Welcome to DreamViews! Hmm, it sounds to me like you are simply crossing your eyes with your eyes closed. I just attempted this and a small orb started to form. When you look away, it slowly disappears because you are uncrossing your eyes. It is pretty uncomfortable and I'm not sure how you can do that for long periods of time. I definitely saw the spot once I opened my eyes as well. I couldn't hold it long enough for a white light to appear...too uncomfortable for me .