Thread: Grody's Workbook

[POSTED Nov 17 2015]
Good morning, good evening, and goodnight

Last Night:
Oh boy, last night was rough. I didn't remember any dreams, not even a glancing idea of them. I had a natural awakening about 3 hours into my sleep, but couldn't for the life of me fall back asleep. My nose was all runny which made me super irritated the whole night. Even with trying to relax I felt like I just couldn't do it.

The Day Before:
So all day yesterday I was super unmotivated to do ADA, RCs, and mantras. I'm not really sure what got over me, but it carried over into the night, which led to the awful night I had. I remember thinking about if it was even worth doing all this, but I tried my best to snap out of it.

Additional Comments:
So yesterday, in a way, wasn't a total failure. This morning I decided that I was going to be more persistent with my practice and make sure that I don't give up. This is something that I want to do and I'm sure this isn't going to be the only time I going to think of giving up. If I feel like giving up again I'll just think about how much I wanted it in the beginning, how amazing a lucid dream feels, and how angry I'd be at myself if I quit.

I have been thinking of trying DEILD for my consistent natural awakenings. Would that work?

I also am trying out a new format for my update post, I think it'll be easier to read now and show more information.

[POSTED Nov 18 2015]
Mornin'

Last Night:
So last night was better then yesterday. I remembered a dream that was really long and fragmented. It was pretty vivid, but I wasn't too aware during it. I think I'm starting to recognize a dream sign though. I think I dream about video games a lot. So if I feel like I'm in a video game world, or a game is "full screened" to my entire vision, probably a dream. I also didn't have a natural awakening last night, which was kinda weird.

The Day Before:
So yesterday was good too. I am starting to implement a "what was I doing 15 mins ago" question into my RC routine. My RCs are starting to feel more believable too, as in I find it easier to trick myself into thinking this is a dream. My ADA was pretty decent, starting to notice even more super small details. It's getting easier and easier to naturally be aware as well, its becoming a habit more then something I'm actively trying to do.

Additional Comments:
I'm back in action again. Still motivated and still going strong. Dream recall is going up, vividness is going up. Its only a matter of time before awareness starts going up too.

I need to remember to do RCs as soon as I wake up.