Sounds like you have gotten a true energy boost from your behavior changing strategy.

Not sure how you got started on the path of this habit you're trying to change, but it comes to mind, especially after reading your post that this has to do with some sort of societal values or so. Some people may do it because others do it, just like one would pick up smoking or any similar habit. Without going into a long ramble, I think that if you go back to the point of why you started this and how you trigger such behavior and really understand your inner workings, then it will be easier to start undoing all of this.