I need some help. Please bear with me.
I had a lucid dream last night, my second (hurrah!). I had to take on a new technique. I used to count my fingers, but now I ask myself, "Am I dreaming? And if so, how would I know?" and then I try to answer that. This is because in real life I don't count my fingers when with people because I look like a weirdo (rendering it not very useful in a dream where I'm often with people).
Anyway, in my dream I was out for a walk somewhere (on my own) and somehow something in the environment prompted me to ask the question and somehow I instantly knew the answer - I was dreaming. The first lucid dream had me getting so excited that I had a false awakening. This time I was calm, but even still I tried to fire a bolt of lightning out of my hand. It didn't work, and very soon things started to go grey. I was losing lucidity.
Suddenly I was awake (well, not really, it was a false awakening) and I jumped out of bed. I was in my room. Now here's the thing. I did stop to consider that I was asleep and I went around my room doing what I normally do. I take a moment to examine something and say to myself, "Now this seems perfectly normal to me, but everything seems normal in a dream, so just examine it for a bit." I even took the time to look at some taken down shelves in my room and ask myself if they were normal. I concluded they were, but of course I have no such shelves. Then I turned towards my computer and had a conversation with two people on MSN. I recall very clearly that the computer worked, but I could only see clearly one of the chat windows, and the messages didn't make a lot of sense (although I still seem to know what they were saying).
So here's the thing... my past single lucid experience was like this one. The minute I could ask myself if I was dreaming, I knew I instantly was. It's this new second bit that worries me. Being in a dream, trying to figure out if I'm dreaming and then thinking I'm not. I know you can do secondary reality checks and stuff, but I only want the mental one because it looks too weird to do some of the more unusual reality checks, especially at work which I dream about sometimes. I don't know. I'm guessing I'd like some advice from the more seasoned lucid dreamers out there. I always thought if I could just RC that would be enough, but this time it wasn't, even though I've willed myself into RCing often when I wake up (which I did in the dream).
Thanks in advance.
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