I just can't stay detached - Dis-Identifiying from the thinking mind

[Kuhnada29]

I try and focus on the present moment as much as I can now, especially when I'm going out. And I know I'm getting better at paying attention to the present moment. But it just seems like no matter how much I try and meditate, I constantly slip back into that egoic mind of living in the past or thinking about the future, or being involved in some mind-chatter ( almost like I'm talking to myself ). I think it's the worse at night when I try and go to sleep, which I can't because I'm constantly getting caught up in mind-chatter. Even when I try to meditate and I can maintain that inner stillness, it just doesn't last for so long, i end up right back at square one. The thoughts come back when i drop my guard. And I don't even notice when I do get reattached to the thoughts. It's just frustrating. Why is this so hard? Why is it so hard to stay in the present moment. I really do want my mind to be free. Maybe I should try and meditate more, or set a schedule for meditation, like everydat. I haven't been meditating as much as I used to, maybe that's why. To all you spiritual gurus here on dreamviews, how do you maintain your present moment awareness, and keep it.