Thread: Bemistaken's Workbook

^^ Yep, I agree with you.

Saddest Dream Ever.

Earthquake in Vatican city. I felt the strongest vibrations and then I saw an earthquake in Vatican City. I was in the Sistine Chapel as I looked up at the beautiful artwork of Michelangelo crumble to the floor. Forever lost and turning into dust, I cried out to Jesus and wept for the great loss of one of the most greatest accomplishments of irreplaceable art .

DILD
I just remember waking up to do a proper WBTB (which I never do). I always wake up in the middle of the night for a bathroom break, but usually I just stumble back to bed. Well this time I made a point to walk around a bit so I could wake up. Then after about five minutes I got back in the bed and meditated. This never happens either because I fall asleep to quickly. I made a point to force myself to stay awake saying my mantra until I just couldn't do it anymore. At some point in one of my dreams I remember becoming lucid! I was in a neighborhood and I just said (out of the blue) "I'm flying! I'm dreaming!"

The sky was as clear as day and I was flying so smoothly...like a Eagle. Normally when I fly I'm a drunk Superman but this time I had control and I was actually able to fly and see the landscapes. I flew so long I even began to see the seasons change! First the sun was shining bright and it was in the heat of Summer, then I felt the coolest of Autumn on my face. Then I saw frost on the trees below and I looked up high into the sky and it was snowing as the chill of old man Winter came across my face...Wow . Everything was so clear. I didn't know doing a proper WBTB could do all that?! Maybe it was just me getting lucky and setting intent, but I totally forgot about my goals and task but the payoff of just 'being in the moment' was priceless .

Awww, congrats on the ld, bemistaken! Such a wonderful dream too! Put a smile on my face just from reading it.

Wbtb really is magical!

Had several vivid dreams from last night...

#1
A beautiful wedding scene where everyone was dressed in white. It was so white! It was like everyone was getting married at once. I could not tell whose wedding it was because every time I focused on someone they were doing things that the bride would do (i.e., dancing, eating cake, kissing and hugging). It was not only women, but men were also doing this. I started feeling so happy I started dancing right along with them! I didn't want it to end.

#2
I really don't know how to start this dream after talking about the one above but here goes nothing...

Spoiler for
:

I was invisibly f@cked. Yes, I know it sounds crazy but it's true. I felt myself being pulled to the bed and my clothes were removed and I was...err uh...yeah f@cked. It was so pornographic I can't even get into details here in the spoiler. I woke up feeling like I was raped and I need to report it...but to who?I even felt EVERYTHING but there was no one there. I was being tossed around like a rag doll but I was the only thing I would see (like watching myself in a porno film getting f@cked by air I don't mean to be anymore graphic than what I already am but I want to make sure you have an uncomfortable visual like I do. There was not one orifice on my body that didn't get violated. Are you ready for this...I woke up coughing, spitting, and choking. There, I'm just going to leave it at that

Can someone direct me to a lucid rape counselor?

That sounds terrible.

Wat's up Lucy! Boy have I missed you! Where have you been? Me...Oh, I've been with someone else named 'Reality' and boy do they suck! The entire time I was with 'Reality' I was secretly wishing I was hookin' up with you!

Anyway...I had a lucid that was so short and stagnant it was ridiculous. However, it is worth mentioning and I don't want to make the lucid gods angry because the dry spell I was having was EPIC! I am thankful no matter how short and stagnant it was. I was sleeping and had set intent not really stressing about it because I took a sleeping pill. My subconscious somehow broke through the sleep induced stupor I was in and I realized I was floating towards my ceiling fan. I recall trying to move away from the fan like a floppy rag doll and then I woke up. I was just so happy to be lucid that I recall going back to sleep with a smile on my face.

All I can say is Lucy, you are my Reality!

Lucy, you are amazing! As soon as I hook back up with you, you reward me with one DILD and two DEILDS last night! Breaking a dry spell really does a lot for your confidence. I recall getting lucid in a dream and I was trying my best to make the dream scene change to something me and my dream buddy are working on. Let's just say it changed to everything but that. I woke up. Trying to DEILD my way back out and trying not to pay attention to the vibes (I felt like I was being torn in half!) I came out into the blackness. I tried to visualize my target but the vision started to fall apart and I was back in my body. DEILD my way back out once more and tried to focus on my personal target (a book I'm trying to 'jump' into) and I saw the book outline began to form but by now I was so mentally drained I couldn't get it to stick. I slipped into a non lucid dream. Boy am I rusty! I've got to practice on focusing on control and stabilization from the beginning, middle, and end of lucidity.

Anyway...Lucy, you are the best.

Well Lucy,
You have me on a roll (semi)! I woke up to vibrations 4 times last night! I just couldn't get lift off I tried all kinds of exit methods (which I usually don't have to do because either I'm already out or I just float out). I barely could remember any exit methods because I just not use to doing them. The only one I could remember is to roll out but my mind kept playing with me and I believed if I rolled out I would roll out onto the floor and it would hurt my bad shoulder...sigh. The vibes would come and go and I contemplated this 4 damn times! What the hell was I thinking?!

Anyway...I realized I should have paid no attention to the vibes in the first place and eventually, I would have either floated out or I would have realized I was already out. Well Lucy I will chalk this up as a learning experience.

Always grateful and always humble.

Alright! Now you are back in action! I'm so excited to see what you do next.

Originally Posted by Xanous

Alright! Now you are back in action! I'm so excited to see what you do next.

Ikr?! It seems like when I took the pressure off and stop being depressed about the dry spell Lucy came back with a vengeance. What I really realized is that I have not been writing in my workbook (in other words, Lucy is a very jealous b!tch)!. I have to spend time with her or she will get pissed off at me .

Hi Lucy, I'm back on the meditation grind. Meditated today for 45 minutes before slipping into a coma. Since it is the summer I will continue to add more frequent meditation sessions to my mental practice. I always have good results when I incorporate meditation so it's time to get it on!

See you in lucid city .

Hey Lucy, nothing special to report...well I guess I do have something special because I am still meditating (that's good right?). I am really trying to maintain peace and tranquility and the meditation helps. I was reading posts and he said that you should not try to make something happen when WILDing. Many times when I am trying to WILD I find myself focusing way too much on dreamlets, noise, feelings, etc. I am wasting energy and time focusing on these things and I have no idea why I do it. Even when I give myself the pep talk before meditation, I still find myself thinking, "Oh, there's the first dreamlet, it's happening!" Sigh, Sigh, Sigh! Something will happen on its own and he said we should just let it happen by itself. Let it happen because it has no choice but to happen. The body will fall asleep if you let it...just stay aware. Doesn't that sound simple? This is truly the Master Key to WiLDing. This was just one of the best things that I have read on DV. I know I should have known this already but sometimes you really need to hear the simple stuff to refresh your lucid mentality .

"Fall asleep and stay aware" or "Let it happen"

Either one sounds like a good Mantra to me.

Ah the famous Sageous! Stick with his advice and you can't go wrong. I need to refresh myself with his course soon. I'm glad you keep up with meditation! You're a beast!

I was going to PM you, but I've really nothing to report. I'm making puny attempts to meditate at bed time (The only peace and quiet I get) but I keep passing out into a coma. At least the RLS has calmed down for now. I've skipped way ahead in Astral Dynamics and moved to more interesting exercises because I was getting way too bored. I'm about about to try the energy ball/circuit stuff here in a few minutes. Hope I don't fall a sleep, but maybe it will trigger a DILD if I do. I just need to work on that pesky poor recall I've been having. My extra early work hours are kicking my butt.

Hi Lucy, I had the most beautiful dream yet last night! I have been trying to see my aura for some time now and somehow this desire made its way into my dream. I was rubbing my hands together (probably trying to stabilize) and then I started rubbing my two pointer fingers together trying to see any color/shadow. Then between my two pointer fingers a small ball of light formed. The small ball of light was so bright it had no specific color at first because the light was blinding and I couldn't look directly at it. Then the ball of light dimmed a little and changed from a bright yellow to a fluorescent green. Then I began to see patterns circling and swirling in front of me with words forming almost like a crossword puzzle. In crossword puzzle format, I saw the words (She) Serve GOD with Enthusiasm (in this color).

Then the patterns began to swirl again changing from one color to another. As they changed from one color to another words zoomed in and out like a crossword puzzle and shapes continued to form like geometry patterns. My eyes didn't know what to focus on first . Then the geometry patterns turned red and started to pulsate like a heartbeat (thump thump, thump thump, thump thump). Words started to form again but I can't remember what they said. As the patterns pulsated like a heartbeat the patterns and words turned red the heart beat got stronger and stronger. I felt the heart palpations in my physical body and woke up. I have a feeling that I was about to find out what type of heart I had but I got too excited and wrapped up in the moment. I couldn't help it...it was such a beautiful moment.

Wow. Best. Dream. Ever.

Fantastic dream!

Originally Posted by NyxCC

Fantastic dream!

Thanks NyxCC! Yes it was...one I will never forget.

Hey Lucy! Just getting back from a wonderful vacation on the beach! I didn't know you like the beach also! Why didn't you tell me you were going to come visit me on vacation???

Anyways...I got lucid for a split second (more like an OBE I believe). I was lucid in a room with my nephews joking around and they were just laughing and cutting up. It was three of them. I was confused because we rented a house for the vacation and I thought I was in someone's hotel room and woke up. I told one of my nephews about it the next day and he told me they were in a bedroom (all three of them) laughing at the one who got really drunk and they had to put him to bed like a baby! I was like, "Wow! I thought I was in someone else's hotel room!"

Lucy, when you show up...you show out!

Congratulations on the OBEish lucid, bemistaken! (And on what sounds like a great vacation!)

How cool that you had that neat sync-up with your nephews' waking life experiences! Keep up the great work! Lucy has certainly followed you back home from vacation, and I'm looking forward to hearing about your next adventures.

I DID IT! YES! THANK YOU GOD! I was able to do something that I have been wanting to do forever. I went through a painting! I have been practicing doing well timed wbtb sessions for the last week. I recall meditating during my wbtb and after a few minutes I was able to get lucid. I have my wbtb session narrowed down to only 10 minutes because any longer than that I will not be able to go back to sleep. I was determined to do something important because I have been in an epic dry spell. What a way to break a dry spell!

"The Old Streets of Italy"

I was going to go through a beautiful painting that I have hung in my bedroom. I brought this painting years ago and it displays the lovely streets of old Italy. I was meditating on the couch in the den and I was two rooms away from my bedroom. I became lucid and got excited and found myself back in my body. I was able to DEILD myself back out and I told myself to please try and fly straight to my bedroom because it has been awhile. It took me a couple of times but I made it to my bedroom. I saw the painting on the wall and aimed straight for the center. Instead of going through the painting I slammed into it. I tried again...same thing...slammed straight into it. Took a step (or floated) back and rubbed my hands together because the dream was beginning to deteriorate. I thought to myself I only have one more chance and I really focused on where I wanted to enter the painting and this time I went through the painting! However, this is the tricky part about it. I did not end up on the old streets of Italy. I ended up in some UPS type of warehouse with boxes everywhere. When I went through the painting it was like I 'fell' into the warehouse on the other side.

I decided that I didn't want to be in that spooky dark warehouse and did a superman pose and shot straight up into the air and pass a beautiful full moon. After I flew past the moon I ended up in a room where me and my sister use to sleep when we were young and she was talking in her sleep. She had said something about Pennsylvania Ave. and then I woke up.

Always humble and always thankful. One Love.

Congrats on the ld and cool task completion bemistaken!

Originally Posted by NyxCC

Congrats on the ld and cool task completion bemistaken!

Thanks NyxCC, its been a long time coming!

Bemistaken!! Congratulations on this fantastic lucid dream!

I love that you made your way through the painting and then in spite of the dream surprising you by not taking you to Italy, you got to do something even cooler... fly past the moon!

Great job using your willpower to keep trying with the painting until things worked! You didn't get discouraged and wound up getting great results. Congratulations!

Hey Lucy! Not much to report here...it seems like July would never end! I'm glad to see a new month because a new month means a new start! I'm going to really push myself to the limit this month and see what I can accomplish. I want to do something that I have not been able to do! I know I can do it, I just have to be disciplined and stop being so lazy. I'll let you know how it goes and wish me LUCIDITY!