First I would like to introduce myself, my name is Neil I am from western NY. Recently I have been doing a great deal of self exploration. My journey has led me to an unfathomable series of events, coincidences, people, places, ideas, books, movies etc. I feel like I am being guided through life by my higher self. I am aware of this process and perhaps it helps it happen in actuality. Anyways, I have been drawing things (i am not an artist so I use mathematics charts VIA paint or something) which I did not previously know to be directly related to tetraktys. From there my mind developed new understandings and crystallizations. I came across Pascal's Pyramid, the Fibonacci sequence, Mandalas, and just a large wealth of information which pertained directly to my current thought process. My study brought be to Mayan pyramids, the formation of the reason for them ancient philosophy, dialectal exchange, many religions and the truth behind them as well as the fiction.. It's been a long arduous journey but a journey i am glad to be a part of as opposed to being some pre-programed zombie working, eating, shitting, sleeping and repeating daily.

That being said i was led here. Again following signs that seemed so obvious in my mind, I wont go into much detail on how the truth behind the Illuminati and not the perceptions of others have influenced me greatly. Got me to look into Illuminism, the Tetraktys, Buddism, Taoism, etc really just the process of opening my mind, I have some rather unique thoughts and will in the future share but I want to get to dreaming.

I feel that learning to recognize I am dreaming, eventually controlling them, and remembering them fully will lead me to a happier more fulfilling life as I can see the use of such a technique as highly enticing to my every day life. I virtually never remember dreaming. I know scientifically i dream every night. I know I have some fascinating dreams probably. I wish to explore my subconscious and more than that I wish to remember this exploration as to bring it into existence in my real life. I realize I do this subconsciously as everything can be attributed to the Fibonacci sequence and for some reason my mind flocked to this idea along with Tetraktys, Pascal's Pyramid, and everything else so this process IS working I just have no recollection of it. I want control. I don't want to go through life with vague memories of something that is familiar. I want to notice something out of place, associate it with my dream and take a new concept or realization from it. This is impossible if i can never remember my dreams.

I have been reading through many of the tutorials and while I felt they would be helpful they have no actually done anything in regards to helping me remember. I was hoping someone could assist me in my dream world ventures.

I am first trying to make this realization in my mind that i could very well be dreaming at this very instant. Am i the product of someone elses dream? Am i here because I am being thought about and envisioned by some other entity? I have been trying different things to change my mindset. recently I began pinching my nose and attempting to breath proving to myself I am awake. It has not worked yet. The dream journal i see will help me greatly, when in fact i can first remember ANY dream. I have no starting point to begin this journey.

I guess i am asking what might be my best chance to remember a dream once I awake. I have tried setting an alarm for 6 hours after my I plan on going to sleep. Waking up resetting it for 3.5-5 hours waking with no memory of what was going on while I was sleeping. I feel I have detached myself completely from my dreaming world and as I awake I am instantly brought into the only reality my awoken mind knows.

I guess a little guidance is all I really need as I am determined to remember my dreams. I do know I am dreaming 100% it is a function of the human body, I guess trying to keep myself aware of my body or worldly surroundings as i fall asleep could link me between both worlds so as I awake I may have some sort of reference to do this? Any assistance would be greatly appreciated.