Thread: Mydera's Workbook

After the chat last night, my husband got 5-HTP from Walgreens for me, and I started brainstorming a bedtime routine. I'm going to have to tweak it a bit because I ended up needing more to relax me before bed, but here's what I had decided to do after the kids went to sleep: Drink a glass of milk, eat a Banana, take the 5HPT along with my Prenatal Vitamin I take every night (I attribute my usually good recall to it, without it, my recall goes down the toilet.) After eating and taking my vitamins, I brush my teeth and potty, then sit in the dimly lit kitchen to write down my dream plans (I've done this every night for two weeks, to keep me on track with what I want to do if I get lucid, rather than risk getting excited and doing a bunch of nothing productive, lol), after I wrote out my dream plans, I went to bed, and tried meditating in the dark for about fifteen minutes, then I laid down and tried to sleep. I ended up getting the heavy limbs, feeling like I'm being pressed against the bed feeling really quick, but my mind would not shut down. Every now and then I'd get the swirling dots and colors that form a picture, but I kept seeing them and thinking, "Finally! I'm falling asleep!" and then that'd wake me up, ha ha. I laid down around midnight, and I had to get back up to potty again, and it was 1:17 then, so I know it still took a long time to get to sleep. I'm sure after a while of getting my body used to it though I'll start to go to sleep faster. What I finally did to get to sleep was put on some headphones and listen to Taylor Swift's songs for the Hunger Games... I heard both songs about 3 times each before I felt sleep coming and took the headphones off. I was finally out Here's shortened versions of my dreams:

Dream One: My friend M lived in a rabbit hole. She wasn't home, but I saw her drive by and wave.

Dream Two: I thought I had failed to fall back asleep, and got up to read and make myself tired again. I found a book out of my daughters in the floor, thought the story inside it was wrong, but the text didn't change when I tried to reality check with it, so I was sure I was awake... I was in fact, asleep and my reality check had failed, lol.

Dream Three: I was looking at weather radar and saw something odd, but didn't realize I was dreaming.

At this point my daughter had a nightmare and woke me up. It was 20 minutes before my WILD alarm, so I went ahead and tried to WILD. I found it near impossible to fall back asleep because around 5:15 is Grandma's alarm went off ( and she's too deaf to hear it so it went off for a long while, lol), then my neighbors started leaving around 5:30, and my husbands alarm went off at 6, then the bus came by at 6:15... I gave up and decided tonight I'm going to bed earlier and setting my alarm for 4 am!

Dream Four: A tornado hits while we're on our way home

Dream Five: I'm back in high school. I have alcohol in my book bag! a big storm is coming, so they're sending everyone home. The power goes out and people flip out and trample each other. My husband tells me he has to lock up at the lake before he can go home, so I need to to get our daughter. I get angry. Someone dies in a car accident, then my husband runs over someone. He takes my car since his is a crime scene now. I try to take the wheel, but he won't let me drive. When we get my daughter I climb into the drivers seat as soon as he's out and refuse to move. He storms off. I go to a wedding for a couple of hot lesbians, the storm still raging. A lady tells me my husband was run over. I follow a path of lights distraught and upset, to see my husbands ghost in a public bathroom. He tells me I didn't want him, I needed him, and that was a problem.

So, all in all, the 5-HTP helped me relax better but didn't chill my thoughts much. Still, I woke up feeling way more refreshed and well rested than usual, so I'm going to give it a while. After all, it took about a week of taking my prenatal before they helped with my recall, and then the benefit was amazing. Also, either the Banana or the milk or the 5 HTP or all three made my dreams so life like, even my reality check failed in that second one. Not that crazy stuff didn't happen, but once that reality check failed I lost any sliver of lucidity I might have had because everything was so real. I'm going to change my WILD alarm to 4, and go to bed earlier to hopefully avoid all the hustle and bustle of the morning distracting me. I'm also going to go ahead and load my MP3 player with some slow songs and make a dedicated slow song play list to let it cycle through while I'm trying to drift off, and add that as the last part of my routine.

I'm going to read the chat logs for the one I missed this morning, and then check out some others dreams journals and work books ^_^ Apparently I didn't miss a chat, yay!